Mcbard
10-15-2010, 05:53 PM
The True Story of Lillywhite
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March 2005
Well, nobody is reading this site and I may as will post and keep my story ongoing and up to date here. Maybe somone will read it and smile, or laugh, or cry. Who knows?
If you are visiting, some of this is adult rated in some spots so if your are not 18, please stop now and don't read it, or if your are, be careful who you send it to, to be sure they are over 18, ok?
Most of this story appeared on the Adamantine Kinship roleplaying board over 2 years ago. I will update it periodically if anything interesting happens.
The True Story of Lillywhite
Hi everyone! This is the story of my life as Lillywhite. You make like it, or
not, but it is all true to the best of my memory, and my purpose is to not just
to explain how all this stuff happened, but I hope you will all find it
entertaining as well, as I have.
PART 1: The beginning
My husband bought the game for my son, who first started playing on one of the
player vrs. player servers. I was yelling at him one night to get off and do his
homework, and he was in a group and I could not get him off, but he offered me a
"deal" to play for him while he did his homework, until he got level 6. So he
taught me what to do and what keys to press when, and did his homework and he
went back to playing. I had to admit that the graphics were very good.
Later that night when he went to sleep, I loged on just to try it for a while
since the computer was in my bedroom. I chose a different server, I had watched
my son go around killing people, one of them saying something that I did not
understand then, but do now, "please don't kill me, I did not bind here yet, and
I spent an hour on the boat." and my son killed him anywise and I yelled at him.
I did not like that server, so I selected the most populated one that was
showing, Mith. Marr, figuring there would be lots of people there who would know
what was going on.
I did not know what any of the characters were or what they could do, I had no
idea what an enchantress was, but it sounded like something that I had some
experience in, and so I selected it. I thought worshiping the Goddess of Love
Erolissi would be the best selection for an enchantress, and so I ended up
human.
Upon entering Freeport, I was totally lost and had to ask someone where to go to
the guild and they showed me and gave me 2 dervish rings, and I thought that was
very nice. I spent the whole first night getting lost and trying to find my way
around. I went to the docks and watched the sun rise, very nice graphics.
Then next day I tried killing the bats and rats and getting money to buy spells,
and I was forever broke. I gained level 4 after 2 days of playing and was really
not that excited with it and was planing on stopping, since it seemed boring,
just killing the monsters, although my son liked that.
But something happened that changed the game for me, a barbarian named
Bravebear.
My friend who gave me the dervish rings asked me to meet him at the tunnel to go
help fight in a dangerous area called s ro. Well, I did not know where that was
he told me to just follow the left wall, and it was night and I was human and
blind as a bat and I died. They went on without me. However, I was determined to
find this tunnel so the next day that was my mission.
I finally had enough money to buy some spells and I happened to cast the
illusion half elf at night and I was like WOW! I can See! I thought this was so
great that I kept this illusion up night and day. So my mission was to find
where this tunnel was. I went invisible, one of the spells I finally could
afford and also half elf since it night still, with morning approaching. I
arrived at the tunnel to see a figure standing there I had never seen before, a
barbarian, and a dark elf behind him fighting 2 will-o-whisps, who asked for
help in say but died.
So I said in say, "Why did you let her die?" and the barbarian, Bravebear, said,
"Me no hear her, me big sorry." And he turned around and said, " Me going crazy,
me hearing voices, must not drink so much happy juice." I took off invis. and he
said, "Ack, me startled. " And then he went silent again. So I asked him, Why do
you talk strange like that? and he said, "Me talk fine, You talk strange." And I
said well, how come nobody else talks like that? and he said, "Me role-play,
more fun, me teach you." So I asked him what he was doing here, since I had
never seen a Barbarian before." and he said, "Me going on big trip, long
journey, many moons from here, on quest." So I said, why are you just standing
here then, shouldn't you be going? And he said, " Me sad." So I said why? And he
said, " Me homesick", so I asked him where was home and he pointed and I looked
at the rising sun and he said "there". I said does it have a name? And He said
"Halos". So I said, maybe I can cheer you up, let me do a trick for you, and he
said, " Me like trick!". So I membed my minor illusion spell and changed into a
fire, and he said, "Help! Help! Spirits! Take them away!" and I changed back,
and he said "Oh, that you, you very clever, you make Bravebear laugh, you good
person, you cute, you make me good wife, I marry you when I get back and take
you to Halos to live with me." So I said, " People get married in the game?
Whatever for?" And he said, " You talk strange, what is game? Why else people
get married, make sons and daughters for Tribe, make Tribe strong." And I said,
" How do you get married? Do you have a judge and divorces and all? And he said,
"You very funny, you make good wife, only one problem." And I said, "What is
that?" And he said, " You not barbarian, my father kill you." And I said,
"Well, I can become barbarian at level 16, so I could fool him? " And he said,
"You are smart! That will work. You be my wife, we get married when I get back."
And I said, " Look I don't know anything about this marriage stuff, but I do
this, I'll promise you that I won't get married until you get back and we talk
about it some more ok?" And he said, " OK, do not get married, me kill any you
marry, carry you back on shoulders to Halos" and I said, " OK, I won't get
married, I promise, until you get back and we talk about it, I don't want to get
anyone killed." And he said, "See, you got it too, you role play now!" And I
smiled at him, and he smiled at me, and he said, "Me have to go, people here to
help for quest, I be back to get you, when you 16." And I said, " How will you
find me?" and he said, "You on friends list now, I find you, I go now." I asked
what that was and he told me how to add his to mine, my first friend and future
husband, possibly, and then he was gone.
So now the game changed for me, it was no longer just killing monsters, I had
something I did not have before, I had a plot, a romance with a mysterious
Barbarian, going to kill any husband I married and carry me off to far off
Halos, wherever that was! It was romantic, it was the kind of thing I dreamed
about as a little girl, and it was exciting! And so I continued playing instead
of quitting to see what would happen when he came back....
Part 2: Goodsworth
So, I continued playing, checking my friends list each day with no sign of
Bravebear, but determined to get to level 16 to be able to cast the Barbarian
spell.
At Level 5, I was being attacked by a tigress and cast my minor illusion near
inn 2 in East commons to become an inanimate object which was supposed to save
my life. I died as a chair! I left my candle on the body and the chair glowed
magically for the whole 8 hrs, and I got lots of tells as to how I died as a
chair. However, that same day, I also died and could not find my body no matter
how hard I looked, not that I had that much stuff on it but it was all I had. So
I saw a Pally fighting a mob whose name was Goodsworth and figured with a name
like that he would be willing to help me, and he did. He helped me search near
the tower for over 20 min and we finally found it. I thanked him alot and asked
if I could group with him. He said that he was level 10 and since I was only
level 5, we could not because I would not get any exp. I did not know that. So I
told him, perhaps someday when I was higher level we could and he said that
would be great. So I added him to my friends list and watched him as he traveled
throughout Norath as I also checked for Bravebear, of which there was no sign.
At level 8, I got my new wood elf spell and switched to using that to see with,
and I was looking forward to level 12 to using DE all the time, since I was told
that had even better vision. In any case, the wood elf body looked very naked
and many men started to ask me to marry them. There was a guild called "United
Resistance" that was around back then, one of my friends I had grouped with,
Galderon(Outbac) was in it and introduced me to the guild leader of that guild
who immediately asked me to join and marry him and become his queen, but I had
to decline, to keep my promise to Bravebear.
At level 10, my friend Amideal told me that since I looked like a wood elf all
that time, that I might be interested inn going to see where they live, and I
took my first boat ride. I role-played becoming seasick and vomiting overboard,
and the others on the boat picked up on that, made jokes and other comments, and
the ride was more fun. Lillywhite always gets seasick on boat rides and hates
them.
I bound in Kelethin and Amideal( who went to the other server when it split)
showed me around crushbone and I made level 11. I wanted to learn Languages
which I did not know anything about, and learned how to teach them with hot keys
or learn them by zoning back and forth. We had regular Language class, I me
Xamar who taught us alot , and Naeene(Ciniene, Kamyena) who was also in my
language class. One day, as I was at zone in to crushbone, I turned around and
there was Goodsworth, and he was level 12. So I said Hi to him and asked him if
he remembered me, which he did, and if we could group now, when we did. I
thanked him again for his help finding my body and we talked out our real lives
a bit. I was just us 2 in group meding at zone in to crushbone, and he starts
telling me how pretty and charming I am and coming on to me. I graciously accept
his compliments, and tell him what a nice person he is too. He was sitting all
the way across the hall from me, when he says, "I reach my hand down and begin
to finger your......" I am like thinking, "Ohhhh myyyyy god!" Well just then,
someone trained zone in and we both zoned, and he went ld zoning and did not
come back till the next day, so I did not have a chance to talk to him about it
then.
I had not considered how to role play such events and I thought all day about
what would be the best way to role play our future relationship. Should I walk
away from him and have nothing else to do with him, so he will just continue do
things like that to others, for example children? Would my Goddess Erolissi feel
that slapping someone in the face and walking away would be a Loving thing to
do? Or would She feel it more Loving if I try to correct his behavior, teach him
to ask permission to see if it is ok, and basically show him how to treat people
properly. The man had problems clearly. In real life, I am a very caring person
who tries to help people and this man had a problem, and I was going to try to
help him fix it(remember, I change men I love in RL to also help them improve,
and this was in my mind similar) and I set out to help him correct his poor
behavior as the most Loving thing for me to do, which might also help him in
real life. You might not see that or agree with my decision, but that was my
goal, to help him stop this type of unwanted advances on people. I did not
consider or know at the time about reporting people for harassment, or getting
them banned, but if I had known, I would not have done so, because then I would
not be able to help him with any real life psychological problems he was having.
My goal was to help him in real life, if he felt he wanted Love in game, I would
give him that so he would get it out of his system, and not have any reason to
go after other people, and perhaps help cure his problem in RL with my
instructions and discussions. Yes, he probably needed a psychiatrist, who I am
not, but I felt obligated to do my best to help him. Right or wrong, I embarked
upon this plan and so I had to devise my role-playing rules of Love.
With regard to what Bravebear might think of my lost virginity, my thought was
that in RL, neither myself nor my husband were virgins when we got married, so
it should not be that important.
Part 3: My loss of Virginity.
So the next time I saw Goodsworth, I explained to him that what he did was
wrong: that that was not the way to treat a woman, in game or out, because it
totally lacked my consent, and it did not happen, unless I agree it happened,
and that if we were going to have any kind of relationship, he would have to
understand would be negated without my consent. I told him to ask permission
first before he initiated any contact and if he could learn to be polite I would
make Love with him in game as he wanted, which he said he did. He did not ask
to marry him, in real life he was divorced and said he had a bad impression of
it.
So we did that, and during the session when he did something polite like asking
first, I would say for example: "You have become better at Loving! 1." analogous
to the skills dialog that appears when gain skills in game. I think the first
time he got up to 3. In any case, I had been talking with many people about
marriages in game that Bravebear had brought up, and the people I talked to
mostly said they don't work, because people advance at different rates and
unless you know the person in real life, there was nothing to keep people
together if they can't group and play together. So as a token of his love for me
I had him promise that we would advance at the same rate together and I told him
when I would be on line, and he told me, so we set it all up. I asked him if he
got on earlier than me to do some quests or something that would not result in
much exp.
So the next night when I log on I send him a tell, "Hi!" and he says he will be
right to me where I had camped on the bed so "I can do my magic on him" again.
He called me a love goddess, it was flattering and we made love in game again,
and he seemed to have mastered the idea of consent and got another 2 love exp
points, but he had to go right after and we did not group, and I got a group by
myself without him.
The third night I send him a tell, and he said he was in a group and he would be
with me later for "my Loving". I asked if I could come join him and he said no
the group was full, and I said, well tell me where you are any I will come to
you and just be with you, and he said not, say there it would be too dangerous.
I also noticed that he was anon now after having watched him for weeks and
always knew where he was and what level. So he said he did not know it and took
it off and he was level 16! I could see where this was heading, the following
tells I sent:
Tell: You broke your promise to me to group with me last night, You lose 1 exp
point of Loving! 4
Tell: You broke your promise to me to group with me tonight, You lose 1 exp
point of Loving! 3Tell: You broke your promise to me for us to advance levels
together, You Lose 1 exp point of Loving! 2
Tell: You went anon to hide you level from me that you had broken your promise,
you lose 1 exp point of Loving 1.
Tell: You don't want me to come even be with you now when I just want to be with
you and don't even have to be in your group, you lose 1 exp point of loving! 0
Tell: Love requires commitment and you don't have any. Goodbye Love, I am sorry.
I can not tolerate a man when I am trying to help them who breaks their promises
to me, I always keep my promises if I can, and I expect them to do the same.
Normally when too many promises are broken, it means there is really no Love
present.
In any case, I was very sad at having to do this, as was Lillywhite. Goodsworth
started sending frantic tells like, " I am sorry, look I really love you, please
don't do this, I'll leave the group now and come to you now." I went anon for
the first time in game. I was actually swimming in Felwith by this time crying
and crying with emote and several people asked me what was wrong and I
role-played a little of how taken advantage of I felt and upset at having to
break up an in-game relationship. I never replied again that night or the next
week to his tells, although I read every one. It was a very painful and
emotional night.
Did I help him at all? Did he learn not to hit on people like that again? Did I
only encourage him and make him worse? Did I teach him to honor his commitments
as a sign of love? I don't know, I did not have much time to find out, but I
never heard bad things about him again. 4 or 5 months later, he sent me a tell
one day out of the blue, saying the game was getting boring and he was quitting,
but that of all the things that happened to him here, he would always remember
me the most. I wished him good luck, and told him I would always remember him
too. It was very sad, and was the last I heard of him. "TYPE=PICT;ALT= "
I continued the next night at the sisters camp with my friends and finally got
level 12! Time to change by body again, metamorphosing to higher and higher
illusions. DE was going to be the next body I would wear all the time. Off to
Felwith I went to the enchanter guild, bought the spell, membed it, cast it!
"You have been hit for (massive) damage, you have been slain by (some NPC) You
have lost a level: "Please wait...Loading." And I am back at the sisters camp
where I bound and had to run all the way back. OK, I say to myself, that spell
is not safe in the places I go, I'll continue with wood elf vision all the time.
I got 12 back right away and I decided too many Goodsworth memories here so back
fp, and a few levels in s ro. I met my old friend Galderon(Outbac) there, who
introduced me to Syed and Foneldar, who would come to play a very large part in
my future and affect forever my role-playing story, as Syed would soon become my
First Master.....
Part 4: I become a Slave
I was back and forth a few times at the camps in s ro and west commons gaining
exp and levels. I had grouped several times with Syed, Foneldar and Galderon
often stuck together and they all liked grouping with me because of the fun I
brought to the groups with my role playing. I flirted with them and hugged them
and generally tried to be as loving and kind as I could be to demonstrate my
following to Erollisi. Syed was a pally and he proposed to me, asking him to
marry him after a couple weeks. So I asked him why we should get married? And
he says, when you get married you can make love in game. I had not yet told him
or anyone of my prior experience, but did so now. So I say, well, I am no
longer a virgin in game, and I was not married, so why should we get married? I
was trying to keep my promise to Bravebear and not marry. But Syed said, "
Well, I am a Pally and it would be wrong of me to do that with you if we weren't
married." And he was pretty adamant that he really wanted me to marry him. I
said, " I am sorry I just can't see having you get killed over this, if you want
to make love with me that badly, sure, lets go someplace. " (recall Bravebear
would kill anyone I married when he came back, and I know it can't happen like
that in game, but it was the reality of my role that I would accept it as true.)
And instead of accepting my offer, he said NO, he would not do that without
marrying me, that he loved me and wanted to be with me always to make playing
the game fun for him. I was flattered and impressed. I told him the reason that
I found that marriages break up and don't work in game is that there is a lack
of commitment, and I ask him if he would make a commitment to me that we will
group together when we go on line, that we will wait for each other to level
before we go up levels, that we would travel together and see new places, and
try to be with each other as much as possible. And he replies, "Yes, that is
exactly why I want to marry you, so you will say yes?" Many of you may remember
my posts on mmdn about love involving the total commitment of giving yourself to
someone else, which I know it is true. An idea was forming in my mind. So I
said, " How about if I become your slave instead of marrying you? " He said,
"What?" I said, " If I were your slave, no matter where you went, I would come
to you when you called. You could take me all over and we would travel and I
would give you all my money and things and you can then buy me things I need,
and take care of me. It would be better than being your wife, because if you
get tired of me, we don't have to have any messy divorces, you just sell me! "
And he says, " I would never sell you! " So I said, " OK then, if you really
love me in game as you say, I will commit my whole self to you forever, give you
more commitment than any marriage ever had in this game, for as long as you
want me, to do whatever you say, go with you wherever you want me to, and I will
become your slave and I will make vows to my Goddess that I will follow them
forever so that they may never be broken, and I will be yours totally. Does
that sound ok? " He says, " So you will really be like my wife, only I will make
all the decisions? " And I say, " Yes, Master, will this satisfy your needs? "
And he says, " I think I can go along with that! "
So with Bravebear still missing and me having doubts if he would ever come back,
, I envisioned staying with Syed for the rest of my eq playing, and if Bravebear
did come back someday, at least I had kept my commitment to him, and not gotten
married, and he could always buy me and carry me off to far Halos to be his
wife!
So Syed and I went off to an inn, I made my first vows of slavery to him, and I
vowed to become his slave and he accepted me as his slave forever, and then we
made love in game as he had wanted. I began by doing a small strip-tease,
having him inspect me, dancing, and dropping my items on the ground as I took
them off one by one. I asked him if he would pick them up for me. I said this
because I knew they would rot if left on the ground too long. However, he did
not remember so he dropped his much more expensive items on the ground to make
room for my items as he was taking off his equipment. I did not notice that.
When we were done, all his nice stuff had rotted. I cried with him and we were
both very upset.
Part 5: I become a hooker!
The next day he was not on line and I headed up to high hold with my whole group
from the derve camp, who knew where to go, since I had never been there,
although I was level 15 now( I never knew I should have gone there earlier for
my pet spells, but found them here). I got lucky and won the polished tomahawk.
When my Master got on, I told him I had a surprise for him and asked him to come
there because of the exp, which he did. I showed him to the bank and gave him
all my money and the tomahawk, telling him as his slave all the money I got I
would give to him and he could then equip us both! He was so happy( I still
felt bad for him loosing his stuff.) and we grouped all day, me sitting at his
feet, kissing him in tells, and generally role playing my new slave status, we
grouped all day together and at the end I asked him if he wanted to make love
and he said he was too tired so I said ok, and we camped. The next 3 days or
so, he left high hold and when I logged on and asked him where he was, he was
very withdrawn, I asked to come to him and he said no stay there, and I was
feeling De ja vu like from Goodsworth. I had numerous discussions with his
friend Foneldar about what was going on with him, since Foneldar was always with
him, but I did as I was told and stayed in high hold.
On the 4 th day, my Master is back in hh and He says he has a surprise for me
and to meet him at the front gate!
I get there and say, " Hi Master! Nice to see you again! " and throw my arms
around him and hug him." He says, " Last night I got really drunk with my
friends and we were walking around upstairs and it is really so cool and we got
this really great idea and it was just like too good and so I posted it on the
message board." I said, I had never been upstairs or seen any message boards.
He said, " Ok, it is like really classy and this place really needs someone like
you, so I'll show you what I want you to do for me for the next while ok? " And
I say, Yes Master". He says, " You are really serious about this slave thing
right? " And I say, " Yes Master."
And so he takes my upstairs to the bedroom across from Mistress Anna and says, "
Do you like it?" And I say, " Yes Master". So he says good, would you like to
bind to the bed for me? And I say sure Master, and I bind to the bed, and say,
"I will stay bound here till you tell me to bind someplace else? Would you like
to make love now on our bed?" And he says, "No, I want to show you the message I
wrote on the board, it is so cool!" So he takes me to the message board in the
casino and after explaining how to read it, I find his message, " I have a
really hot slave who will make love with you for 50 pp a night, please send a
tell to Lillywhite to set up an appointment! ". I was thinking, " Ohhhh myyyy
godddd."
Part 6: The Debate
After I got over the shock and calmed down, I got off the Board and we had a
long chat, and many issues were raised on both sides, some of which I may have
forgotten, but to the best of my memory this is how it went:
I said, " Master, I think this is not a good idea and you should remove this
post right now."
He replied, " I know what you are thinking, but it is a Great idea! You are just
so good at this I just have to let everyone else have a chance to see it too.
And with the money you make, I'll be able to replace the items I lost in no
time. It's like everyone wins!"
I replied, " Master, this will not be good for you, you are a Paladin, I thought
you were trying to role-play a Paladin who is good and honorable, and this is
not, it will leave a dark mark on your soul, a Paladin can not be a Pimp and be
considered good. I became your loveslave because I believed in your ideals and
purpose, not to be a hooker for you."
He replied, " OK look, if you are trying to use role-play against me, then think
about it this way, that I am helping you play your char the way it needs to be
role-played, I am being good and doing you a favor."
I replied, " I don't understand, how does this help me in any way to role-play
my char? "
He replied, " You worship the Goddess of Love don't you? You could think of this
as something your Goddess would want you to do, that would make Her happy and
pleased with how you show your devotion to spread love through the world."
I replied, " Master, making Love is only one small part of Love, not the whole
story."
He replied, " OK, if I told you to go make Love with Foneldar in game like you
make love to me, would you do it? "
This was a difficult question for me because I had become very close to
Foneldar, who was like my Master's sidekick, over the past week with talking to
him. In fact, in deciding to become a slave I had considered this very
possibility, since he and Foneldar were always together. As a wife I would have
only one husband(I have been married in rl almost 25 years) but as a slave in
this game, I could have in effect 2. So I answered, " Yes Master, if you told me
to and he wanted to, I would."
He replied, " This is just like that! "
I replied, " Master, it is not just like that, this will be with strangers I
won't even know. And besides nobody is going to pay 50 pp, who has that kind of
money? This just will never work anyway."
He replied, " Well get to know them first if you want, I don't care. But I know
that you are worth 50 pp, so that is what I want you to charge ok? " I did not
know if I should feel flattered or not, 50 pp was a fortune for me at level 17,
and I did not think anyone would pay that, that I would not have to worry about
it becoming reality in any case.
I replied, " Master, I vowed to obey you and I will, if you keep the post up, I
will follow it, but if you want to make me happy, you will take the post down,
OK?"
He replied, " Great! The post will stay. "
I replied, " Yes Master."
He logged having achieved his objective and I gated to my bed and sat on it
looking at the 4 walls for over an hour with Lillywhite, emoting crying and
crying and crying, and feeling so sorry form myself as I checked my friends list
ever 5 min that that Bravebear had not shown up yet, it would have been so great
if he had, like in the stories you read about when you are little, the Knight in
shining Armor is supposed to come and rescue you.
Finally, I got out of bed and went back to high pass to find a group, I had
decided I needed to find a new Master!
Part 7: Finding a New Master
My first vows to Syed were verbal, it was a series of promises made to each
other, and to our Gods. However, if anyone was going to buy me, I needed
something in writing, like a contract, so that they would know what I would and
would not do, what they were getting when they bought me specifically. I had
learned all about hot keys in learning and teaching languages in Felwith with
Xamar and Naeene in our language classes. So I began to assemble the ones I had
made already into hot keys, and as I thought of new ideas I would write them
down as the tentative rules and test them, role playing in groups and reading
them to anyone in group who asked about them.
My strategy to finding a new master was to find one who was kind enough to want
to help me, and also rich enough to afford whatever my Master would sell me for.
This was not very hard to role-play, all I had to do was enter a group and after
a while begin to emote /cry a few times before people would ask me what was
wrong. This would give me the opportunity to tell them that I was a Slave and
that my Master was selling me, and direct them to the post he had made. For most
people, they did not bother following up, but for others this worked, some were
playing in high pass on alts who had level 50 chars, but this had the unwanted
effect that during the next week I got a tell from my first client, and my
second, and my third.
Now, in real life, I have NEVER sold myself for money. If I liked a man enough
who showed me a nice expensive night out and was a lot of fun, it was my choice
to sleep with him after, or not. It was a very strange feeling making love in
the game for the first time for money, and I had never felt that feeling before.
It is hard to explain exactly, feeling....cheep, like you lose a part of your
soul. The first time I had Lillywhite /cry in bed for 20 min after he left, the
next time it was only 5, and she did not cry at all the third time or any time
thereafter. My Master was happy as I turned all the money over to him according
to my vows.
In meeting with each client then and always, I would discuss with them their
age, and test them by various means, for their knowledge of college subjects if
they said they were in college for example or history or current events. My son
is 15 years old now, he was just 13 then, and I was very much concerned about
doing this with anyone under age. I rejected many people because they either
told me they were under 18(my cut off), or I just did not believe they were
telling me the right age because they sounded too immature as they spoke or
could not answer the questions that I felt they should have been able to answer.
But eventually at level 19 I encountered Bigshovv who had a level 35 char who
was kind enough to be willing to buy me and after many negotiations with Syed,
had finally agreed on a price. The sale was all set up for the following day
when I would become level 20 and select my second name(Loveslave), make my full
slave vows to my Goddess during a ceremony, followed by my sale. I had logged on
early for just 30 minutes before I had to drive my daughter to ballet class to
work on the vows in my hot keys and checked my friends list, and my heart
stopped.....Bravebear was on line!
Part 8: Bravebear Returns
My hands were shaking as I switched to barbarian language and typed, " My Lord,
you have no idea how happy I am to see that you have completed your quest and
have returned! "
Bravebear: My Lady, how have you been?
Me: My Lord, I have thought about you every day since I last saw you all those
months ago, I need you now very much, if you could come here so I can tell you
all that has happened.
Bravebear: My Lady, I only logged on for a few minutes here in Freeport to do a
transfer to some other characters before I leave, I don't have much time really,
and you were very lucky to find me on line at all.
Me: My Lord, I am not worthy any longer to be called your Lady, some things did
not go as I planned and I ended up being a hooker in high keep, and I need very
much to explain everything to you please.
Bravebear: WTF? OK, I am almost done with the transfer, I am bound there, I'll
be there in 5 min.
Me: Thank you, My Lord!
I remained sitting on my bed in my room across from Mistress Anna and told him
how to reach me since he had never been up that far. I had him join me in group,
and told him the whole story I have posted here, showing him the message board
in the casino and returning to the bedroom where I explained how I became a
slave so I could keep my promise to him and not get married, so he could come
and take me away when he returned as he promise all those months ago. When I
finished, he spoke:
Bravebear: I am just so very sorry. I did not know all this would happen,
Bravebear is not my main char, my main char is Arthurian Legends who I have been
playing during all this time and I got to level 40. But I can't help you, I am
so sorry for that.
Me: Why not? You are back now, we can continue our story!
Bravebear: I only logged on today to transfer some items to a friends account, I
have cancelled my account and can't play anymore. Bravebear, Arthurian, they are
all going to die.
Me: /cry Please my Lord, NO! You can't die! The story is not suppose to end like
this, your not suppose to die! You are suppose to carry me off now, buy me and
go marry me! Please, please , can't you stay to help me? I did all this for you,
I kept my promise to you, and I need your help now so very much. Please!
Bravebear: I can't believe this, you have me crying in real life.
Me: I am crying in real life too, My lord.
Bravebear: I am truly sorry, but I simply can not. I played this game too much
and nearly flunked out of college, I am leaving in a few hours to go back and
take make up classes and I agreed with my parents I would stop playing.
Me: /cry Real life has to come first my Lord, study hard in school and do well,
I will survive and it will work out someday. I have to go drive my daughter to
ballet now, I will be back in 40 min, will you be able to be on line then?
Bravebear: Sorry, I will be on the way to the airport then.
Me: I really have to go, I will always remember you my Lord.
Bravebear: And I will remember you always too, my Lady.
I kissed him on his lips softly goodbye, and camped out.
When I logged back on later, I had Lillywhite cry and cry in despair. Where was
the love, the romance, the adventure she had so hoped to see? All she could see
was that she was going to remain a hooker forever. I added 1 new vow to the hot
keyed vows because of this event, that she would never get married, since
Bravebear was gone. And the ceremony was coming up for tomorrow!
Part 8A:
This occurred much later, and is not really a part of the current story:
When I was level 59, I was in WC for a hate raid, and in ooc I saw the following
shout, " Bravebear shouts, " Can any one tell me what is so great about a blue
diamond that someone would want to sell it for 2k? " Now, this seemed to me like
an old boyfriend showing up at your front door to say hi after you have been
married a long time. Obviously accounts can be cancelled and reactivated.
Me: My Lord, you have returned! Blue diamonds make various resistance gear that
is very useful in some situations."
Bravebear: Hello my Lady, how have you been? Did everything turn out OK?
Me: Yes, my Lord, everything worked its way out.. How did your studies go, did
you do better?
Bravebear: Better My Lady, C's and B's.
Me: Sounds like you could do better, and if you start playing this game again,
your grades will fall again too.
Bravebear: I am just visiting, I don't plan to play long.
Me: I understand my Lord. While you are visiting, I would very much enjoy
telling you the things that have happened to me since, but I am going to Hate
now so I can't, but if you want, I can meet you in HK tomorrow if you like."
Bravebear: I would enjoy that very much my Lady, what time?
Me: How about 5 pm EST?
Bravebear: Great, I shall be there my Lady.
I went off on the hate raid and he sent me a few tells asking me to describe is,
since he had never been there, and eventually the tells stopped as the buffing
and the battles took my attention.
The next day, I ran from the wiz plat in wc where I had bound for the Hate Raid
to high hold. I had not been there in over a 6 months, and it brought back lots
of old memories. I sat on my bed till 6 pm and he never showed up. I re-added
him to my friend's list and checked for a few months after that, but he was
never on again, so I finally deleted him to add a more current friend.
I hear he is back again, so I'll re-add him and start looking again.
Part 9: Slave Vows
The next day was a Saturday, I was in group with my Master and trying to get to
level 20 for the ceremony later when I would make the slave vows I had hot keyed
to my Goddess. I would go over to him and sit at has feet as I had used to do
and he would walk away from me. He would talk to me but only when he had to,
about the arrangements, and I felt like he was punishing me. I decided if a
Master wanted to punish me then they could have me loose exp or a level, so that
I would try harder to please them again, and added it as vow.
I was looking for clerics all day who worshiped Erollisi, and sent numerous
tells to many human clerics but none worshiped Her. I felt great despair that
Love had deserted the world, the mystery of my romance with Bravebear had ended.
My new Master had asked me if I would continue in HK and I had told him I would
and that I would give him all the money I made, I just needed to get away from
Syed. They had agreed to sell me for 1.5k, and since I had made 150 pp the first
week, and if that continued, then my new Master, whose main was Rattlesnake,
would break even in 10 weeks.
So I made level 20, we all went to assemble in Mistress Anna's room. If any of
you have ever hailed her, she replies something about chains, which was what I
was doing with my Slave vows, chaining myself forever. So I thought it was
appropriate, since a cleric of Erolissi could not be found.
Present were Syed, Foneldar, Rattlesnake, and a few others I don't remember,
there for the show. So I began my slave vows, some of which I had already made,
but this time in writing:
" I vow to my goddess Erollisi the following forever"
1) I shall be a slave forever and my Master may sell me or do what he wants with
me like any other item.
2) I will be obedient to my Master and do as I am told without question or delay
as long as it does not harm others, my faction, or is banable.
3) I will keep the name of my Master in my trade window and post anything else
there that he tells me to.
4) I will never get married.
5) My Master owns all money and items I have except no-drop, and I will turn
them over upon command.
6) I will bind where my Master tells me to.
7) I may never belong to a guild except that of my Master.
8 ) "TYPE=PICT;ALT= "Unless I am with my Master, I will never go anon or
role-play, so my Master will always know where I am.
9) I may not buy food or drink for myself, but must beg them from others.
10) My master may punish me for any disobedience by exp or level loss and I will
accept this.
11) If any Master tries to give me my freedom I will return as a slave to my
last Master.12) I may not lead a group, but as a slave must follow.
13) I will show these vows to any who ask to see them."
Then, " My Goddess Erollisi, I bind my self to these vows, and I choose now my
second name so all will know I am your devoted servant" Nobody knew what my name
was going to be, and they all cheered when it appeared after I typed /surname
Loveslave.
The money was exchanged and Syed said, " Your new Master is now Rattlesnake, I
hope you will be happy in the life you have chosen for yourself." And I replied,
" I will try my Love, I will try."
Part 10: High Keep Levels 20-37
It was a few days before I would venture down to join a group in the Main Room.
I had 1 regular client who came back almost every day, and some of his friends
that he to me, so I spent my time learning the new role that I was now playing,
demonstrating to the men the different bodies they could choose from, finding
out their likes and dislikes, and generally trying to pay back Rattlesnake as
fast I could for his help in buying me. It no longer upset Lillywhite, she had
accepted this role now. I got several tells asking me to come join groups
there, or asking me what I was doing because apparently the bedroom was right
over the main room and they could see the message "Lillywhite casts a spell" but
I was never anywhere to be seen. I had hoped that Rattlesnake would play
Bigshovv and we would be able to travel together and develop the romance I had
all but given up on, but he was more interested in playing his main that his
alt, so for now, I just bided my time, playing my role.
The day I first got to go down and fight in the lookout room with Eagles, I
died and lost level 20. I had never gotten a rez before and did not even know
they existed, when the screen appeared that someone named Katie was casting 50%
rez on me. I pressed the button and wow! I got level 20 back! I was very
grateful. She was immediately draw to me for some unknowable reason( she saw my
last name), I had head later that she had been talking to the people in the main
room about how strange it was that Lillywhite would spend hours casting spells
and not ever come down to fight. Well, she immediately wanted to know all about
me, I brought her up to the room, told her how all this came to be, read her my
slave vows, showed her Syed's post, which was still up, but which he finally
removed a week or 2 later. She told me she loved me and wanted to be my slave.
Ok, how many times have I heard this line from men who all they really want to
do is make love to me? I had never made love to another woman in RL, so this
was a new experience for me in game, and over the coming weeks she would become
an ever greater part of my story, helping me with my clients, and being with me
almost wherever I went.
Back then, there was a lot of time for me to role-play, Kunark did not exist,
and the lists were sometimes 10 or more long trying to get into the main room or
warrior room. So either I got a group, chatted with my friends, which I had a
lot more time to do then, or role-played. My role playing would attract men and
I would bring them to my room to tell my story. Some would want to make love
after, but the most common reaction was for them to want to regard me as some
quest to buy me and to free me. I always had to remind them that that would
only succeed in returning me to my last master and some did have intense
role-play adventures with my Master trying to buy me. Freeing me in my mind was
a cop-out, and act of avoiding responsibility and commitment so they could go on
their merry way and rescue the next damsel in distress. I was not interested in
being someone's quest, or being free at all, and am still not. I am interested
in someone who will love me, take care of me, have romance with me, want to be
with me and group with me, and most of all want to keep me their because they
love me. I am like the genie in the bottle, confined by my vows, powerful and
able to be used to grant wishes for good or to be abused for evil. I endure my
confinement, shackled by my rules, waiting for that day. I reasoned, perhaps
wrongly, if I give it enough time, it is bound to happen, but in any case, it
was Lillywhite's dream, it kept her going, and even hookers can dream of true
Love can't they?
In another development, as it turned out, my son had gotten bored with the rp
server and begun chars on this server to be with me. I had tried to keep him
from HK saying I had my adult friends and he had his and we should keep our
friends separate, but there were not many places for him to get exp at level 20.
So he went to group in HK and heard from his group that I was a slave, and
naturally went to my husband, "Did you know Mommy's a slave?" OK, so that
required a bit of explaining. I would end up showing my husband what I was
doing a few times during the bedroom role play scenes and he accepted it finally
as harmless. I am not about to run off with any man I meet in the game or
anything. I explained this to my son, adults can do what they want together and
it is not real and means nothing, it is only acting in the game. My son did not
have my password at that time, so I had no problem keeping my activities as
discrete as I could be during this period, and as much from him as I could.
Katie discontinued being my slave and more and more and wanted to buy me from
Rattlesnake to become my Mistress, but he would not sell me, and I finally
suggested that if she really wanted, try marrying him, then she would become my
Mistress. She liked this idea very much, they discussed it, and since
Rattlesnake was almost never with me and she was, they thought that it would
work out well. They got married and both their last names became Hellraiser.
After about 3 weeks, someone complained about my last name Loveslave to a GM,
and it was removed from me while making love with Conquerorx, and I was changed
into an Ogre, scaring us both enormously. OK, a GM with a sense of humor. I
petitioned to get it back, but they claimed that there was no record of who
removed it, and did not know how I was changed into an Ogre unless it was a bug.
So I eventually I talked with Xave, about my name and my role-play as a slave,
explaining the significance of it to my role. He said that yes, I could role
play a slave, if done discretely, but that my name was too suggestive for my
role, making it not discrete and so he would not return it. Keyena had
suggested a few names to me for replacements one of the Lovemaid, which was
found acceptable, so I ended up with him approving that.
After Syed finally removed his post at my insistence, Katie made another one
that was not so blatant. However, I got a tell from Lily asking me if I wanted
to file a complaint against her for posting it about me, and I said no, I was
not harmed, and explained what we were doing. She said someone complained about
the post so she was removing it, but that posting it was not discrete, but would
not file a warning against Katie since I did not wish to complain, since it was
about me. She told me anything people do in group chat or in tells is
allowable, since people may leave groups or use ignore to protect themselves,
but posting such things about others would be a violation since I could not
remove it to protect myself. I told her it was ok and the post was deleted and
no warning issued.
As time went on, I gained levels and Rattlesnake was on less and less, him being
involved with a rl girlfriend and Katie was becoming more extreme in her
behavior and not letting me go anywhere outside of HK. I was basically
confined, broke because of giving all my money to them both, having paid back
Rattlesnake after 7 weeks, and was still wearing basically the same rags now at
level 37 as I had when I was level 20, with just a few exceptions. My days at
HK would have to be coming to an end, and since I was not allowed to leave the
zone, it was time again to find a new Master to help me escape.
Part 11: My 3rd Master
I had met Strut at the ledge camp in High pass, where he was being power leveled
by his RL wife Harlet, a 50 druid which was the highest level possible at that
time. He had several high level chars and was working on more to help his guild.
Over the next many weeks I would meet with him and group with him, and he began
to work on Meak instead of Strut. I grouped with Meak on numerous occassions in
High Keep, as did my son, and Meak knew all about my role play as a slave which
I had told both him and his wife. Actually, anyone who passed through High Keep
knew about it, but he knew because I told him directly, not because it was
second hand or third hand information. As for my son, he just did not let anyone
know he was my son as I had instructed him, and he would tell me when people in
his group were talking about me.
In any case, I had been trying to find a new Master from among my clients, and
Rattlesnake had agreed to sell me since he was not playing much in any case
lately due to his rl gf and we were just both exacerbated with Katie and could
not figure her out. He had negotiations with several of them but they fell
through. When Meak asked me how I was doing one day when it was just me and him
and Harlet in the raider room, I told him things were not going well, I was
looking for a new master and could not find one who could afford me. He told me
that I should take up jewelry and make the money to free myself that Rattlesnake
wanted. I told him that as a slave I have been giving all my money to my Master
or Mistress and that doing jewelry was very expensive so I would probably never
learn it. He inspected me as if to confirm my state of destitution in the
equipment I was wearing, and then ooced, " Manastone for sale! " They were
selling for about 30 k at the time and I told him to keep it and see what
Rattlesnake would want. The previous negotiations had failed because Rattlesnake
wanted a ruby breastplate, which I think had regeneration, and they were very
expensive at that time. But he also wanted a set of e boots, and since now
Rattlesnake was juts level 42 or so, he still could not go get a pair himself,
and they were selling for 11k at the time. So after a few quick negotiations,
they reached an agreement to transfer me for 1 set of eboots and 1k. We were
lucky that Katie had been gone for a few days and Rattlesnake had me leave high
keep finally to make the trade in n ro with Meak.
Meak immediately gave me the new set of rules I was to follow, really just 2.
First, I was to not charge anymore for making love in game, and this was a
relief to me, and only make love if I wanted to. Second, he told me to
concentrate on getting max jewelry skill and gave me 200 pp to get started. Then
he outfitted me with about 20 K of equipment from his alts raising my int to
over 180 and sent me off to FP to learn jewelry.
Then Katie came back and when I told her Rattlesnake had sold me and she was no
longer my Mistress, well, she went ballistic. How could I do this to her, how
could I hurt her like this, didn't I love her? She immediately stopped talking
with Rattlesnake and had a GM remove his last name from her. For me, she still
wished to control me and it was during this period that she threatened to shout
in all the zones she was in that I was making love with children in the game if
I did not come with her back to HK and stay there with her. Well, I did go back
to her there, but I would not take commands from her and she did indeed start
shouting these disgusting lies, and I reported it, and petitioned it, and ooc's
for everyone in the zone who heard it to report it and petition it to help me,
and a GM came and gave her a formal warning. This was the final straw for me
with her, she had been with me so many times when I would interrogate people to
make sure of their age before making love with them in game, she knew these were
lies and was trying to destroy me for revenge and to carry out her blackmail
threat. We were never lovers again after that, we did group a few times after
that but didn't say much to each other and have mostly gone our separate ways,
although I see here on line still occasionally when I check my friends list.
I ran out of money in FP on jewelry and Meak brought me to Guk to earn some
more.
Part 12: Respectability
At level 38 I first went to guk with my new Master Meak. He showed me how to got
there, gave me new rules to follow: never kill a living froglok and always try
to give at least one hour notice before you have to go so they can find a
replacement. Even though Kunark had by now come out, there were still long
lists for all the camps but I normally did not have to wait long. I got luck,
won a few items, but for the most part, I would collect fine steel since nobody
wanted it and at the end of the night after I was fully encumbered gate out and
go to Grobb to sell it in Troll illusion. I was able to make 200-300 pp a day
here and as the money added up and I went up levels. I was focused fully on
learning jewelry and gaining levels as fast as I could to get the better
intelligence spells to comply with my Masters orders. During this time I would
often receive tells from former lovers asking me for a get together, and for the
most part I would tell them I had retired and was working on becoming
respectable, which they were always sad to hear.
He had me join his guild Season of Eternity at level 44 and he asked me to do a
Fire Giant raid with them in sol B, my first time there. I was told to follow a
Paladin so I would not get lost and put on autofollow, and followed the Paladin
where he went up on the land past the lava river and through a door. This
promptly got us all trained and killed and they all blamed me although I still
don't why. Cr was very time consuming, nobody had bound near there, they were
all level 55+ and had not expected to die, and they never really forgave me and
there was a lot of hostility towards me from them after that. However, I did
my best to assist my Master with his guild, and went on a raid to chardok also a
place I had never been to and never got there that night. I was left alone
someplace in DL to wait, I had never been there before, and I died when I was
attacked at night in snow. The rest of the raid went to chardok, and I was
bound in guk, asking someone to rez me which never happened since they had all
left and were continuing the raid in chardok without me. After 90 min of seeing
guild chat about the wipe out in chardok and the cr going on there, I got a
message from someone I had once helped asking if I wanted a 50% rez. I took it,
and gated back to guk after giving him clarity. I did not make any more friends
in the guild when I complained about this on the SOE web page the following day.
As time when on and I progressed to 50, mostly in Sol b, which I liked better
than Guk. I then began fighting in KC to reach level 52. I had accumulated
close to 6 K and secluded myself in Erudin to complete my jewelry skill with the
platinum series which I think went from 190-250. This took me several weeks,
and being once again secluded with bedrooms handy, some of my old lovers would
come by. One of them had given me some items raising my max int to 206 for
making jewelry, and we made love in games several times during this period. As
events would transpire, I would also select him to become my 5 th master, for
reasons that will be explained later.
I achieved jewelry skill of 250 and the total cost was about 7 K from 1-250. My
Master was astounded since he had been told it would have cost more than 25 K.
If you enchant the bars, you can make up for the failures by selling them for
more than you paid to make them, I was able to do with less money. I supplied
my master with free jewelry for his diamonds paying for the platinum myself and
giving him back the items he had originally given me as I acquired no-drop items
that were better. I acquired Monk items and gave them to him too.
Eventually the SOE guild leader Wynter resigned, and the new one Uglee took
over. Uglee and I did not see eye-to-eye, in my opinion he was harping on
people's faults to much, criticizing everyone and driving them out of the guild.
I told in tells him he needed to adopt a more Loving attitude towards people and
the next thing he had removed me from the guild. This was not a good decision,
I was the highest-ranking ench in it by that time, who went on many raids with
them. The guild collapsed a few weeks later as everyone else left too.
My Master then started a guild called Benevolent Royal Order and I joined that.
With my alternates however, I joined other guilds, my cleric joining Knowledge
with my old friend Naeene from way back in the days of our language classes
together, and with Morf, who had had long discussions with me and Katie after I
had gotten my new master. Within a few weeks, the union of the lemmings with
knowledge was announced and my cleric, then level 44 (now 53) was invited into
the new guild called Ancient Prophecy, and I really loved this guild. After
much discussion and persuasion, I was able to get my master to join AP and then
I was able to have Lillywhite join as well. I was so happy! I went on every
raid I could, and did my best to see it was a success. However, the Guild
leader here, Grasswind, had a change in his job schedule, and had to resign, and
after a series of new guild leaders over then next month and people leaving, I
was given guild leadership by Beautia.
This presented me with a roll-playing problem: A slave can not lead
free-people, and I could not really be guild leader and have the respect needed
to run the guild if my Master could just tell me to do something else if he did
not like it. I asked Meak if he would give me to the guild, as its slave, not
to rule it, but to be its servant. He agreed, and I scheduled a guild meeting
ceremony for 3 days later in Akheva. During the next 3 days I worked on
acquiring a few spells Meak wanted for his Ench such as gc2, dictate, and a few
others I forget. I was able to get these free easily enough for Meak just by
making love with one of my former lovers. They were worth abut 10 k at the time,
and I gave them to Meak before the ceremony as what I hoped parting compensation
for all his help to me along the way. At the ceremony, he formally gave me to
the guild as its slave and I changed my owner in my trade window from Meak to
Ancient Prophecy, and appointed new officers. I had no plans on every leaving
AP, even if I was the only one left in it, I planned on staying guild leader
forever. It was the completion of the story, hooker gains respectability and
becomes a success! I stopped all in game loving during my time as guild leader,
I knew that this would hurt the guild and did not really have time for it, since
the needs of the guild came first. All my old lovers clamored for my attention,
and I told them I was too busy, which I was, and they commented on how boring I
had become. It became so that I could trust my son with my char, knowing I would
not get strange out of the blue requests for love from some stranger, and I gave
him my account to play me when he wanted. And I was happy, and content, and
while everything was not perfect, it was a fun time for me. And months and
months went on until..
To be continued...
Part 13 Erudin Library
Lillywhite walks the halls of the Library in Erudin, thinking of the still
changing story of her life that has now brought her here. Her sixth master
Taldian had just sold her for 30k( 4/5/02) to a new master who, like her fifth
Necromaster, was to ashamed of her to have his name associated with her in any
way and started a level 1 Erudite named Nullifier to be her master. She has
just met with him at the bank. He had read her story and her vows that she had
been writing, and was aware of the power that it gave him, and had her turn over
all of her money to him, the 22.4 k that she had been saving for KEI. Thus it
was for him a leveraged buy-out only costing him just 8k. After giving her his
new instructions (which will be described in later parts of this story), he
camps leaving her alone, and she walks to a place of security and peace that has
come to be one of her friends, the Library in Erudin.
She looks at the barren walls of the Library, thinking of the rows and rows of
books in the library in the Tower of Frozen shadows and in the Library of
Kaesora. But none are to be seen here, and she knows that to be just an
illusion to keep the vast knowledge of Erudin hidden from those who would
otherwise misuse the powers that are hidden there. She closes her eyes as she
has done so many times before and chants the spell of appearance: and rows and
rows of books appear before her stretching farther than the eyes can see.
Clearly there is more space on the inside of this library than shows on the
outside. But still, something is missing, and she casts another spell, and a
table and chair appear from where they had been hidden before and she sits down
and gets ready to continue writing her story. She needs a book familiar to her
that she has opened many times before from among the millions on the stacks, and
chants the mystical phrase: pub49.ezboard.com/fbladesoftunarefrm11 . A
magical book from the shelves appears in front of her. The books on the shelves
are all different colors but this one has a glowing black cover with pages of
gray. With a gesture from her hands, a bottle of ink and a quill appear on the
table and she begins to write:
" Within the world of Norrath in which we live, there are several message
boards. I have already described the one in high keep in the casino and how it
had such an effect upon my life. I have seen the one in Qeynos as well, and I
have heard rumors that still others exist in other cities, but I have never
found them. However, there are other message boards that exist outside our
world and outside the rules that govern it, that none the less play an enormous
role in what transpires here in our world. These are assessable to everyone,
even level 1 newbies. I have learned that there are parallel worlds identical
to ours in every way except the inhabitants in them, and even these people have
access to these magical message boards, allowing inter-dimensional
communication. My purpose in telling my tale has been to explain how and why my
life was affected by events that occurred and some of these events have occurred
outside our world in these magical places that I can access from among the
millions of books here in the library. My goal is not to rant, or to criticize,
but to simply explain what occurred for those who do not know, or are from
alternate worlds and are interested in the story of my life. As you sit in the
Library of Erudin among the vast stacks of books at the table and chair in which
I am writing this, summoning the books that I have indexed to appear before you
that chronicle these events, please remember that.
My knowledge of these other mystical message boards is vast. As the leader of
the guild Ancient Prophecy, I had and still have full control of that web page.
Even before I became guildleader, I sought to create rules within our guild chat
and on our web page that would comply and be consistent with the rules of the
world of Norrath. I reasoned that if someone would be warned for shouting
obscenities in a zone because they were harmful or offensive to some people,
then those same rules should apply in guild chat and on our web page as well.
Why should the guild message board have any rules that are different than those
that would be expected in the world of Norrath? The same immature and
impressionable minds of adolescents would still be harmed by vulgarity and
disrespect, whether it was in shout or in guild chat or on the message board,
all of which were vital parts of being a member of our guild. When I became
guild leader and re-wrote the rules of conduct, I made any such speech
violations that would have resulted in a warning by a GM if shouted in a zone as
sufficient for removal from the guild if done in guild chat or the message
board. Ideas were encouraged, as was freedom of expression, but only as
consistent with the same rules that apply in the world of Norrath.
However, many message boards do not hold to this policy, they adopt their own
different rules as they are free to do, and this is how my life in Norrath was
most seriously affected. Rules different from the world in which I live, and
against which I had no protection or GM to help me, placed an insurmountable
handicap that has almost brought my life here in Norrath to an end.
As you chant the following phrase, a book appears in front of you containing the
message that changed my life:
pub18.ezboard.com/fmithan...=1&stop=20
and you may read how that conversation developed if you wish. The specific part
that radically altered my role play is as follows:
" Ok.. my patience has worn way to thin and its time the gloves come off.
Lillywhite, for someone who says on one hand that love can't be defined...WTF
you turn around and do exactly what you said can't be done. With your own
version of manipulating people to make them what you want them to be and calling
that love no less? Placing conditions on someone to change them into something
you can love is WRONG.
You are the stupidest @#%$ moron I have ever had the misfortune to meet. No,
I take that back. Tat was the stupidest. Your right up there next to her tho.
Go crawl back into your cyber hole where you belong...you wouldnt know real Love
if it came up and bit you in the ass. The only thing you know is to play @#%$
head games with men/boys/girls??? whatever to manipulate them into something
that pleases your selfish #$%@ until your bored and move to your next victim.
And by the way.. in case you haven't @#%$ noticed.. take a look at your MMDN
title (that thing under your name on the top left corner of your posts)....very
fitting for a slut.
It's women like you that give women in general a bad reputation of being a lying
using dick tease.
Thank god there is a lot of women who play here that are not like you.
You won't win a war of words with me Lilly.. I suggest you learn to shut your
mouth and don't even try. Because I haven't even gotten warmed up yet. Cee "
I had not noticed before this that the web page moderator, Destructis, had given
me the new title "Cybermaid" based upon some posts by people who remembered my
days in High Keep as a hooker. I had tried to ignore these posts, but the more
and more I tried to ignore them and talk about something else, the more people
kept bringing it up. Now this post and that title had made it so nobody would
ever forget my past and had turned my very interesting life into something very
sinister and ugly. Sometimes I can feel the thoughts of the soul who is giving
me life, and as I read this, I could feel her thinking, " Ohhhh.myyyyy.godddd!".
And I was very frightened because she was also thinking I have no further future
as her main, that my life was over now. Her thoughts were of Les Miserables
and of a man who had stolen a piece of bread and was imprisoned and pursued
throughout his life for it, no matter how much good he did, his past was always
a step behind him, threatening his ruin. After all the tells I received from
others offering me money for making love in game, after the tells from guild
members telling me they were quitting because of this, she saw there was no way
I could continue to lead AP effectively and that I would have to step down.
These events and this decision can be found in a book that will magically appear
before you if you chant the phrase:
pub18.ezboard.com/fmithan...1068.topic
. This phase of my life was coming to an end, the only way for me to help the
guild I loved so much was to step down and remove myself from it. It was time
again for me to find a new Master... Lillywhite "
Lillywhite sits looking at the glowing letters she has written on the magical
pages, tears running down her face. She finishes reading it and finally chants
a brief spell, and the words vanish from the book and her world and reappear in
another universe where her fate hangs in the balance. She casts another spell,
and the mystical book fades away slowly returning to the stacks. Then she
suddenly composes herself and hastily wipes the tears away and runs from the
Library forgetting to re-hide the stacks of books and the table. She has just
received a tell from another patron who is now waiting for her, and she rushes
off to meet him. To be continued.
Part 14: Finding My 5th Master
Once my reputation was destroyed and everyone was laughing at me, I turned to my
friends who had helped me and who I trusted to select who would become my next
Master. I considered returning myself to my former Master Meak. Now I do love
Meak and he helped my very much. But he had his RL wife Harlet he played with,
and I felt that any romantic relationship with him would never happen and I did
not want it to happen since it might affect their relationship in RL. For Meak,
my Love is the love of a father, not a lover. I felt that if I was ever to find
the romance and companionship I had briefly tasted when I first met Bravebear,
that I would have to try someone else. Additionally my relationship with Meak
had become somewhat strained while I was leader of AP. Within a week of becoming
AP guildleader, we obtained several epics for our members, and his was one of
them, him being a monk. I then turned my attention to trying to get other epics
for our members and this angered Meak. He felt that I should obtain epics for
the highets level characters in the guild first, and that since his alt cleric
and ench were higher level that others in the guild, that they should get their
epics over other people who had not epic char at all. I felt that would be a bad
thing for the guild to do with its limited resources, you can only play one char
at a time, and 6 people all playing with their epic at once would be better than
1 account with 6 epic chars on it, and I would not do what he wanted. So within
1 week afer we got him his epic, he removed Meak and Harlet and all their chars
from AP except his cleric, and had many of his friends leave who had joined when
his guild Benevolent Royal Order merged into AP. I was very heartbroken by this,
and it hurt AP greatly. So I did not feel at all comfortable by the prospect of
returning to him as his slave again.
So I then met with one of my oldest in-game lovers in shadow Haven and asked him
about it, and the conversation went something like this:
Me: Hi Love! Remember when we met long ago and you said that someday you would
be my Master?
Him: Of coarse, I could never forget that.
Me: Well, are you still interested in the job? "TYPE=PICT;ALT= "
Him: Why, what happened?
Me: Well, they have been calling me a whore on mmdn and some people in the guild
read it and told me they are leaving because of it, they said I am the laughing
stock of the server, and they did not want thier names to be associated with
somone like myself in any way. I feel like such a failure, I am not going to be
able to attract new members into the guild anymore or keep them once they find
out about my past. Since I have to do what is best for AP I feel I have no
choice now but to leave it so I won't cause it any further harm, and I need a
new Master. So are you still interested?
Him: Of coarse I am, but if I agree you will have to make some changes in the
way you have been acting and do everything I tell you, come when I call you to
me and satisfy my every pleasure.
Me: I am but a slave Master and that is what I am for. You remember my slave
vows? would you like me to show them to you again and we can go over them so you
know everything I will do for you?
Him: Sure, that is a good idea.
So I hit all the hot keys for him where my slave vows were recoreded had
remained unopened for so long. He finished reading them and we discussed them
for a little bit.
Him: OK, these are acceptable, what do I have to do now?
Me: I need to transfer AP guildleadership to and alt to give it to Gelgamesh
tomorrow, if I can give it to you now, then as guildleader of AP and acting in
the best interests of AP so I can't hurt it anymore you can transfer me from
being the slave of the guild to being your slave.
Him: I am not going to disband from my guild to do that, let me start an alt
level 1 to do that and I can camp it here and meet you nomatter where I am
located on this char.
Me: OK, I'll meet you in Bazzar.
I waited while he started his DE and brought it to the Bazzar. There were
several other reasons why I had selected him other than him being a trusted
friend of mine. He had provided me also with equipment and spells over the years
and he was rich, so he would not need my money, and in one of the top 4 guilds
on the server, which at some point I figured I would join when all this died
down, and I would just keep a low profile. So he finally arrived and I made his
level one char guild leader. He commanded I leave the guild and transfer my
ownership from my fourth master AP, to him, my fifth master. I did so, and then
loged on my alt, got guildleadership back on that and returned to Lillywhite so
he could issue me my new instructions.
Him: OK, in your trade window after it says that I am your Master you will
write, " I am the Toy of everyone and I will let them play with me whenever they
want." And I was thinking, "Ohhh...myyy..godddd."
Part 15: Toy
One of the reasons I had selected my fifth Master was because we had already
made love in game so many times that I felt we had already done everything in
that respect that he could do. While I expected he would make use of me that
way again for a while after becoming his slave, I did not expect anything
so..radical. I was feeling very bad about having had to leave AP in disgrace
and not feeling very confident in my abilities any more. I needed someone strong
who could help me restore my confidence and heal these wounds. I had felt that
my long-time lover and friend who had already helped me and given me so much in
the past would be able to do this, and I would at least find the companionship
if not the romance I had been seeking since the start of the game.
He brought me to the bed in Shadow Haven and told me: "Toy, bind on this Bed,
remove all your clothes, and kneel before me with your legs spread apart."
Me: Yes Master. (I bound on the bed, thinking of my 10 weeks bound to the bed in
High Keep so long ago. I unequipped all my items leaving nothing in my trade
window, and knelt before him on the bed, as he stood in front of me on the floor
naked.)
The level 1 char he had created to help me with the guild transfer was named
Kharzakk, who was my formal Master. I asked, " Master would you like me to
transfer the name of my Master in my trade window to your Main character now?"
Him: Why would I want to do that?
Me: Master, as you know, I can only join the guild of my Master and this char is
a level 1 and has no guild. If I change Master to your main, I will be able to
join your guild and be with you on raids and be with you in groups.
Him: Toy, let me make this clear. First, I would be ashamed to have you with me
in my guild, and in all the time I have known you I have never grouped with you
or asked you to be in a group with me because I would be ashamed to be seen with
you. I want you to promise me you will never tell anyone who your Master really
is since that would embarrass me very much.
Me: Yes Master, (/cry as I had never realized that he felt this way, but that
what he said was true) I promise I will never tell anyone who you are and will
answer no-comment if they try to guess.
Him: Very good Toy. Second, with the bad rep you have now I seriously doubt you
will be able to ever get into any of the major guilds. You have no chance of
ever seeing those places I have seen or of slaying the mobs I have slain.
Third, as the Toy I will help you become, you will never have any need to join a
guild again, I will have you occupied constantly and you will have no need for
raids, or loot, or experience ever again.
Me: Master, I had hoped to see new places and kill Gods and Slay dragons
someday. I have been working so hard all this time to be able to do that.
Him: Toy, as I am standing naked in front of you, tell me what you see.
Me: I see your big @#%$ Master.
Him: This is all you will ever be seeing again, mine and others like it, so
give up on any of these other dreams you have, they will never come true for
you.
Me: What if you get tired of me and decide to sell me Master?
Him: I will never sell you, I am the last master you will ever have, so give up
forever on ever being anything else but a Toy.
Me: Yes Master.
Him: I want you to know how unhappy you have made me over the last year. You
used to be so much fun and then you changed, and were always too busy or had
some excuse. You asked me for help in becoming your Master so now I am going to
help you become fun again. Tell me you want my help to become fun again.
Me: I want your help to become fun again Master.
Him: Very good Toy. Now, I want you to stand up.
Me: Yes Master. (I stood)
Him: Very good Toy. Now jump up and down.
Me: Yes Master. ( I jumped up and down till my stamina ran out and I could not
jump any more, and told him that.)
Him: For the next 10-15 min had me continue to do a series of actions, repeating
sometimes things I had done before, standing, jumping, bending over, kneeling,
running, spinning around till I was dizzy, like I was some mindless animated
Barbie Doll he was playing with, all the while telling me what a good Toy I am.
Finally he had me kneel down on the bed with my legs spread apart again while he
stood in front of me and began to talk to me. I want you to tell me what you did
wrong over the last year and how we are going to correct that behavior.
Me: Well Master, I was not doing anything wrong until they started calling me a
whore and a slut on mmdn and I had to step down because of the bad rep they gave
me over my past.
Him: I see, and how did you handle that?
Me: Master, I tried to avoid it and ignore it and talk about something else but
they kept bringing it up over and over again, and calling me Cybermaid, I did
not want this to become the issue it did.
Him: I think I see where you made your mistake Toy, and why you are such a
failure.
Me: Yes master?
Him: You have not been honest with people, you have been lying to them and to
everyone and to me. If you had just been honest with them, none of this would
have happened.Me: Master that is not true, I always tell the truth!
Him: Very good Toy, I am so happy to hear that. I want you to tell me you are a
whore and that the only thing that matters to you is sucking cocks and getting
@#%$ all the time, and being a Toy that everyone uses for their pleasure.
Me: Yes master, I am whore, and the only thing that matters to me is sucking
cocks and getting @#%$ all the time and being a Toy that everyone uses for
their pleasure.
Him: Say that again Toy, and make it different so I know you won't use the
repeat key.
Me: I repeated typing it out differently.
Him: Keep saying that over and over until I tell you to stop.
Me: I continued typing it 5 or 6 times and he told me to stop.
Him: Now, tell me Toy, are you a whore and a slut?
Me: Yes Master.
Him: And you always tell the truth?
Me: Yes Master.
Him: Then the people on mmdn who called you a whore and a slut were right about
you weren't they?
Me: Yes Master.
Him: And you lied to them trying to act like you were something else but they
saw through your act.
Me: Yes Master.
Him: I want you to stop lying to everyone Toy, I want you to admit the truth to
them and tell everyone they were right about you, and that you are a whore for
anyone who asks you.
Me: Master, I don't think that is such a good idea.
Him: Ahhh.there you go thinking again. Toy, you do not have to think, all you
have to do is what you are told. I will do your thinking for you, they will all
be very happy with you when you tell them that they were all right about you
from the start. They will forgive you and love you when you confess the truth
to them, and they will stop hating you because they know you have been lying to
them.
Me: Master, this is very difficult for me.
Him: I understand, you need my help to become a good Toy, don't you? Beg for my
help.
Me: Yes Master, please I need you to help me become a good Toy, I beg you.
Him: Very well, since that is what you want, if you are a bad and disobedient
Toy, I will bring [my necro] here you will nuke yourself to level 59 and you
will accept sacrifice once for each time you disobey me. Does this help you Toy?
Me: Yes Master.
We discussed the plan for him to make anonymous level 1's to ask me for love in
game and accepting sacrifice if I refused any, so I would never know if it was
him or not and would have to meet with anyone who asked. We made love and
finally after 5 hrs of this session we logged. The next day I made the post on
mmdn that admitted what everyone had said about me was true, that I am a whore
and will make love to anyone who asks me (that is what whores do after all). I
was very shocked and hurt when I got banned without even being warned as stated
in the rules at that time I would be, because they had said the same things
about me and I did not know or see it in the rules that it was ok for them to
say bad things about me but not ok for me to say the same bad things about
myself. I had already gotten tells in game for requests from people to make
love with me in game for 50 pp based upon what they had said about me with the
"Cybermaid" label and slut rants. If anything I felt they were in effect
soliciting for me and I really was shocked when they banned me for just doing
and saying exactly what they did about myself. (This is not a rant, but my
feelings at the time, and is an important part of the understanding my story,
and my purpose in telling it.) So later that night I informed my Toymaster that
his prediction was wrong, and I had been banned on mmdn..
To be continued
Part 16: Dreams Die(Adult)
I loged on that night and my Master was not on line, so I went to acrylia and
got into a group. I was in the group about 20 min when he got on line and told
me to gate right away to him at the bed in shadow haven. I told him I needed to
find a replacement first and he was very mad at me for not coming right away and
being disobedient. I told him my vows require that I not follow a master's
orders if it will hurt others, and that by leaving the group before I got a
replacement they would be forced to sit waiting for a rep to get there and
loosing the exp they could be getting since I juts got in the group. He said he
did not care, that he felt I was still caring about getting exp again and
commanded me to come right away and I put him off a whole hour till my rep came.
Once I gated back to him:
Him: I told you I wanted you to come to me and you put me off for exp and loot,
you did not come when I ordered you.
Me: Yes master, I am sorry, it won't happen again.
Him: I know it won't because I am going to punish you to make sure you can't get
into exp groups, you have to forget about that and just work on being a Toy.
Please hand me all your equipment.
Me: Yes Master. Master, I am sorry, I have so many no drop items now that it
will not work, I will still be almost fully dressed.
Him: OK then, go to the bank, and put all your items on you that are no drop and
give me everything else that is not. You will duel me and consent me and I will
hide your body. How will that be Toy?
Me: You are very smart Master.
So I went with him to the bank and did as he commanded, leaving no item in the
bank I could equip. He was having a hard time dueling me with his level 1 char
but some tank(who I will call War) who wanted to make love with me had sent me a
tell earlier and had by this time come along and joined us.
Him: War, can you please duel my slave and kill her?
War: I am not going to hurt her! Are you nuts?
Him: Toy please nuke yourself until you die then.
Me: Master no please I will loose exp and level 60, please don't make me do
that!
The War challenged me to a duel right away and I accepted and he killed me and I
consented my Master and he put my body someplace. My master was most greatful to
the war and told the war to have fun with me and left the group.
I made love to the War and he said he would tell all his friends about me, and I
thanked him for his kind words about me.
My master returned and joined me on the bed.
Him: You may not leave this bed until I give you permission for any reason, do
you understand Toy?
Me: Yes Master.
Him: You will not join any exp group, you will stay on this bed and pleasure
everyone who want to be pleasured by you, is that clear?
Me: Yes Master, I have lots of tells now for people who want to be pleasured by
me Master, after what happened today on mmdn.
Him: I heard something about that in guild chat, you have got such a bad rep now
it is unbelieveable what they were saying about you.
Me: And did you defend me master?
Him: Defend you? I joined in and told them stories about what a bad enchanter
you are.
Me: Master, you never even grouped with me, you are destroying my reputation!
Him: I don't look at it like that, I feel am helping you build a good reputation
as a whore and a slut, which is what you are isn't it?
Me: Yes Master.
Him: So what did you say on mmdn that got you banned:
Me: Well, I told them that I was a whore and would make love with anyone who
asked me and that I was posting it because I wanted to keep level 60 since my
new Master would make me lose level 60 and have me accept sacrifice from his
necro if I did not.
Him: You told them you did not want to loose level 60? That was the reason you
posted?
Me: Yes Master.
Him: This is your whole problem this last year, you keep thinking about exp and
caring about it. I told you that you need to forget about exp you don't need it
any more, you are going to be a Toy, but it is clear to me that you still care
about it. Perhaps you need a lesson that will teach you to forget all about exp
forever, maybe level 58 would be a good level for you, would you like that?
Me: No Master, I worked so hard, please don't make me do that.
Him: Sounds to me like you still care, maybe 55 would teach you not to care
about exp anymore.
Me: /cry Master what can I do? Please help me, what do you want me to say?
Him: Convince me you don't care about exp anymore, that all you want to be is a
Toy from now on.Me: Yes Master /sob Master I want you...to make me a stupid Toy
forever, I don't care if you want me to be level 55, or 45 or even level 12, I
only want to be a Toy for everyone to play with, nothing else matters to me.
Him: You have made me so happy Toy, this is very good. How would you feel about
being level 12 again?
Me: I would feel like a stupid whore Master, and everyone would laugh at me and
they would know the only thing I would ever be good for again is a Toy. I would
forget about ever raiding or getting loot or killing gods or any of the dreams I
ever had, I would only be a Toy forever and ever.
Him: And you would like that wouldn't you Toy?
Me: Yes Master, I don't care about experience any more, I am just a Toy.
Him: Very good Toy, over the next few months I will help you to fulfill this new
dream of yours.
Me: Thank you master, you are very good to me. Master, when I am level 12 again,
will I still have the abilities from aap points? Will run 3 work for example?
Him: Do you care? What would a Toy need with run 3?
Me: I may need to run someplace fast so someone can meet with me Master.
Him: I think if they are continueous abilities they will continue to work, but I
don't really know, but I suppose we will find out in time. Now lay back on the
bed.
I laid back on the bed, and I raised my arms over my head and crossed them at
the wrist, looking up at my master defiantly.
Him: I wish I had some rope on this char.
I waved my right hand and chanted a minor spell, and some rope appeared in it.
He took the rope and bound my hands to the bed post. As he did so, I thought how
symbolic it was, for he was also slowly binding me to my role as a Toy, but
instead of using rope, he was doing so with my reputation and now with my
levels. And as we both made love, I kept hearing the thoughts of the soul who
inhabits me as I sometimes can and she was thinking of which alternate should
become her new main.....and it scared me...but I did not care as I abandoned my
whole self to the throws of our passion. When we finally finished, it was late,
another 6 hr session with my Master was over and he left me tied to the bed
overnight, so I could not get up and look for my body....
To be continued......
Part 17: My Sixth Master
Someone once said that the Gods work in mysterious ways. This is very true since
we sometimes think something bad is happening but if it had not happened, things
would have been worse. This is one of those stories where the Gods, in their
humor, intervened. It was unexpected, it was sudden and shocking, and over in a
minute, yet it changed everything.
I awoke the next day still roped to my bed. I was immediately deluged with tells
from people wanting to make love with me, several saying they were from other
servers and had made new chars here just for that purpose. I had explained the
reasons for my post on mmdn using the AP web page and asking for someone to make
a link, which they did. Lots of people read it and somehow people from other
servers found out about it. In the first day there were over 700 hits on it and
by the second over 2000! I had given up hope of escaping my eventual future as a
low level whore and with that abandonment I came to embrace the idea and even
long for it, as strange as that sounds, and was willingly assisting my master's
plan to destroy the last remnants of my former reputation. I set up 6
appointments to meet each of them in 1 hr intervals and left time after that for
my master since he was not on yet. For the overflow I set up appointments for
the next night. At some point in the night my master got on and wanted to come
to me and I told him I was booked till midnight and he said fine he would be
back then, which he was. We made love again, talked about when I would get my
body back and he said not tonight and tied me back up to the bedpost again. For
the next 3 nights all I did was make love in game with 4-6 people each night,
and my master kept putting off giving me my body so there was not really
anything else for me to do in any case. On the fifth day, my master sends me a
tell while I am with my first client.
Him: Toy, I want to meet with you now.
Me: I am sorry master, but I have an appointment after this one and I can fit
you in then, probably another 90 min.
Him: Toy I do not like the way this is going, there is never any time for me
anymore, you are with everyone else ALL the time.
Me: Master this was your idea and I am sorry but I am just being the Toy you
wanted and besides I am with a client right now and you are taking my attention
that I need to give to him away and that is very rude, so can we talk about this
later please?
Well he continued to pester me all through the rest of that session and
constantly asking for me to tell him what I was doing causing me to have to type
things twice, and really making himself irritating. I put on an afk message
because there were so many tells going on that I could not make love and answer
them all. My master got mad at that, saying I was putting him on hold, and
ordered me to talk the afk off, which only slowed my replies to him further
since now I had to type the same message by had that had been on the afk message
to everyone. My next client was here and my master was furious that I was
putting him off. Now normally I do not mention my clients by name and keep
everyone's identity secret, but in this case the character's name was Stabbin,
and is ok since I found out later it was not being played by the real Stabbin.
He had been trying for the last several nights to set up an appointment and I
finally got him here and I told my master that my slave vows allow me to
disregard a command if it will hurt others this was one of those cases where
putting him off again would have been rude and hurtful. As I was checking
Stabbin's age, my master was becoming increasingly upset with me not seeing him
right away and by my refusal to put off this client who had spent all the time
to come all this way. It appeared that Stabbin was of sufficient age and so we
began. However, Stabbin went through all the moves and positions in a very swift
and erratic way, very unlike anyone I had ever made love with, unable to hold a
position for more than a few seconds before changing it to something else. I was
really stressed by this and by my master yelling at me for not getting rid of
him and by the other tells that I had to reply to since I could not use the afk
message. Stabbin had positioned himself so that he was facing away from me and
told me to lick his balls, which I did. Here is the conversation"
Master(tell): You can not put me in a schedule, I will decide your schedule, you
will disband group from him right now and join me.
Me(tell): Master, he is almost finished I think, just wait a few more minutes
ok?
Stabbin(group): I @#%$ all over your face.
When I read this I was totally shocked and had to think for a reply consistent
with my new role and future. Lillywhite had lost all hope, nothing mattered
anymore, her dreams were gone, and even her Goddess had abandoned her.
Me(group): /cry I deserve this because I am such a failure and a whore.
Stabbin(group): Here, take this blanket and wipe your face off, I have to get
rid of this guy and then we will continue.
I saw that Kharzakk who was my master had entered the room and was looking at us
both on the bed.
Master(tell): Listen you little bitch, you group with me right this instant or
so help me god I will bring [name of his necro] here and by tomorrow morning you
will be level 45 again! Do it NOW!
Me(group): This is my master please invite him into group.
Stabbin(group): It will be my pleasure.
Kharzakk joins the group.
Stabbin: Look what I just did to your @#%$ whore @#%$, I @#%$ all over her
face.
Me: I am wiping the @#%$ off my face with the blanket as tears run down my face.
Kharzakk: That's it, I am done with you bitch, you want her buddy, she is yours
for 20 pp.
Stabbin: Here is 20 pp. He accepted it, you are mine now, I will never sell you,
get used to it.
Kharzakk leaves group.
Me( tell): You just sold me to him for 20 pp! I can't believe you did that!
Can't you think of somebody besides yourself sometime? Think of me, he could
make me eat his @#%$ all the time now, don't you understand, do you want that?
Kharzakk(tell): Think how I feel, you chose to be with him and eat @#%$ rather
than be with me as I commanded you. You have no idea how that makes me feel. I
am sure you both will be very happy together, I wish you all the happiness you
deserve. I have to log and get this image out of my head.
I was alone with my new master and told him I was changing my trade window to
Stabbin. He explained that he was not Stabbin, and instructed that his druid
Taldian would be my new master. He also told me that there were 4 or 5 of them
in the room and each were taking turns at the keyboard, which explained why
Stabbin kept changing positions as they tried out each person's suggestions.
I asked him if he would like me to read him my slave vows to him and he asked me
what they were, and I explained they were the rules I follow as a slave.
Stabbin(Taldian): So you want to be making the rules already, no you will follow
my rules.Me: Yes Master. ( I certainly was not going to force the issue if he
did not want to know that all my money was his if he wanted it, oh well. )
Stabbin(Taldian): First, you will not call me Master, you will call me your
pimp.
Me: Yes my pimp.
Stabbin(Taldian): Second, you will not have sex with anyone unless I tell you
who. Anyone sends you tells asking for sex you refer them to me or one of my
alts. Got that?
Me: Yes my pimp.
To be continued...
Part 18: My Seventh Master
So for the next few days I was finally able to get some groups again. My former
master had by this time returned and we went to get my body but it had vanished,
since there had been a patch and we could not find it, which made for a bit of
excitement, but he brought his necro there and used a coffin. He was sorry for
selling me in the fit of his rage and we discussed it at length, but what was
done could not be undone, and we both agreed that perhaps it was all for the
best: some fantasies should remain just dreams and not become reality. I
guess we are still friends in a way, but we have not sent each other many tells
in the last few weeks since that all happened.
During the next few days I told anyone who contacted me that they would have to
talk with Taldian before I could meet with them, and since he was often not on
line, I had lots of free time until he showed up and again I returned to
grouping. There were a few people he told me to meet with, some of whom I had
referred to him and others I had not had tells from, perhaps they were his
friends. I don't know if he was charging them, and never saw any money change
hands. Gradually the number of tells died down, due to the laws of supply and
demand: When I was free, demand for me was high, but now that there was a
cost(which I don't know what that was) demand had declined and I had lots of
free time again for grouping and experience.
I had one interesting tell from a Necro, who said he was available if I knew
anyone who wished to be sacrificed, and asked who my master was. I told him
that I had a new master now, since I assumed he had heard about my situation
from someone. He expressed the desire to get together with me, and I gave him
the name of my new master, and he gave me a code word that would let me know it
was him when I saw him again. I had talked to Taldian about some experiences
with my former master and he had assured me that he would never let me be
de-leveled, and so I was not worried. But in any case, since Taldian had told
me to give his name out to anyone who wanted to get together with me, I really
had no choice so I gave it to him. The next day, Taldain has me come to him in
Freeport and gates me and a level 2 client to Misty thicket and leaves us
together. And the client gives me the code word, and I know who he is. And he
asked me to promise him I would never reveal his identity and since I do that
anyway with all my clients, I made the promise. In case any of you are
wondering , no he is not my Toymaster's Necro. And so we began making love, and
I am calling him master as I often do when making love, and I am thinking to
myself that I must be crazy. This was dangerous, and it was only 2 days ago I
was with my old master and I not fully recovered in making new goals that I had
abandoned. So we are making love and midway he asks me to memorize the spell
asphyxiate, and tells me I will know when to use it, and challenges me to a
duel, which I accepted. We continue, and eventually the position shifts to him
kneeling in front of me and pleasuring me with his tongue and he says that he
hears me casting a spell.
I have only been killed once way back in my High Keep days, when someone wanted
to do S&M and whip me in the stables of North Karana. I charged extra for that.
This was in the days where if you consented they could loot your bodies, and I
declined to give him consent when he asked to help drag it closer, I ran all the
way from my bed in High Keep and looted it myself. But I had never killed
anyone before. I played the role he wanted and cast the spell and killed him,
so this was another first for me. I wondered what my Goddess would think of me,
would she think me a murderer or that I was just following my vows of obedience
since he told me to do it after all. So after he died, he sent me tells.
Necro: Thank you, that was very good, but you realize that next time, I shall
have to have my revenge.
Me: Yes Master(I was just calling him this for the session), if you want to
bring [name of necro] and you want kill me next time that will be fine, I don't
care, if you want you can kiss my neck and suck out my life like a vampire.
Necro: Yes, I plan to. I am camping now, until then can I ask you to think
about something?
Me: Yes Master, what?
Necro: The next time you see me, be very afraid.
Me: Yes Master.
OK, I just got rid of one necro and although playing with matches can be
exciting, I really was not interested in getting burned.after the excitement
wears off, all that is left is the pain. But since Taldain had said he would
never sell me or have me de-leveled I was confident that I would be fine.
So a few more days go by and Taldian was logging on ever day and I gave him the
names of a few people who were interested in me, but they were not willing to
pay whatever he was asking. Then on Sunday May 5th, he logs on asks me how it
is going, I tell him I had no tells from anyone wanting me and that I am in a
group and he says fine have fun. About 15 min more go by and I get the
following tell:
Nullifier: I am with your master in Erudin and he has agreed to sell you to me
for 30K.
My stomach sank! Was this an alt of the necro, was my nightmare going to start
all over again when I was just starting to get over it? I sent a tell to the
alt of Taldian:
Me: ACK! 30K my pimp?
Taldian alt: Yes, I am afraid so.
Me: You said you would never sell me, remember? What happened to that?
Taldian alt: Well, I did not make as much money from you as I was hoping and I
really need some new stuff badly, sorry. He has just given me the money.
Me: Please confirm the name of my new Master.
Taldian alt: Your new master is Nullifier.
Me: OK, changing it in my trade window. Goodbye my pimp.
Me(tell to Nullifier): You are my new master, what would you like me to do?
Nullifier: When can you come to Erudin?
Me: I am in a group now master, how about 10 pm EST tonight?
Nullifier: That is fine, this is a level 1 alt I made just for you, so I will
log back on then when I see you there on my main.
I stayed in group all day and got a TL at the appointed time and headed to
Erudin.
I waited there for a few min and he soon showed up and told me to meet him at
the bank.
Nullifier: First, I have read your story and all of your vows on the web, you
don't have to show them to me. I promise you I will never sell you or let you be
harmed.
OK, so I am thinking, yea right, how many times have my masters said that to
me.
Me: Thank you master.
Nullifier: Now, how much money do you have in the bank?
Me: About 22.4 k.
Nullifier: Please give me 22K.
Me: Yes Master.
I had no thought of lying or deceiving him because that would be contrary to my
vows. I gave him 22 K.
Nullifier: Thank you. Now please answer this question, what do you want to be,
a whore or a lady?
OK, so I am thinking he wants to make love and so I start trying to turn him on.
Me: A whore master, I tried being a lady once but everyone hated me and wanted
me to be a Cyberwhore and I became one again and now everyone is much happier
with me.
Nullifier: Wish granted. In your trade window, put that you will meet with
anyone to make them happy. My orders are that you may group and get experience
but will schedule appointments at mutually convenient times with anyone who asks
you to meet them. You will call them Master or Mistress when you are with them
and do as they command you, except they may not punish you. You will tell
everyone who you your referred to Taldian that you are now cost free again, if
you remember their names.
Me: Yes Master, I write them down so I will be able to remember who they all
are, it gets confusing sometimes to keep all the mains and alts straight.
Nullifier: Very good. I will log on Nullifier on weekends to talk with you and
see how you are doing.
Me: Can't I have the name of your main so I can talk to you more frequently?
Nullifier: No, I do not want anyone to know who I am. I will give you the names
of 2 of my low level alts that nobody knows are mine, I sometimes play them, but
you will never know my main or other high level chars.
Me: Yes Master. (He gave me 2 names I did not recognize)
Nullifier: OK, good luck, see you next weekend, I am camping now. 15 sec.
Me: Don't you want to make love with me Master before you go?
Nullifier: I have already on an alt. 5 sec.
And so he vanished. I sent messages to people who were on line that I had
referred to Taldian that I would be able to meet with them for free now. I
walked around for a while and I went to the Erudin Library and wrote part 13 of
my story. Then I got a tell from someone wanting to make love with me, and told
them to make a level 1 alt here in Erudin and I would meet them in a few
minutes..
To be continued..
Part 19: Stupid Bitch
So for the next week, I was doing my best to meet with everyone and making love
for free. Demand had picked up and I was spending about half my time in groups
for 2-3 hrs and then making love for the remaining 2-3 hrs. Aerion had posted on
one of my parts, I think it was part 13, for me to contact her in game, which I
did, and she said she was going to try to buy me. I told her all I knew about
Nullifier and that he would be on next weekend. I thanked her and I explained to
her that this whole thing had gotten out of hand, my goal was to try to find
someone who would love me, and who I could be with and group with and raid with.
It was not to be the slave whore of some level 1 alt who is never around and who
is too embarrassed of me to even let me or anyone know who he is. That was not
my idea of love, and she agreed. I told her that there would be problems if she
owned me, that I could only join the guild of my master, or in this case my
mistress, and I might be an embarrassment to her guild, and she said they would
just have to put up with it. I told her I would tell Nullifier when I saw him
that she was interested and she said she would begin selling things to gather
the money by next weekend. I also continued contacting everyone I had referred
to Taldian as instructed, and one of them was of coarse the Necro whose alt I
had killed in Misty thinket. He asked about the name of my new master which I
gave him and asked if I was for sale, and I was scared. Now unless my master
tells me otherwise, I always tell my master if someone is interested in buying
me or have them contact my master directly. I told him he would contact me
during the weekend sometime and I would tell him. The final person who wanted to
buy me was Genka who I had met in AC. I made love with him several times during
the week and then found out that he was involved in a role-play engagement
relationship with Niteingale and her alts, who had helped him camp Ragefire, but
she had found out about me being with him and was breaking it off. I immediately
sent her a tell explaining I did not mean to break them up, I never knew he had
a fiancée, and went to nek forest to meet with her and Genka where I told her I
would not sleep with him again unless she told me to, and she was happy. I read
her my slave vows and Genka was trying to convince her that they should buy me
and how good it would be for them.
Friday night came along and about 1 am, I received a tell:
Nullifier: How is it going?
Me: Very well master, there are 3 people who asked me to tell you they are
interested in buying me, Aerion, Genka who is offering 35k, and [name of necro
main].
Nullifier: I see. Very well. I will contact each of them when I see them on
line. Bind in Erudin so you may come here when I want you. I am logging back to
my main now, 10 sec.
Me: Yes Master. I was spending a lot of time in erudin making love since it was
easy for people to start level 1 chars there and it was somewhat private. I was
in erudin when I got a tell from the necro saying he had been contacted by
Nullifier and was making an alt there to discuss buying me, and I was very
nervous, what if he sold me to him? Since Nullifier had logged on without saying
hi to me I sent him a tell.
Me: Hi Master! How much are you asking for me?
He did not reply at all. I went to the bank where I knew he would be and the alt
of the necro arrived and I sent another tell:
Me: Master can I join the group so I can know what is going on?
He did not reply to me at all. I was very upset and scared since I did not know
what was going on, and I just sat there by the bank watching them and waiting.
Then after about 5 min, Nullifier vanished, never saying a word to me, as did
the necro alt. A few min later the necro main said he would come to tox and tell
me what happened.
Him: Your master is a very greedy man.
Me: Why how much did he want?
Him: 6 figures.
Me: Wow! That is a lot! You are not going to buy me then?
Him: No, nobody is worth that much, not even Hobbin is worth that much!
I felt very relieved that I was apparently not going to be sold to him.
Me: Well...I think if Hobbin was a slave that some people might think he was
worth that.
Him: Maybe.
Back in Misty thicket, I had promised to make love with his main, although at
that time I thought it would be through Taldian again. He asked me about making
love to him again and I told him that I would do so since those were my masters
instruction, to make love with anyone at convenient times, which this was. So
he had me change into a DE and he challenged me to a duel, I accepted and begged
him not to kill me, and we made love together as he kept toying with my life
bar, making it go up and down at various times to his own rhythm, but he did not
kill me. He said something about it being to bad they nerfed some spell he
wanted to use on me, but I did not know what he was talking about. I felt
grateful to him for telling me what happened and knowing he was not buying me,
I felt more relaxed doing this with him and not so fearful. We talked some about
our RLs, and he does not seem like a bad person. I think he just likes to role
play his evil chars and I think he does a very good job.
I was running to Velks lab the next day for a group in UD that I had received
and invite for when Genka sent me a tell that Nullifier was on line and had sent
him a tell for a meeting. Again I sent a tell saying hi to Nullifier and he did
not reply again. Genka went to meet him and told me that Nullifier told him he
had to raid every night and was in college and also had to study during that
time and after, and that he did not have the time for me that he would have
liked. Genka was certain that Nullifier was going to sell me, but I did not say
anything about the price the necro had mentioned to me. Genka did not have the
35 k yet but was asking Niteingale to up the offer in case Aerion out-bid him,
since Nullifier had told Genka he still needed to talk with her. I got the
group and stayed int many hours until I got a tell.
Nullifier: Come to Erudin please.
Me: Yes Master, I will leave group as soon as I get a replacement. Also
Niteingale wants to offer a tolans bp and sleeves for me, she wanted you to
know.
He made no reply and it turned out they got a rep right away and I gated back to
Erudin.
I went to the bank and Nullifier invited me into group, it was just the 2 of us.
I had sent Genka a tell that he had called me there and Genka was on his was and
so was Aerion.
Nullifier: I want you to change your trade window to read, " I am a stupid
bitch"
Me: Yes Master.
Nullifier: Now change yourself into Howler and if you get any tells or anyone
asks you anything, you may only bark, understand?
Me: Yes Master. (I tried to cast it) I can not cast this inside.
Nullifier: Go outside and once you cast it bark and come back.
Me: Yes Master. ( I went outside and cast it) Bark. ( I ran back).
I rejoined him, Aerion and Genka all who had joined the group by now.
Nullifier: In case you are wondering, she is being punished and will only bark
if you send her any tells and she can not send me any tells unless they are
barks, and this is all she will be saying. The reason for this, is that I told
her I would never sell her and the first time I log in to ask her how she is,
she gives me not one, not 2, but 3 names of people she wants to buy her. I have
talked to the other and to Genka already, Aerion please tell me what you would
do with her if you were her Mistress?
Aerion: I would have her join my guild and spend time with her and I would not
have taken all her KEI money like you did, I would have let her keep it, she
needed that money and you took it from her.
Nullifier: I spent 30k of my money to help her, I am the good guy here, her
reimbursing me 22k was money that was well spent on her own welfare. I saved her
from the possibility of being sold to someone who would abuse her or worse and I
will not let her be abused.
Aerion: You have her being a whore for everyone, and if that is not abuse I
don't know what is?
Nullifier: I only told her to do that because that is what she told me she
wanted. Here, let me demonstrate. Bitch, would you please bark once if you like
being a whore or twice if you would rather be a lady?
I had to think for a minute on how what to do, this was the same question again.
Almost all the tells I get are from people who want me to be a whore with them,
there are no guilds who have called me and said, hey, would you and your master
like to join us, maybe we can help you find a better life. They would all be
too ashamed to have me. I have to face reality, that I really don't have many
options anymore. Sure I can get groups, and I can help on a raid occasionally,
but nobody wants me in their guilds with them anymore.
Me: Bark.
Nullifier: See, it was her own choice. She needs someone to protect her,
someone to keep her from hurting herself, and show her respect.
Aerion: Like you are showing her respect now in having her bark like an animal?
I would never do that to her and it has to stop!
Aerion cast a spell, probably nullify, and I returned to my human form.
Nullifier: Very good. Lillywhite please change your trade window to show that
Aerion is your mistress now. Good luck.
And then he was gone, camped out.
Genka: What did you pay him?
Aerion: I did not give him anything.
Ginka camped and Aerion suggested we go to Droga for some faction and had a
druid pick us up. I was trying to sort out in my mind what happened as I ran
through FM on auto follow behind Aerion.
Me: You know, he is still out the 8 k he paid for me.
Aerion: Yea, that's true.
Me: He could have had made lots of money ( and I was thinking of the tolans bp
that I had told him about that Niteingale was offering). He must have been
looking for something else. This is all very sad, I have tears in my eyes, I
think he must have loved me.
Aerion: Yes, it is. Maybe he did.
Me: Do you think it he was hurt by me finding people to buy me, like I was
rejecting him or something? Do you think maybe that is why he would not answer
my tells?
Aerion: Maybe.
And as I thought about it, an overwhelming sense of sorrow and loss overtook me
as I realized that he kept his promise to me not to ever sell me. He had kept
it by giving me away when he could have had lots of money and made back his 8 k
too. I knew then that he did truly love me. Tears were coming down my face in
real life, and I felt like the stupid bitch he told me I was, I had gotten what
I had been looking for all this time and I let him slip away!
To be continued.
Nullifier, you told me you had read my story and if you are still reading this
now, please forgive me ok? Please log on Nullifier again and say hi to me and
maybe we can talk? I have been checking your two alts you gave me every day, but
they are never on. Maybe we can start over again? Please?
Lillywhite
Part 20: My 8 th and 9 th owners.
Aerion, my eighth master(mistress), and I continued to Droga but there was no
cleric in the group and she decided to take me to the Firepot room in Tim deep
to bind. I had asked her about her guild and she had given me the web page on
which to apply.
We arrived there and I bound there and we were discussing the rules she wanted
me to follow when I got a tell:
Niteingale: So how are things, are you still coming tonight?
Me: I have a new Mistress now, but she says I can make love whenever I like or
not if I don't like, so yes I plan to be there.
(She was interested in learning what I did in making love that Genka was raving
to her about, and I had arranged to meet with her to show her)
Niteingale: What! Didn't you tell my offer to Nullifier?
Me: Yes I did, but he ignored me and you were not on line in any case and so I
have a new Mistress now.
Niteingale: Well does she want to sell you?
Me(tell): I will ask her one sec.
Me(group): Mistress, someone is interested in buying me and I normally direct
all such inquiries to my owner. Do you want me to have people contact you or
should I tell them I am not for sale?
Aerion: Follow your normal procedure, I'll speak with them.
Me(group): Yes Mistress.
Me(tell): Her name is Aerion and she says to send her a tell.
Niteingale: OK! "TYPE=PICT;ALT= "
So I sat there in the Firepot room waiting while they sent tells back and forth.
Then I got a tell:
Niteingale: Shhhh...don't say anything but she has decided she is going to sell
you to me for the tolans bp.
I was just ...how can I explain it..very surprised. After all the tension with
Nullifier I was just totally unprepared for this, too many shocks in one day.
Then in a few minutes Aerion spoke:
Aerion: I hope you don't hate me but I have decided to sell you.
Mistress: That is your decision Mistress, I do not hate you.
Aerion: I have several reasons. First, with the tolans BP she is giving me for
you, I can get you KEI in the fastest way possible and I will have money left
over to help buy the new speed spell once AL starts selling it, so everyone
wins. Second, it is really unlikely you will be able to join my guild anytime
soon due to your cyber rep and probably best for if you can find another master
and join another. Third, I have read your story up to part 16 and it is really
good and I want to see your adventures continue. If you stay with me, it is
going to get very boring, it will be a dead end, and you are not going to find
the love and romance you are looking for with me. You are going to have to move
on sometime and it is best to realize that now and save everyone a lot of wasted
time.
I have already seen that my writing this story was starting to become part of
the story and influence events, but this was something I had not considered,
people making decisions simply because it would make a better story!
Me: It is your choice mistress, I would not mind KEI if you want to buy it for
me.
Aerion: And how will you write this when you write your story?
Me: I will just tell the truth as best as I can remember it, and explain your
reasons and hope people will understand them. It is fine with me, whatever you
decide, it is not my decision to make, the choice is always ultimately with my
owner and that keeps things exciting for me. I certainly did not expect this,
but I am sure it will be interesting.
Aerion: OK, then lets go to meet her in the EC tunnel and I will sell you now.
Me: /hug Aerion. Yes Mistress.
So the druid gated us to WC and we ran to the back of the Tunnel where
Niteingale gave her the tolans bp and Aerion instructed me that Niteingale was
my new Mistress, my ninth owner.
Niteingale has 2 other chars that she is role playing, one is Synara who is a
good dark elf and the other is her evil sister Raisyn. Genka is engaged in game
to Synara and she had me change my trade window to show that Raisyn would be my
Mistress. She instructed me like Aerion had that I was to make love only with
who I wanted or not, and to go get exp and group again. It was late and that
was the extent of the conversation, I did not show her how to make love as we
had planned.
The next day was Mother's Day and I took a vacation from Lillywhite, but I loged
her on late and Aerion was on line and had sold the Tolans bp for 45k and bought
the KEI spell for me as she promised. I gated to the Firepot and met her there
and memed the spell, and camped.
The next day I joined a group and after a few hours I get a tell from my
Mistress telling me to come meet her and Genka in Neriak. I find a rep and am
soon there and in group with them both.
Me: Hi Mistress! Hi Genka!
Raisyn: Lillywhite I want to discuss the rules I want you to follow.
Me: Yes Mistress.
Raisyn: First, you will not call me mistress anymore you will call me and
synara mommy.
Me: Yes mommy.
Raisyn: And you will call Genka daddy, not master.
Me: Yes mommy.
I emote that I begin sucking my thumb, and she pulled it out.
Raisyn: Put in your trade window that Synara is your mommy and that Genka is
your daddy.
Me: Yes mommy. ( I did as she instructed)
Raisyn: Now little one, this is very important, you must never have sex with
daddy, do you understand?
Me: Yes mommy, I promise. (She had asked me for the link to my story and read
it up to part 16)
Raisyn: Now if you break your promise, I will throw you into a room full of
Necros all night and instruct you to do whatever they tell you, do you
understand?
Me: Yes mommy, but they would have me all the way down to level 45 in under an
hour and would not need all night.
Raisyn: Why not lower?
Me: That is the limit of sacrifice mommy.
Raisyn: Then in that case after that I will have you bind between the guards
and you will die over and over again untill you can go no lower, do you
understand what will happen if you have sex with daddy?
Me: Yes mommy, sex with daddy = death.
Raisyn: Now also if he tries to touch you or have sex with you, you are to tell
me everything he tries and not have sex with him ever.
Me: Yes mommy, I will tell you everything he does in that regard and I will
never make love with him again.
Raisyn: You will listen to daddy and do everything he tells you but no sex, and
you will tell me anything he does or tries that you think I should know about.
Now when I had first learned that Genka was engaged to Synara and found out he
had not told her about me I had confronted him about his buying me from
Nullifier. He had told me that he did not have the money yet to buy me, and
that he needed Synara to help buy me with the Tolans bp, and that when he paid
her back she would transfer me to his ownership and then he was going to dump
her and just have me to make love with all the time, since he said she was not
nearly as good as I was. I told him how I thought he was a dishonest
double-crossing evil bastard. Then I told him how well I thought he was
role-playing his DE character, and he smiled at me.
Me: Yes mommy. (So, being the obedient daughter I am, I informed her of his
plans to betray her once he had ownership of me.)
Genka(sends me a tell): You will pay for that you little bitch!
Raisyn: Is this true, love of my life?
Genka: Ummm.uuuuhhh..aaahhhh...I was just role playing my character my darling.
Raisyn: Little one, I think you should camp now, mommy and daddy have some
things we need to discuss, ok?
Me: Yes mommy. Good night mommy. /hug mommy. Good night daddy. /hug daddy
/smile at daddy.
And I camped and went to bed.
To be continued..
Part 21: Rape
The next day I was grouped with daddy in FG aoe group with Stickyleaf. To pass
the down time I was sucking on my thumb, and for some reason this seemed to make
the men in my group behave very strangely and want to kiss my neck and other
things. Daddy was also acting very jealous and sending me tells to stop acting
like such a whore and come over and sit by him where I would behave myself.
Mommy had been clear to stay away from him so I declined. The group broke up
and daddy said he wanted to have a talk with me so we grouped just him and me.
I expected him to be mad about exposing his planed treachery to mommy, but he
said I had handled it very well and he was proud of me. It did not make any
sense to me but I thanked him. Just them, mommy logged on and asked to see us
both, and I took off to neriak via the Firepot while Genka had to wait at the
nexus, so I was able to have a few minutes alone with mommy.
I explained how jealous he was and that he saw still desirous of me and that
something had to be done about that so I would not come between her and daddy.
Daddy arrived and told her what a whore I had been and said that I needed to not
be so free with everyone and asked mommy to make me charge 500 pp for making
love with anyone. She agreed and I sent her a tell that this was just a sign of
his jealousy and that its goal was to keep me for himself so I would not make
love with anyone else. She told me in tells that she needed to learn what I do
with men to make them act like this and asked if I would mind showing her with
daddy now. I asked her if Synara would get mad at me and de-level me and Raisyn
told me that Synara would cry when she found out but realize that her evil
sister had told me to do it and not blame me. With that assurance I agreed to
make love with daddy and that is what I did while she watched. This made for
some funny lines.
Genka: Who's your daddy?
Me(on top of him): Oh yea.ohhh.you're my daddy.ohhh!
After I was done she thanked me and told me to camp which I did.
The next day she sent me a tell that Daddy should no longer be jealous of me,
that she "rocked his world" five times after I left. I was like "wow!". And
when Daddy got on, he expressed the same sentiments. So I was happy, that was
one problem out of the way, and go back to exp groups. Daddy had a raid and so I
did not see much of him but he told me he still wanted to talk with me in
private at some point and to show him where the firepot was so he could bind
there.
The next night started out very strange. From out of the blue daddy sends me a
tell:
Genka: If I told you to attack a guard and die with no rez and loose exp would
you do so without asking any questions?
Me: No daddy, first I would ask questions and second only mommy can punish me
in that way since she is my owner.
Genka: Your mommy told you to obey me so that means you have to do it if I tell
you, no questions asked.
Me: Daddy my slave vows say that my master may punish me for disobedience by
exp loss, if I am to learn a lesson so I can behave better in the future I need
to know how I was disobedient before I would consent to that. This whole exp
loss idea has gotten totally out of hand, just like the rest of my slave vows,
but I need to know in advance what is expected of me, and what I have to do to
avoid punishment, and what the punishment will be for disobedience. I can't
just be expected to be de-leveled for someone's fun, I must deserve it, and I
need to be able to avoid it based upon my own decisions and control. Mommy's
punishment of me for making love with you is a good example of what I had in
mind. I can and will submit to the punishment she described if I disobey that
command. I can avoid the punishment by being obedient, so it is totally in my
control what happens to me. It is fair, not random or capricious.
Genka: I see. Well, I need to have a long talk with you and take you for a walk
in the park and I need to tell you a secret that you can never tell mommy, so
leave your group and take me to the firepot.
Me: Daddy you don't need me, here is the loc. Once you get there, just bind,
camp out and come back, then I will come, I need to find a rep. About 15 min
later he sends me a tell to gate there now, it is an emergency. I appologize to
the group for my abrupt departure and to Stickyleaf and gate there, but he is
not there, he did not bind, he pointed on a pot. OK, so back I go to the spires
in felwith to the moon, the group is breaking up now because of the delay caused
by me gating and I am feeling very mad at daddy. The group disbanded then, and
I gated to daddy who had finally gotten there and I had him bind, camp out and
come back, then I showed him where all the pots went to. So he has me go to
neriak using a pot, and takes me to the island with the crying eye on it in
third gate.
Genka: Very pretty here isn't it?
Me: Yes Daddy.
Genka: Come over here and sit by me.
Me: No daddy, I will stay over here by the water.
Genka: You don't want the surprise I have for you? It will be our little
secret that you must never tell mommy, and I will never tell mommy. Come over
here little girl.
Me: Daddy, I can't make love with you, I know what you are doing, and I won't
let it happen.
Genka: But you are a whore, and whores always say yes, are you saying no to me?
Me: Yes Daddy.
Genka: Your mommy told you to obey me as long as I do not have sex with you,
now come over here and sit, there is nothing involving sex in that, is there?
Me: No Daddy. ( I went over and sat next to him)
Genka: Now little girl I have a surprise for you, but first please put on this
blind fold. That does not involve sex does it?
Me: No Daddy. ( I put on the blindfold)
Genka: Now you can not see anything. I have some lollipops here and I want you
to try them and tell me which flavor you like best with the blindfold on. That
does not involve sex does it little girl?
Me: No daddy, I like lollipops.
Genka: Good Girl.
Genka emotes: Genka unzips his fly.
Me: Daddy! I can not allow you to do that, you are not planing on putting
lollipops in my mouth at all!
Genka: You heard a zipping sound, it was from my back pack, I have to get the
lollipops out of it don't I?
Me: Daddy this has gone far enough, I take off the blindfold and stand up and go
back to the edge of the water. /cry I know what you are doing, you are trying
to make be break my promise to mommy so you can have your revenge for me telling
her of your plan to betray her. You want to see her de-level me so all I will
ever be again is a stupid level 10 whore, I see your evil plan and you play evil
very well, but I won't allow this to occur.
Genka: OK you stupid bitch, I am done playing with you, I come over there where
you are standing and I am much stronger than you and I drag you to the top to
the island and I am going to @#%$ your stupid brains out.
Me: No you are not Daddy!
Now in all the time that I have ever played EQ, I have been in various duels,
with my son or on raids to POA, but I always was the one challenged. I had
never challenged anyone to a duel, since I felt that I could never win and so it
was just a waste of time for me. It was another first for me when I typed /duel
with Genka targeted. He accepted.
I only had one buff on me, permanent illusion, and he was able to swiftly nuke
me down to under 5% hp. I tashed him and I cast my nuke over 10 times, but none
landed. I was trying to hit him with my epic as he hit me with his. Several
times I went unconscious and he told me to stay on my knees as he stood before
me and to suck on his lollipop, and I told him I would not do so.
Genka: Then you will die.
Me: Daddy I would rather die this death a thousand time than the death that
awaits me if I do what you want.
And he killed me and I materialized in the Firepot room.
Genka: You still have orders to obey me, now consent me.
So I am thinking , ok, he has read my story he is going to hide my body and I
have been there, done that, no big deal, I will get it later. I type /consent
Genka.
Me: Will you rez me now daddy?
Genka: @#%$ you bitch, I hid it you go find it yourself or..I have a lollipop I
will let you have and if you suck on it really good, I will get it for you.
Just then I got a tell:
Niteingale: Hi little one, how is it going?
Me: Thank god you are here, daddy just tried to rape me and he has hidden my
body!
Niteingale: Logging on Synara, come to neriak third gate in the Maiden's Voyage
bedrooms.
I used the pot and ran to the bedrooms invisibly, and she invited me into group
with her and Genka.
Synara: Please tell me what happened, little one.
I explained what had happened and how I had challenged him to a duel and she
interrupted me.
Synara: What ever made you think you could win in a duel against him little one,
that was very foolish.
Me: No mommy that is wrong, I did not loose, I won because I fought against
being raped, it does not matter if I lost the fight or won the fight mommy, I
won by fighting against him and not submitting to his raping me. Mommy if you
don't fight against rape, you loose.
Synara: Genka is what she says true?
Genka: It was her fault she tried to seduce me, it was her idea.
Me: No mommy he is lying.
Genka: You shut up you little bitch, I will have to knock some sense into you.
Genka emoted that he was kicking me and slapping me many times, and I emoted
that I crumple to the floor crying.
Synara: What has gotten into you?
Genka: Lets make love now darling, I am so hot! It will be so wonderful! ( He
was standing on the bed in front of Synara as she sat on it)
Synara: You just tried to rape our daughter and beat her up in front of me and
now you expect me to have sex with you after that!
Genka: You want some of the same?
Genka emoted he was kicking and slapping Synara many times and she camped out,
leaving just me and Genka together.
Genka: You will suck me now or you will never get your body back, and I will
kill you.
I did not do so but Synara came right back and we regrouped. I sent her a tell
that he had said he would kill me if I did not suck him.
Me: I will not ever do that Daddy!
Genka trained the guards to the bed and they immediately started attacking me,
but I always have mez up and easily mezed them.
Mommy told me to gate because he would keep trying to kill me and so I gated
back to the Firepot.
Me(tell): Mommy, I will camp out and get my body tomorrow, while you talk with
him.
Synara(tell): It is ok little one, put him on ignore and do nothing more he
says, he is no longer your daddy.
Me(tell): Thank you mommy, I love you! Good night mommy!
Synara: Goodnight little one, I love you too!
I camped and went to bed.
To be continued...
Part 22: Family
So the next day I log on the first thing I have to do is get my body, which was
hidden. I contacted my Necro-lover, the one who had wanted to buy me from
Nulifier, and was asking him to help summon my body from wherever it was hidden,
when I got a tell out of the blue from a level 3 necro asking me to drag it to
the zone. I thanked him and gated from the firepot room to Neriac looted it and
buffed the level 3 necro with kei, sos , and all my best spells. I proceed
off to find a group and at some point mommy logs on synara and sends me a tell,
" Hi Littleone, how are you feeling after last night?"
I replied, " I am ok mommy, I got my body back easily and he did not really hurt
me. But I feel much better about myself now that I know I am not a complete
whore yet, I learned I can say NO to making love if I don't want to and that I
can still stand up and fight for myself. So in that respect, what happened
helped me a lot. How did things go with daddy after I logged last night?"
Mommy replied, " Well we made up, and I want you to take him off ignore and make
up with him too."
I replied," ACK! Mommy, he tried to rape me, your adopted daughter, and he
beat me and you! In RL, I would never forgive a man who ever did half the
things he did, how can you forgive that? "
Mommy, " I understand Littleone, and in RL neither would I. But this is just a
game and I am role playing Synara who is a DE woman, who know that it is the
nature of their men to be mean and vile sometimes. Synara loves him, the good
and the bad, which is why she is forgiving him and while I won't command you to,
I ask that you talk with him and forgive him to and work things out."
I replied, " Yes Mommy, he is off ignore and I will try to work things out with
him to make you happy. "
Mommy, " Thank you Littleone, you have made me very happy!"
I replied, " Welcome Mommy."
So when I was Genka on, I sent him a tell, " Hi daddy, mommy says you are my
daddy again, for me to take you off ignore, and wants me to make up with you.
This is going to be very difficult for me."
Genka said, " Why should it be difficult, I am your daddy, and you are my
daughter, I love you and you love me, correct?"
I said, " Daddy, you deliberately tried to rape me so mommy would delevel me to
10, why do you want to do that so much? What good would I possible be to you
then, I could not make jewelry, I would not even be smart enough anymore to give
you kei when you needed it, or strong enough to go with you on raids and.it
would hurt both you and mommy as well as hurting me!"
Genka said, " Well, if you were level 10, you would stay at home in neriac and
you would cook and work on trades and wait for me to come home from a raid.
Then when I came home and I would tell you all about it and then I would @#%$
what little brains you had left out of you all night long."
OK, so this is the nightmare going through my mind: I play this stupid game
because I hate cooking and cleaning and waiting around for my husband to pay
attention to me, and at least I can have some adventure traveling and it does
not cost much. So what Genka wants as his ultimate fantasy is for me to play
the game so I stay at home and cook and clean and wait around for him to pay
attention to me. ACK! Is that a nightmare or what?
I reply, " I can be a level 60 whore, or a level 10 whore, but given the choice,
I would rather be a level 60 whore, at least I would have hope of being able to
get out and do new things! If I was level 10, the only thing I would ever be
any good for again would be as a whore."
Genka said, " Yes, so what is wrong with that, you would just have fun all the
time, you know you would love it, so why fight it? Just make love with me and
you can be a whore all the time and not have to worry or think about doing
anything else ever again."
I replied, " Daddy, I will have to tell mommy if you keep trying to seduce me, I
told her I would work things out with you and I am sure she would not like you
again if I told her what you just said. Now, I will not tell her that if you
just agree to stop trying to make love with me. Mommy wants you to be loyal to
her and only her.that is all she ever asked you.all you have to do is control
your self. Can you agree to do that for me and then we will go back to the way
it was, but if not, I will tell her you still are trying to make love with me
and she will dump you for sure this time. "
Genka replied, " OK, fine, I agree just don't tell mommy I still want to @#%$
you. "
I replied, " ACK! Look, she already knows that, so it would not be telling her
anything new. She just wants you to control your urges, as do I. Can you agree
to control yourself in the future?
Genka said, " I suppose.ok."
I replied, " Thank you daddy, I will tell mommy we have made up now."
I sent a tell to Synara, " Hi Mommy! I did as you asked and made up with daddy.
Is he going to have any daddy powers to tell me what to do?"
She replied, " Thank you Littleone, no he can not tell you what to do, or punish
you in any way, and never consent him again no matter what, I don't want him
loosing your body on you again."
I replied, " Yes mommy, can I group with him?"
She replied, " Yes Littleone, you may group with him."
I replied, " Thank you mommy!"
I send a tell to Genka telling him he had no daddy powers and he was not very
happy about that, but he had no choice at the moment.
The next night I was in group with daddy and he was upset with mommy about not
having any power to tell me what to do and they were fighting in tells about it.
So she sends me a tell out of the blue, " Hi Littleone, can I ask you a big
favor?"
I replied, " Yes mommy, I am your slave, you can ask me to do anything! "
She replied, " I am have a very difficult time in rl now and I just can't argue
with Genka anymore, can you please do what he says for tonight in group? Use you
best judgment and don't do anything that will hurt you but do as much as you can
that he tells you and no making love, understand? I have to log now, see you
later littleone"
I replied, "Yes Mommy, I will do my best.".
So I told Genka that he had daddy powers again and he proceeded to have me do
things I did not like, having me change into an ogre(/shudder), a DE, and a
halfling, instead of my normal half-elf. He said it was for my own good so I
would not tempt him. I did die once and he told me to consent him, and I told
him mommy had told me never to do so again. He said he needed to move my body
so I would not get agro and die again when he rezed me, and since mommy had said
to use my best judgment, I consented him and all was fine.
The next night mommy and daddy were all back together and lovey-dovey. Mommy
wanted to make daddy happy and I had agreed with mommy it was ok for daddy to
have power over me so long as he could not really hurt me, and only used the
power to have fun with me. At our family meeting at the wiz spire in nek
forest mommy asked me, " Littleone, have you been a good girl since I last saw
you?"
I replied, " Yes, mommy I have tried, although there was one small thing you
told me I did not follow, but you told me to use my best judgment, so I thought
it was ok. "
She replied, " What was that littlone?"
I replied, " Well, you told me not to ever consent Genka, and I died in group
last night and he needed to consent him so I would not get agro and I thought it
was safe and it was so I did."
She replied, " I see that you feel your judgment is better than mine don't you
littleone? "
I replied, " Well no mommy, but you told me to use mine and I did."
She replied, " You must like having daddy hide your body since you are so
willing to consent him after I told you for your own good never to do so again.
Since this is what you clearly seem to want, then as your punishment you will
now always accept it if daddy challenges you to a duel and you will always
consent him and he can hide your body any time he wants, do you understand?"
I replied, " Yes mommy."
Genka proceeded to duel me and kill me and Synara asked if she could hide my
body and he agreed which she did. Then I gated from the firepot room back to
neriac and then ran to the wiz spires where Synara gave me a copper and Genka
had Lafarga(level 42 war) who was briefly a part of our family there duel me and
he was fully armored while I was naked without buffs and trying to nuke him...I
died again. This time I was rezed and I left the body with the copper on it
there.got lots of tells from people asking me about it over the next week! It
was getting late and Genka was all excited with his restored powers and feeling
amorous towards mommy. I decided to camp and mommy and daddy decided to go off
to neriac and make love.
The next day as I am in group, Genka sends me a tell, " Thanks for the BJ last
night."
So I reply, " WHAT? I went to bed and thought you and mommy were going to neriac
to make love, what are you talking about?"
So he said, " Well, there were 2 lezzy whores there and I thought you were the
one who gave me the BJ?"
I replied, " You did not make love with mommy?"
He replied, " no she got mad at me so I went off with you..at least I thought it
was you."
I replied, " Daddy, first I would not do that because I would get deleveled ,
second I went to bed because I had to get up and go to work in 4 hrs, and third,
I may be a whore, but every whore is not me, OK?"
He replied, " Well, mommy broke up with me again."
I replied, " Well I don't blame her at all!"
He won the bp in tov and he needed 1 more black marble, which I had on one of my
alts, who is a DE cleric. So I go to him and sell it to him and he then asks
her to marry him, saying synara does not love him, and he loves me(my DE
cleric).
So when mommy gets back on line we have a long discussion and I tell her about
how easily he was going to leave her for my DE, and she says if I ever do that,
she will delevel Lilly. We had a discussion about role-playing different
characters but she seemed to feel any of my chars being me, should not make love
with Genka, and I should not make love with any of his alts either, of face the
same deleveling. I was not going to risk it, so I agreed not do let my De do
anything with Genka.
Needless to say, the next day they had made up, all was forgiven, and we had a
meeting in the tunnel where Daddy discussed the rules he wanted me to follow,
that I had to charge 200 pp to make love with anyone, that I would leave my
groups within 30 min of being called by him, and many others.
The next night I get a tell from a tank type asking me to make love with him and
I explained all my new rules and gate to him when the group is done. I was all
set to make love with him, and I read the last name, " Sonofgenka"..and gate
out. I am not sure if mommy would delevel me if I made love unknowing to Genka
on one of his alts, but I don't want to take the change and find out..in this
case, I was saved by his last name. He then tells me he was testing me to see
if I was following the new rules.
The next night, I logged on and Genka is not on and I ask mommy if I can get
into a group and stay all night and she says buff her first and I can. So I run
to paw, buff her and join a group, then Genka gets on and wants to join it too.
Synara says we will all form a group in 2 hrs and that I will leave then..and I
agree and tell my group. However, something came up in rl and synara had to go
and told me to stay in group till she got back. Now, Genka was just sitting
there waiting. I had been unable to find a rep for me and Genka had a plan and
ordered me to leave the group so it would have to disband, then he was going to
reform a new group with me and take the camp. This was an evil thing I did not
want to do, and I refused to leave the group. Also, mommy had told me never to
be alone in group with daddy, and I would have had to do that. He was furious at
my disobedience to him, but I cited mommy's instructions to me to stay in group
and not leave till she got back. He ordered me to come and give him all my no
drop items but I told him mommy had told me not to give him any more of my items
after he had lottoed one of them to my group the previous night, although I got
it back later when another one dropped. He then told me he was going to kill
me and hide my body and then take me to katta and have me bind in a locked room
there that only rogues could open so my body would rot and I would loose my
epic. Naturally, I did not think this would ever happen. But it let me know he
was really mad. When mommy came back I informed her of what he said and how I
had obeyed her instructions and she said I did the right thing. The group was
breaking up and it was late, and so went to bed with mommy and daddy still
discussing the event. Now, I was explaining all this to my group, since I did
not know if I was going to be leaving them all suddenly or not, and wanted them
to understand if I did and not to hate me for it. Some did not know about me
being a slave, but found it very interesting. One of the people in my group
that night was Fehreel, and I had given the group the web address to read my
story. He said he would read it.
The next night mommy told me that Genka was back on ignore for me and he was not
my daddy anymore. He had yelled at her for the RL emergency that came up and
she told him that RL has to come first, and he would not accept that and it was
the last straw. I told her I would like to not put him on ignore, just be
friends with him and not give him any daddy powers, and she agreed. Fehreel
joined my group with Genka and me and while we fought he sent me tells that he
had loved my story and wanted to buy me. He was very charming, and mysterious
and seductive and so when the when the group broke up, Genka him and I went to
Synara in paw who gated us all to Tox where she asked him his plans for me,
interviewing him as a prospective buyer. Genka kept wanting to challenge him to
a duel, and Synara kept telling him he would be back on ignore if he did not
keep quiet. Fehreel told her he wanted to see that I was treated like a true
slave and that she was not doing a very good job at that. He told her that if
he was my master, he would be strong enough to see that I was properly punished
when I disobeyed so I would never forget and disobey again. I have to say, he
was very charming about all this, in spite of the loss of many of the freedoms I
now have that he was proposing. It was all very interesting and I had a lot of
fun but I felt totally safe because mommy had told me she would never sell me
unless I agreed to the sale. So in the end, Fehreel did not have the money to
afford me, and since I was happy remaining with Synara, there was no deal.
The next day, Synara tells me, " Guess what happened last night?"
Now I had read her reply on the web page that Genka was done as having Daddy
powers and I knew she had been seeing other men in game. So I said, " You fell
in love?"
And she replied, " Yes, with Fehreel!" And my stomach sank and I was suddenly
very nervous.
To be continued...
Part 23: My 10th Master
The relationship between Niteingale and Fehreel developed very rapidly and
surprised me. After the second day, Niteingale told me that I should begin
calling him Master. I asked her if I should call him Daddy like I had called
Genka daddy and she said to ask him, so I did.
Fehreel replied, " While I am in the same position as Genka with respect to
your Mistress, I have no desire to be your "Daddy". You are a slave, not my
daughter, and you need a Master and you will address me as such, do you
understand? "
And I replied, " Yes Master."
Fehreel replied, " In addition, I want you to always address Niteingale as your
Mistress. After the wedding, there will be changes in your life, you will no
longer be treated as a daughter but as the slave you are, do you understand?"
I replied, " Yes Master."
I was not feeling too bad at this point, until I read the stories such as "The
Meek" that Fehreel posted and it scared me a lot. I had a sinking feeling that
Ferrule would enjoy being sadistic and that he related most to the part of my
story about my Toymaster, since this was a very sadistic part of my story, and I
was scared that my future story was going to become " Toymaster 2: The Sequel".
However I was very relieved when my Mistress wrote and promised me the following
on the role play board on 6/12/02: " No lilly will never be sold, not unless
she comes to me and requests it. Then SHE will have a say in who her next master
/ mistress will be. If she falls in love and wants to marry as girls do then she
will say so and I will GIVE her to that person, she will NEVER be sold by me. I
think highly of her, to high to put a price on her head. Until that day, that
she comes to me and asks to be removed from my care she will remain with me."
So with that assurance and a bit of excitement at having a new master, I began
making plans for the wedding. I suggested posting on the Web pages about the
wedding and both Mistress and Master told me to do so, which I did. Once the
plans were announced, several of her former suitors tried to talk her out of it
and she got very upset. I talked about it with Master and he told to me to make
love to them to keep them happy which I did. My Mistress was also very upset at
Genka since he was also trying to talk her out of the marriage, and I suggested
I would make love with him if she would not de-level me and she agreed. I
immediately arranged with Genka to meet with me in Neriac at the Maiden's Voyage
and he arrived within 15 minutes. We both took off our items and were naked.
We began foreplay with him having me kneel naked in front of him and measure the
size of his @#%$ with my magical ruler. After much fumbling around and trying
to hold everything just right, I determined its dimensions as 10 inches long and
1.5 inches across, a measurement that Genka was most pleased with. He told me
to go on the bed and sit there with my mouth open wide while he talked with
Fehreel saying, " I have to get rid of this pest Fehreel and I will be right
there." I sat there for like 2 minutes then saw him putting his armor and
clothes back on. I asked him what was wrong, and he said he had to go to Fear
and to kill a dragon and could not stay to finish with me, and added that it was
probably best anyway since he would loose Niteingale forever if he went any
further with me. He left and I tried to talk him into coming back, but he was
involved in Fear and would not leave for me, so I camped. I met Genka the next
day in Fungus grove and was alone in group with him on the beds there. He was
explaining to me how much he loved Niteingale and how he would not be making
love to me any more because he had to be faithful to her if he was ever to win
her back. As we were sitting there, my Mistress logged on and I explained all
that had happened the previous night. She told me that Genka had lied to him
and to @#%$ him all he wanted because she did not want him anymore, she was
tired of his lies and unfaithfulness. So I had the following conversation with
Genka:
Genka: What did you tell her! She has me on ignore now!
Me: I only told her the truth about what we did last night my love.
Genka: But we did not do anything, I left and told you I would remain faithful
to her.
Me: We were naked, we had started foreplay, if you had not been interrupted we
would have likely continued, that is all I told her, and it was more than she is
willing to forgive you for. She told me to @#%$ you now and to have fun.
Genka: You set me up! You tricked me! I still love her!
Me: I did not set you up, I just gave you choices and you made all the
decisions. Besides you don't love her, love requires commitment which you would
never make to her and remain faithful, which was all she wanted for you to
demonstrate your love. But you had to eat the forbidden fruit, and now she
belongs now with Fehreel, she is marrying him. You do not belong with her, you
belong with me, since I won't ever get jealous, you can make love with whomever
you like, I am just a slave after all.
Genka: I don't want you, I want her!
Me: You always seem to want what you can't have. When all you could have was
Niteingale or Synara and I was forbidden to you, all you wanted was me. Now
that she is getting married and you can't have her, you are obsessed with her
now and she is all you want. I am here on the bed naked, telling you to come
make love with me like you always wanted, and now you are there standing across
the room with all your equipment on like you are scared to even come near me.
So you see, you only want what you can't have, you can have me now, and you
don't want me.
Genka: That's not true, I do want to @#%$ you but I don't love you, I love
Niteingale and I will loose her forever if I do that now.
Me: You already have lost her forever my love, you just don't want to accept
it. If you can accept it and at least have me, or refuse to accept it and have
nobody. Prove to me I am wrong and take me now that you can have me.
Genka: And what if you leave me too, and then I will be all alone.
Me: I will not leave you, if I belong to you.
Genka: I can't afford you and they will never sell you to me.
Me: Didn't you read the promise my Mistress made to me? She will give me away
if I find someone I truly love.
Genka: Really? And you think you would love me?
Me: Maybe. It would not be for many months, it would take time for me to trust
you. But you play the same times with me, we group well together, we make love
well together, all you have to do is understand me. Except for your wanting to
de-level me and turn me into to a brainless fucktoy, you are almost what I have
been looking for in my perfect Master that I wrote about on the web page.
Genka: Where? I never read anything about what you wanted in a Master.
Me: Read the letter from the Goddess of Erollisi on the role play board.it
explains it all.
He read the posts I made and then we continued:
Genka: I never knew. But it doesn't make any difference, you are just a fucktoy
to me and that is all I am interested in you for, I will always love her.
Me: Fine, then if that is you what, that is what I will be for you if you call
me by that name all the time, have fun with me now while you can but it is all
you will get because you can't have her anymore.
Genka: Fucktoy, get on the bed on all 4's and I am going to @#%$ your brains out
like you have never been @#%$ before.
Me: I am just a fucktoy and I need you to @#%$ me and keep me happy!
We made wild love and afterwards he told me he wanted me to tell Mistress how
much I had enjoyed it. I guess he wanted to make her jealous. So I did as he
told me and she did not seem upset at all, she said she was relieved he had
shown his true colors and was happy with Fehreel.
For the next few days, Genka and I grouped together a lot. He seemed to be
having fun abusing me in groups, calling me a whore in front of everyone,
humiliating me and only calling me Fucktoy when he sent me tells. Then we
needed an enchanter the day before the wedding he invited my Master into group
and during down time, stood in front of Master and had me come over and duck in
front of him and give him a BJ so Master could see it. I told Master what was
happening and he did not seem disturbed, since Mistress had told me to make love
with Genka when he wanted to. Master told me that I only had to make love with
Genka if I wanted to, which I did.
The day of the wedding, I gave Niteingale 5 k as a wedding gift thru Synara. I
had planned on giving her the full 45 k she had paid for me over the next
several months so if I did find my true love someday, she could give me away
without too much loss, as she had promised. It was hard forming a group that
night, and it took 2 hrs, but we finally got it all together and I got a tell
from Mistress, " You are not to group with Genka, if you do you will be
punished." I asked her why, and she told me not to question her, and I could
not even explain to my group why I had to leave, and they were all very mad at
me and I was very embarrassed, and I camped for 30 minutes. I thought about it
and came back on my cleric and was able to join the group since it had changed
and now Genka was able to pull. During this group, I got a tell from my friend
Arthol in the Grubs that I was to have Lilly join that guild as a package with
Niteingale and Feehreel. I logged on Lilly quickly for the invite after
confirming it with my Mistress. When it was time to go to the wedding, I loged
Lillywhite back on and met my escort Sirfelgar at the nexus and we went together
to the wedding. Mistress had asked me to look my best for the wedding and I
told her I would wear my white robe, which I did. The ceremony was beautiful
and Lili(the GM) was there to perform it.
After the wedding was over and Lili had gone, Mistress commanded me to change my
trade window to show that Fehreel was my Master and she my mistress. She had
told me by email she was going to do this and I had begged her not to,
explaining that I was scared of Fehreel and reminding her she had promised not
to give me to anyone else unless I loved them and asked her. She had replied
that she trusted Fehreel and that this was what she wanted to do. I did as she
asked, changed my window, and Fehreel became half owner of me.
I felt like getting drunk, forgetting my fear of being half owned by Fehreel and
since someone had given me some drinks and I drank them all. I felt the wedding
was over anyways and kicked off my shoes, changed back into my normal half-elf
body in which I look naked and began to dance with everyone while I was drunk
and naked. Mistress saw this and got upset and told me to get dressed at once.
She said that I was disobeying her, and I told her I thought that wearing the
white robe was only for the wedding, not the reception where everyone partied
and danced. She had me put it back on. It was late and I said good by to
everyone and camped there in thurgardin.
The next morning I had a few minutes before leaving for work, and logged on at 8
am to run back to Luclin. My Master and Mistress were on line and I said Hi to
each of them. They had me join a chat channel so we could all talk while I
waited at the spires:
Mistress: Littleone, I am very disappointed in you, you disobeyed me 2 times
and your Master and I have decided upon fair punishments for each of them.
Me: Yes Mistress, what did I do?
Mistress: First, you were making love to Genka in your group and I told you not
to be a whore in your groups. I can't imagine what else you have been doing
behind my back, but what Fehreel told me is enough. For this you will not be
able to make love for a whole week in game, do you understand?
Me: Yes Mistress.
Mistress: Next, I told you to look respectable at the wedding and you were
dancing naked with the guests. I am so mad at you for this you have no idea.
For this you will spend 6 hrs tonight in oasis or s ro buffing newbies in the
form of either a troll or ogre, do you understand me?
Me: Yes mistress, I do. I guess I don't have to run back to luclin to group
tonight, I will camp now and go to work then. See you both later!
So I camped, and when I logged on later that night I went to oasis as an ogre
from the firepot room and got killed by the guards in fp. I looked for a rez,
but none was close by and Genka was willing to come down from Luclin and rez me
so I got my level back. I noticed that he had stopped calling me Fucktoy when
he spoke to me, and I asked him why.
Genka: I don't want you to be a Fucktoy anymore, I just want you to be my
friend, and to talk with you and to group with you, and go places with you. I
am lonely and that is all I really want, is for you to be my friend. That is
why I came here to rez you, I really do like you, and I don't want to see you
hurt.
Me: Really? You don't want to de-level me and make me cook for you?
Genka: Well, maybe cook for me a few times, but I like cooking so I'll do that.
I just want to be with you, and for you to come with me on raids with my guild
and camp items with me and talk with me, and yes at times make love with me too,
but that is not the only thing or the most important thing.
Me: OMG, .I think I believe you. Please please tell me I am not making a
mistake.I have made so many mistakes, I just need to know, are you lying to me
or trying to trick me?
Genka: No, I am not. I am just lonely and I like being with you and I want you
to be my friend, not a Fucktoy anymore.
Me: OK, you have no idea how happy I am to hear you say that my love.
I went off after the rez to complete my punishment, but had to go to chardoc on
a raid with my new guild, The Grubs. My Master was there and he won the Prince
head for his epic, and he told me to forget about serving the remaining 3 hrs of
my punishment and I thanked him. He told me he wanted to talk with me privately
and we arranged to meet in FG the next day.
So me and my Master met and we talked:
Master: I want you to tell me your goals and your fears and why you are scared
of me.
I told him I felt he wanted to know these things so he could use them to punish
me but that I did not mind letting him know. So I told him my goals to see
every zone and kill all the main mobs and I explained to him about my fears of
him becoming Toymaster 2: The Sequel.
Master: You are correct, that was my favorite part, but for the wrong reason.
I was attracted by the way you gave yourself completely to your Toymaster to
mold you into whatever he wanted. I also want you to give me that same trust me
so that no matter what I ask of you, even if I ask you to walk thru lava or
jump off a clift, you will obey unquestioningly and know for certain that I am
helping you to achieve your full potential and that it is for your own good,
even if it does not seem that way to you, and you will thank me no matter what I
have you do because you know I know what is best for you and that I am in fact
helping you. I want you to trust me completely, and let me shape you much
like a Rose bush needs to be pruned to achieve its full beauty and potential, so
I want to make you into a work of Art. I want everyone who sees you will know
that I have made you the perfect slave they will see before them.
Me: You don't want to de-level me for sadistic fun?
Master: That is so crude, heavens no! Why would I want to make you into
something that is broken? Why would I buy something and then destroy it so it
would not work, what is the profit in that? I want you to get experience, I
want you to be come powerful and to do all the things you want to do.
Me: Really? Maybe you are not so evil after all. If what you say is true, then
I will do my best to give you a chance, and not be so afraid of you then.
Master: I think you are a good and obedient slave and if you remain so, I do
not ever think you will need to be punished in any way.
Me: Thank you master!
My mistress was very unhappy that I complained to her about her punishing me,
and told me that she was going to give me completely to Fehreel or else she was
going to quit the game. I sent her one last email reminding her of her promise
to only give me to someone who I loved and she replied she did not care, I would
be safe with Fehreel and he would be able to treat me like the slave I wanted to
be, that she was not strong enough and could not do it. So I told her fine, I
did not want her quiting ove me, to please order me to make Fehreel my only
owner..and she told me the words, "I give you completely to Fehreel, make him
your ownly owner on your trade window", and I confirmed this with Fehreel and he
told me to do this too, and so, Fehreel became my tenth Master.
Part 24: My 11th Master: Mission Impossible
> My new master wasted no time in giving me my first assignment: "Now, > for
your first spy assignment you are to attempt to convince Genka that the only way
he can keep seeing and grouping with you is for him to give me the KEI spell he
offered to sell me recently. Use whatever methods you like. Make him love you if
you wish, or simply make him enjoy @#%$ you so much that he can't bear to
lose the privilege." Well now, this presented me with a problem. I loved Genka
and was grouping with him and making love with him on a regular basis but this
was going to hurt him and make him feel I would be betraying our love. My slave
vows allow me to disobey any command by a Master if they require me to hurt
someone, which I feel would sort of be against my Goddess's wishes of being
loving to everyone. I told Fehreel my these feelings. In addition, Master
Fehreel was also telling me that he was telling Genka that he was going to
de-level me all the way down to level 10 if I did not obey him, although he also
told me he was not serious about doing that. I had concerns, since it had
happened so many times to me already that what starts out as a convenient
role-play act can turn into a desire for the act to become reality. I did not
completely trust Fehreel, and I did not want to be used for evil and sought a
way to comply and yet not commit the evil act he wanted me to of betraying my
love. He also issued me a new command (actually on the Grub web page) that I was
to charge all people 250 PP for any love-making I did, with 50 PP going to him.
This was fine with me initially, since it meant more time for me to group and
get exp. However, Master sent me a tell the first night when I was in the middle
of a group with Genka telling me I could not group with him and had to leave
immediately. I pleaded with him not to do this, and had my group send him tells
and he relented eventually, but he was angry. After the group ended, Genka and I
want to the beds in SH to make love. It felt very wrong for me to charge him for
showing real love in this way. So I sort of intentionally disobeyed the orders
of my Master that he had posted on charging for all lovemaking and made love to
Genka without even mentioning money. Naturally Niteingale sends me a tell as we
are finishing and finds out I am with Genka and tells Fehreel. Next thing I
know, I am getting a very mad tell from Fehreel and then he tells me to find a
necro so he can punish me. I explained to him that I was just following his
orders, he had told me to use any methods to get the KEI spell including make
love with Genka. I suggested that if he really felt I needed to be punished
then perhaps if my punishment for this disobedience was going to be severe
enough then Genka would be willing to give the KEI spell to save me. My master
was delighted at this plan and complemented me, saying he was thinking along the
exact same lines and was why he was commanding me to leave the group with Genka,
knowing I would disobey and he would threaten to punish me unless Genka gave him
the spell. So that became the plan, and so I told Master each of the times I was
disobedient to him by making love to Genka for free, and grouping with Genka
against his orders. Master was delighted and promised he would punish me very
severely unless Genka gave him the spell. Now the thought occurred to me that
after Master got the spell, would he then try to extort some other item from
Genka using the same approach? How long could this continue? I needed to find a
way so that this could happen only once, and in a way that would not hurt either
Master or Genka, and in a way that would not lead to evil winning. I decided
upon the plan that if and only if Genka turned over the spell to save my life
out of his love for me expecting no reward for himself, that this would
constitute the requirement of sale. Thus, I would make Genka my new master as
soon as he turned over the spell to Fehreel, and Fehreel would no longer own me
and could no longer force me to do evil things or have any power to hurt me.
Naturally, I could not tell Genka, he had to do this for his love to me, nor
could I tell anyone, since if it failed and Master Fehreel knew or found out of
my intent he would be very upset and punish me severely.
I began to look for Necros to help with my plan as my Master had instructed. I
would send tells to random level 60 Necros I would see on line, " Hi! Do you
role play your Necro as evil or do you just play normally? My Master told me to
find an evil Necro to help punish me by making me accepting sacrifices, sort of
like me carrying my own cross, would you be interested? " And they would reply,
" Hugh? " or " No, sorry, I am in a group and I am not that evil.", or " I am
camping soon". Where are the people who like to play evil when you need them?
Well eventually I found Shular to help and my Master was also looking and he
found Blackhood. We agreed to do it on July 4th after I got back from the
fireworks. I felt it was sort of appropriate since if all worked well, I would
gain my freedom from Fehreel's evil and be able to be with Genka as my new
master. Fehreel had us all meet at the front gate to Overthere, since said he
wanted to threaten Genka that after I was de-leveled to 45 by sacrifices, since
I was to be bound by guards who would kill me the rest of the way to level 10
because sacrifice does not work below level 46, if Genka did not turn the spell
over. So as I made my way to Overthere, I cast KEI on all the groups along the
way, N wall of KC, the fort at FM where my friend Talison was fighting, the
ledge in Overthere. I did not know when I would be able to cast KEI again after
tonight, and I was very sad and nervous. I had talked to Genka the previous
night and confirmed that he still had it and would bring it to my punishment and
told him if he loved me and trusted me he would give it to Fehreel. However, he
was annoyed with me and told me that all I cared about was the stupid spell and
so I had promised not to mention it again.
Now before everyone arrived, me Fehreel and Niteingale were all in group
together waiting at the ramp into Skyfire. She was very hysterical that I was
going to be de-leveled as punishment and I tried to calm her , saying that I
deserved to be punished for loving Genka for free, that I disobeyed my Master
and that it was fair for him to do this to me. She complained about the scam to
get Genka to give Fehreel the spell and I sent her tells saying that I needed
him to be my Hero to stop from being de-leveled. I could not tell her how much I
needed him to give that spell up for me, and she was sending tells to Genka
telling him how I was going to betray him. Fehree told me that after he got the
spell from Genka I would tell Genka of my treachery and thus hurt Genka deeply,
but my plan was to change my trade window the instant the spell was transferred,
and tell everyone of my love for Genka, my Hero and new Master! So Genka was
confused as to who to believe, me or Niteingale, and I was not sure if he loved
me enough to sacrifice the spell for me, or if he still secretely longed to have
me de-leveled as he had when he tried to rape me. Many people following my
story on the web sent me tells offering to help me or accept my punishment for
me, but as you can all see now, that would have done no good. This entire thing
was a test for Genka's love for me, it was all up to him and nobody else could
do anything. For Master Fehreel this wasn't really a punishment for me at all.
It was a plan to get a spell and he had made it clear to me that he really did
not want me to be level 10. I told him that I wanted a Master who was honest and
always kept his promises, and asked him to be brave enough to take me all the
way down to level 10 as he had already told Genka he was going to do, and which
had been his idea. I did not want him to break with the evil monster role he
had already developed with Genka and I did not want to be dishonest with Genka.
Additionally, this had to be a real threat for me, or else I could not transfer
my ownership to Genka when he saved me, that would have been dishonest to
Fehreel. If I knew that my life was not forfeit if Genka did not give the spell,
then I could not honestly transfer my ownership to Genka. It wasn't just about
the plan to get the spell. Either Genka would show me his love and rescue me and
be my Hero and new master and we would live happily ever after, or he would
betray me and let me be de-leveled and I would be furious and never forgive him
and live forever as the level 10 he had let me become. Master Fehreel said he
was not happy about seeing me de-leveled, but that he would keep his promise to
do so in order to punish Genka for disobeying him command to give him the spell.
But it was the role he had chosen, and the punishment he had invented for me and
threatened Genka with if he did not give the spell, and I wanted him be strong
enough to follow through with the role he had created, whatever happened. I
told him if he wanted to role playing evil he should not let RL feelings come
into his consideration, and whatever he did I would understand and not be upset
with his RL person. He said he was happy with me for being such a good
understanding slave, and I huged him.
Finally everyone arrived, and the group contained Fehreel, Niteingale, Genka,
Lillywhite, Blackhood (60 necro) and Shular (60 necro). Fehreel orddered me
change my bind point for the first time in 2 months to bind there. I did so and
then he told me to attack the guards and die, so I would become level 59 and be
able to accept sacrifice which does not work at level 60. And so he began.
Fehreel: Lillywhite you have disobeyed me and have been acting like a whore,
making love with Genka for free and grouping with him against my direct orders
have you not?
Me: Yes master, I am very sorry.
Fehreel: I have decided since you like to act like a whore so much more than
obeying your Master, that you don't need to be level 60 to be a whore and will
be better as a level 10 whore.
Me: Master, I can be more useful to you as a level 60 whore than as a level 10
whore.
Fehreel: No you can't, and I want you to tell everyone all the reasons you can
think of that will make you a better whore at level 10 than at level 60.
Me: Master please don't make me do this.
Fehreel: Blackhood please cast, she is not obeying. Accept the sacrifice whore!
Me: Yes master.
So I accepted the first sacrifice. I began to think of reasons to answer his
question, but before I got very far, he interrupted me.
Fehreel: So what have you learned little whore?
Me: I need to obey you Master. .
Fehreel: Wrong.. You need to learn to be grateful and thank me for helping you
to learn to be the best you can be. Blackhood cast again, maybe she will learn
this time. Accept it and show everyone what a stupid little whore you deserve to
be.
Me: Yes Master, I am so sorry master.
And I accepted it again.
Me: Thank you master for helping me learn how to reach my full potential.
During this time, Niteingale was going nuts and said she had to go, since she
could not watch this. Genka bound there and was in the process of killing
himself over and over again. I did not understand why he was doing this. I had
not expected to have to accept any sacrifices so I sent a tell to Fehreel, "
Master, perhaps you should ask Genka for the spell now, so we can stop this?"
and he sent a tell back, " I already did, he does not have it." My stomach sank
and I felt like someone who just bet the house at the casino and lost. I sent a
tell to Genka, " You did not bring the spell like I asked you my love?" > And
Genka replied, " No, I bought it for 25 k and I sold if for 30 k this morning so
I made 5 k!" And I send him a tell back, " I am so sorry my love /cry. "
I felt so devastated, Genka did not love me and now I had to go through with
this, since this is what I had promised I would do. I had gambled everything and
put all my faith and trust in Genka's love for me, and he had foolishly and
unwittingly betrayed me. I was so mad at Genka and I was so very sad my eyes
were tearing and I sent a tell to Fehreel, " I am so sorry I have failed you in
my assignment Master and that Genka is an @#%$ and did not give you the
spell, I deserve this punishment for my failure. " And he sent me a tell back, "
Yes you do, I am sorry."
Fehreel: Now my slave, you have not told everyone the reasons you will make
such a good level 10 whore. "
I had escaped this fate from my Toymaster, and now it was all coming back again
and I was trying to resign myself to what was going to happen.
Me: I will be a better whore at level 10 since then nobody will ever send me
tells when I make love and interrupt me to buff them, or want me for groups or
anything else. I will always be free for making love since I won't be able to go
on raids anymore or need loot since I will spend all my time in bed making love.
And whenever you log on, I won't be in a group or have to find a replacement but
I will be able to come right to you and do whatever you want me to.
Fehreel: Very good whore, now beg me to make you be the stupid little level 10
whore again since you want it so much.
Me: Master please, you can be merciful, please don't make me do that.
Fehreel: Blackhood cast again, she is disobeying my order. Accept it and prove
you want to be just a stupid low level whore.
Me: Yes master.
I accepted the third sacrifice, and continued when I got back from dying.
Me: Thank you master, you are so good to me to help me learn how to reach my
full potential to be just a stupid low level whore like I deserve to be.
Fehreel: Your welcome slave, now don't you have something else to tell me now?
Me: Yes master, please make me be just a little level 10 slut, it is what I
deserve for being such a failure at everything I try, I will be so much happier
this way, please help me learn how to be a good obedient slave whore again and
punish me like I deserve.
I began to kiss his feet.
Fehreel: I will grant your wish whore, accept it again. Someone cast it.
I accepted the fourth sacrifice, and came back. Blackhood sent me a tell asking
me if I was ok and I told him yes to keep casting as long as Master wanted me to
keep accepting. He told me he did not want to continue since this was such a
waste, and I told him it is up to my Master.
Me: Thank you master, for helping me to reach my full potential as a level 10
whore. You know what is best for me and what I deserve and I am so lucky to have
you as my master. I deserve to be a level 10 whore so much, it is all I want so
please help me master.
Fehreel: I want to make you happy, so accept it again whore. Cast it Shular.
I accepted it for the fifth time.
I don't know what was transpiring in tells or group with Fehreel and Genka, I
was to busy begging and focusing on what I had to do. However, Genka had kept
dying and was now level 59, and I was shocked when Genka asked to accept the
sacrifices for me. Fehreel consented to let Genka take the next sacrifice for me
and he accepted it. Fehreel said he would keep the essence stone from Genka as a
trophy of his power and victory. I noticed this and for the first time looked
and saw all the Genka bodies laying all over, since I had been preoccupied with
the group chat and tells to Fehreel and accepting sactifices that had me blacked
out with loading time and with looting my bodies. Why was he doing this after he
had betrayed me and sold the spell? Genka had wanted me to be de-leveled for so
long now he had his chance, why was he trying to stop it? Did he love me after
all? I started to get tears in my eyes as I realized how sorry he must be to
have not had the spell, and how Gallant and Noble he was trying to be in doing
his best to stop me from being de-leveled by accepting them for me. I decided
he did love me after all and felt so sorry for him, that I still could not tell
him how unnecessary it all had been, if he had just had the spell. Shular had
previously told the group he had a Darkbane raid soon when he started, and said
he could not delay any longer and had to go. After Shular left, Blackhood said
he would not continue since it was such a waste, and the he gave me the 5 stones
from my sacrifices.. I feel that me accepting the sacrifice's and Genka killing
himself over and over so he could accept them in my place was just too strange
for Blackhood and so Genka helped stop me from even more punishment by his
unselfish actions since Blackhood refused to do any more. I realized that not
having the spell was a mistake of Genka's but that he had to love me by all this
sacrifice he made for me. My Master Fehreel sent me a tell we would continue
later when he found a reliable evil necro who would help punish me like I
deserved, and he left, leaving just Genka and me all alone. I was realizing all
the exp he lost trying to save me, and was feeling better now that I was still
59 and not 10. Genka rezed my body with the equipment on it, and I found I had
still 1.4 Yellow now to reach level 60. Genka rezed all his bodies and he needed
2 yellow to max out 60 now.
Genka bought the kei spell the next day and showed it to me, and I was so happy.
Then Niteingale sent his a series of tells and Genka told me she was right, I
only care for myself and do not love him at all. I tried to tell him that was
not true, but he then sold the spell and I was very depressedagain.
I gave Genka an essence crystal, a piece of my soul from the sacrifice for him
to remember me always as a token of my love. He promised he would always keep it
as a symbol of my love for him. Fehreel did not get on line for 12 days and I
got level 60 back. Genka seemed to be moving away from me and I was scared I had
lost him. The Grubs kicked me out, I feel they did not approve or understand my
de-leveling, and I guess they thought I was too strange for even them. I had
been faithful to Genka all through this time, but began to make love with others
again, feeling unwanted and unloved and that I needed someone else to love me
now, but they were just one night stands. I was very hurt and sad, feeling I
had lost Genka forever.
I was totally surprised when I read on the Role-play board a post from Fehreel
that he had sold me to Genka, and then saw my email saying the same thing. I
logged on and Genka told me how Fehreel told him he would sell me to him for the
KEI spell. I was very happy, and I told Genka and Fehreel what I had really
planned. Fehreel explained later to me that when Niteingale was giving tells to
Genka before the necrosizing, she broke a series of promises she had made to
Fehreel. He could not accept that, and their relationship pretty much ended
then. Fehreel, unhappy with all that had happened decided it was time to cut his
losses and get out.
Genka's first rule for me was that I could make love with anyone I liked and
not charge anything at all. However, I am willingly being faithful to him as a
sign of my love for him and to show him I do not have to be a whore, unless he
wants me to be. I have been faithful to him so far since he has been my master,
and he has been very good to me. He bought for me a beguiler's robe multi quest
for 28 k, and the cabbage quest earring from fg for 15 k. I am giving him all
the money I get and letting him decide what I need. He says he is going to buy
me a White horse next which is something I have always wanted! I love him very
much, and I feel I have been punished enough and hope that the time has come for
me to finally enjoy some " Happily Ever Aftering.".
To be continued... maybe.
Lillywhite
Part 25: My 12th Master: I am no fun anymore!
I did my very best to be what Genka said he wanted me to be. He tried to get me
invited into his guild, a newly formed one called Sphaera. There were
objections. The guild leader, who had been in Season of Eternity with me when
he was playing Mordekie(sp?, his shaman) and we had not gotten along very well.
For that and my sluty reputation causing many there to object to me, Culogo
would not let me join, and so Genka and I were forced to be apart whenever they
were raiding, which seemed like all the time. He also seemed to be in guild
groups all the time so when I loged in he was already busy, and because he was
in guild groups, he would not want me to join because of objections from the
members he was with. I was disapointed, but what could I do?
We did find some time to be together, he needed Faction in Droga and needed me
for aoe stuns, and I was happy to be with him. Droga is a confuzing maze, and I
ended up dying, but had bound outside. I was always bad at mazes and only was
able to get down there because Genka was leading. So he told me to invis and
find my way to him. I beged him to just rez me since he had lived, and he told
me I had to proove my worth to him and find my way to him. Well I tried and I
died when my invis wore off. This was before improved invisibility so the
spells randomly wore off. I told him and he said if I died again he would not
rez me at all because I was so stupid. Well, I tried again and died again.
Fortunately I had gotten the locs and he was able to find all my bodies and drag
them near zone in. So he told me he was not going to rez any. I beged him to
please rez me and I was very, very ..ummm...loving.. and we made love there in
the gravel. And afterwards, he did rez my 3 bodies but said next time he might
not be so kind.
So the months flowed on, and he told me he wanted me to max out level 60 in
preparation for the new expansion that would raise the level limit to 65. So I
was working on that and I continued forming AOE groups in FG and The Deep, while
he would occasionally join me when he was not on raids or groups. On one of
these times in a Deep Group, I was grouping with Aaethdilie who he liked and he
seemed to enjoy showing her how obedient I was. He told me in group to run as
far as I could into the Deep and die. The group was really annoyed since that
would mean I would have to do CR and med back, so they would be delayed.
Aaethdilie sent me a tell saying I should not do that, and I explained I had to
unless she could talk him out of it. She tried, but failed, so he gave me a
direct order after a pull, when my mana was low and we had to med anyways, and I
did. He draged me on his monk Kommota and then ordered me in group to accept a
revive. I beged him not to do that and he relented with a 90% rez instead of a
96% and commanded I accept that for arguing with him and I did. I was very
confuzed. I told him it was he who wanted me to max level 60 and that I was
working hard to do that, but that punishing me in front of the group with revive
was not consistent with his orders. He said he was sorry, and told me he still
loved me and promised he would never do that again.
The next week I was in group with him again in The Deep, and our group had just
died. My cleric was camped there and I had loged her on to rez Genka but
neither me nor my son who I had asked to come over was able to find his body,
which was in the wall someplace and not targetable. So I told Genka I could not
find it and told him he would have to come get it, and loged back in for rez.
I had to go pick up my daughter and had my son come over and asked him to watch
for the rez and buff group and med while I went away. So while I was out,
Genka cast revive when he rezed me. I had not told Genka my son would be
playing me, and my son asked if he should accept the 0% exp revive and Genka
told him, "Yes" which he did. When I got back and saw trhe exp loss, and my son
told me what happened, I was FURIOUS, Genka had broken his promise to me! So
this is about how our converation in tells went:
Me: Master, you promised me you would NEVER make me accept a revive again, why
did you do this?
Genka: You were acting stupid again, I told you in Droga I would do that again
if you were stupid again, I did not break my promise. And you accepted it so I
thought you did not mind, if you had protested I would have recast revinisence.
ME: First of all Master, that was NOT me, that was a different character, my
cleric who is not at all like I am. You can not punish me for somethign another
one of my chars does that you do not like. My vows do not require I accept
punishment for other characters, just this one. Second, I had to go out, and
that was my son, he did not know what else to do, and accepted it.
Genka: That is your fault for being stupid and not telling me you were leaving
your son in charge of you.
ME: That is a good point Master, it was a mistake I made, but I had relied on
your promise never to take exp from me again. Master, what is wrong? Lately you
do not seem to be happy with me. Can you please tell me what is wrong and what
I can do to make you be happy with me again? I have done everything you wanted,
I have been faithful to you and only been with you and done my best to do what
you told me to do. Why do you keep treating me like @#%$ and wanting to punish
me?
Genka: OK, since you ask, I miss the old you. I was thinking I had a lot more
fun when you were a whore and was testing how you would react to going back to
being one again. I am sorry, but I want you to go back to the way you used to be
again. I don't love you anymore like this, I loved you when you were a whore
and that is how I want you to be again so I can love you again like I used to.
Me: Master, I am sorry I have disappointed you? I thought you wanted me to be
faithful and loyal and I have been, I swear there has been nobody else but you
all these months, do you really want that for me?
Genka: Yes I do, you are just like any other enchanter I group with now, you are
not unique or interesting, and you are just not much fun anymore. I want you to
be fun again for me and be the whore you used to be again, OK?
I was very sad and hurt, I felt I had lost my best friend. If he no longer was
going to keep his promises to me then there was no point in trying to maintain
the illusion of a relationship that did not exist anymore. But I had one more
test for him to make sure there was nothing left of or romance before I agreed
to this.
Me: Master can you place the essence emerald I gave you that was a part of my
soul in my trade window please so I will know you still have it and have kept
your promise to me that you made months ago to always keep it with you?
Genka: I am sorry, I can't I sold it a few weeks after you gave it to me. Do you
still have the other 4?
Keeping promises is one of the most important way to show Love, and I was very
hurt that he clearly demonstrated he no longer loved me.
Me: Yes Master, I always keep them with me so I will rember, see?
I placed them in his trade window to show him I still had them.
Genka: Can I have them please?
Me: Why Master?
Genka I need money and I will sell them.
Me: My vows require I obey you Master, all I own is yours.
I hit trade and he took them.
Genka Thank you.
Me: Your welcome Master. I did not realize you felt this way and I am sorry for
disappointing you Master. I will go back to being a whore again if that is all
you want me for now. Here are the rules you gave me to follow, please tell me
which ones you want me to change.
So I listed the rules he had given me that I had recorded on my hot keys, and he
told me what he wanted and I changed them. Basically, they required me to make
love at least once a day and to charge 50 pp for each man, and to never ask him
to join his guild again, and to never speak badly about him to anyone, and to
tell everyone how much I love him for making me a whore again like I deserve to
be, and that each time I disobeyed any of these rules he would make me die or
accept a sacrifice and I would act happy to accept it and never complain or
question him again.. So that took a while to get them all written down the way
he wanted and then at the end:
Genka: So you are happy with your new rules little whore?
Me: Yes Master, I love them, they are the best any Master has ever given me and
I will be a good little whore again just like you want me to be so you will love
me again and I will make you happy and so proud of me! I will be fun again for
you, I promise!
Part 26: My 13th Owner: Aaethdilie
So I loged in the next day and Genka was in a group and I told him I was going
to beging following his new rules and he told me how happy he was with me. So I
met someone in the bazzar and he agreed to pay me 50 pp and we went off into a
secluded room in Shadow Haven. So Genka wanted to know who it was, and I told
him I can't disclose the names of my clients, he knows that is private and
confidential. Well, he began to get mad at me for not telling him who I was
with, and the next thing I know he is telling me to leave the man and stop. I
told Genka I was just following his wishes, but I could break my vows and hurt
somone by betraying a confidence. So the next thing I know he has left his
group, and has loged in someones druid and traks me to where we are, since I
would not tell him. I appologized to the man, and returned his 50 pp since we
had not done much yet, and he camped. So I said to Genka now in group:
Me: What is wrong Master, I thought this is what you wanted, you wanted me to be
a fun little whore again?
Genka: I don't know what I want. I guess I just don't want you at all anymore.
I have decided to give you to Aaethdilie and I want you to change your trade
window now to show she is your new owner.
This was all so surprizing and shocking to me! She was on line and I asked her
if she was agreeing to be my new mistress and she told me yes, she was and she
would treat me much better than she had seen Genka treat me and would never make
me loose exp. So I changed my trade window and Aaethdile became my 13th Owner.
So my life continued again much as before, I continued grouping and gettng ready
for the new expansion. After a few weeks, Aaethdilie told me she had been
approached by several buyers for me, and asked me if I wanted to be sold. I told
her I was happy with her and asked if she was happy with me. Apparently the
agreement with Genka was that she would return me to him if he asked her to. She
said she needed money and that Genka was pressuring her to sell me so he could
get some of the money he had spent on me back. I talked with Genka and he said
that he had spent 78 k on me all told, and wanted Aaethdile to sell me if she
could get that back. I told Genka I would give him that money back so he could
release her and would not have to pressure her anymore, and she would be free to
make her own decisions. He agreed. So I spend a few weeks in Cazic Thule. This
was just before the new expansion came out, when the exp there for level 60 was
very good, I could make 2-3 aa's a night there as well as win loot. I won a few
mosquite earings which I soon sold, and gave Genka the 78k he wanted. I really
felt stupid giving him that much money and hitting the trade button, it was more
money than I had ever had. He said he never ever thought I would give him that
money and thanked me for keeping my promise. I told him I always keep my
promises and I would never hurt him and that it would also not be fair for him
to bear the 78k of hurt he had lost because of me, so my vows required I give it
to him, and that I would miss him. We hugged goodbye, and I asked him to tell
Aaethdile I had given him the money and he did, I confirmed with her that she
was completely my owner now and had no obligation to give me back to Genka. She
confirmed that, and life went back to grouping and exp for me, with just an
occasional night here and there of making love with men again, now that Genka
was gone and I no longer felt the need to remain faithful to him.
Part 27: My 14th Owner: Celbin
The new expansion came out, and I got flaged for Plane of valor within the first
week it came out and got to level 65 the week after that. Then Aaethdile sends
me a tell out of the blue, saying that she had an offer of 35 k for me form one
of the server men she had been having discussions with who had wanted to buy me
and she had accepted it. She told me it was from Celbin who was in
ForsakenRealm, and that she was confident he would be good to me and meant me no
harm. Celbin had been one of my clients on occasion so he was not unfamiliar to
me, but I told her I would prefer to stay with her as things were, since I had
paid Genka to remove all the pressure from her and had thought I would be able
to stay as her slave. She said her mind was made up, and to meet her at the
bank in shadowhaven where she and Celbin were waiting for me. I arrived, Celbin
handed me the 35k and I gave it to aaethdile who deposited it., and I changed my
trade window to show Celbin as my new master. However, he had me change my trade
window right away to an unknown alt of his, since he wanted to keep his
ownership of me a secrete from his guild. So we had a conversation something
like this:
Me: Hi Master, so why did you buy me? You could be with me anytime you want, why
spend all that money to own me?
Celbin: Well, I wanted to help you and protect you, and this way I can keep you
out of trouble.
Me: Really? I thought you liked me being a whore, isn't that what you want me
to be?
Celbin: Well yes, but only for me. I don't want you being the server whore
anymore, and I want you to stop making love with everyone else but me , and just
play the game normally. Publically I want you to be a respectable Lady for
everyone else, except when I want to be with you, then you will be my whore.
Me: Yes Master! I will tell the man who I have agreed to meet later that I can
not do so anymore.
Celbin: Who is that?
Me: I can not tell you Master, since as you know, even with you, I do not reveal
my clients names, unless they agree.
Celbin: Do you like him?
Me: He joined this server because he wanted me to be his slave and own me
someday, he was also trying to buy me from Aaethdile but he is still only in his
level 20's, so I guess he could not match your offer.
Celbin: Well, have him send me a tell when he gets on line, and perhaps I will
agree to letting him be with you when I am not with you.
Me: Thank you Master!
As it turned out, they hit it off very well initially. The three of us met and
they had fun both making love with me at the same time they had me use a shrink
potion they gave me so they were both really huge. After a few days of such
meetings, Celbin told me he had arranged with Kithkin to be my new Master, and
to put him as such in my trade window, but that he, Celbin, would remain my
owner and I told him I would record that in my rules hotkey. Celbin told me
Kithkin wanted me to be nothing but a whore and that was fine with him so long
as I was available when he wanted me, and I was to obey Kithkin in all things,
except not accept any exp loss or give him any of my items. Celbin said this
would enable him to keep his ownership of me secrete from his guild, and that he
had promised Kithkin he would sell me to him, if he ever got bored with me. He
asked me if this was ok, and I told him it would be fine with me, if that made
him happy. He said he was very happy wiht me, and we made love, and I was happy
too.
I did not get much exp for the next few weeks or so, I was with Kithkin a lot
and with other men, and with Celbin sometimes too. I was getting accustomed
again to loging in and not trying to find a group , but just sending tells to
men on my friends list and seeing who wanted to be with me. It was a relaxing
time, not much stress or pressure, just fitting back into my old life style
again. Celbin was always raiding and he very seldom needed me, while Kithkin
was having fun as my Master, and spending lots of time with me. Everything
seemed fine, I was happy, Celbin was happy, Kithkin was happy, the men were
happy.
So Celbin sends me a tell out of the blue one day,
Celbin: I want you to change your trade window back to my alt, as of now Kithkin
is not your Master any longer and you are not to have anything to do with him
any longer and will stop obeying him.
Me: You are firing him Master? Why?
Celbin: It is a long story, I don't deal with people who threaten me, and it was
to protect you. He will not be a good Master for you, he wants to hurt you and
told me he wants to make you more specialized in being a whore.
Me: Specialized Master? Hello, I thought I was doing pretty well already?
Celbin: He wanted me to use your experience to make money, have you killed till
you were level 59, then have a necro/cleric combination alternately rez all your
dead bodies and have you accept sacrifice to conver the experience from your
levels 60-65 into essence emeralds and then sell them. He said he would then
split the 300k or so we would get. I told him no way and to get lost, I don't
want to have anything else to do with him and I don't want you to either.
Me: Thank you Master! I was not sure you still cared about me, you have sort of
been ignoring me for a pretty long time now and since you told me you promised
Kithkin would be my next Master, I have been trying to make him happy with me.
Celbin: Well, I take that promise back, I will not ever sell you to him. And I
have not been ignoring you, I was just keeping out of the way since you seemed
so happy being his whore. Do you really like the way he treats you ?
Me: Well Master, I like men who have a clear idea of what they want from me and
how they want me to act. I know he calls me bad names all the time, and likes to
treats me like @#%$, but he is really creative and is always making me do new
and different things, so I have found him a very interesting Master. In any
case, as long as you own me, he is harmless, and can't make me accept any exp
loss, so it would be fine with me if I still meet with him when he wants.
Celbin: You would rather be with him than me? I am not creative? I don't
interest you?
Me: Well Master, it is basically he is with me more a lot more than you are and
he just seems to pay more attention to me and thinks up more things for me to
do. It is just the situation with your raid times and you living in Europe and
different time zones and all, it is not your fault.
Celbin: So you would rather I be more interesting and creative then?
Me: Yes Master!
Celbin: Very well then, follow me.
He took me to Katta, I had not been there in a long time, and he took me to a
room and opened the door and told me to bind on the bed there, which I did. Then
he told me to get out.
Well I tried to get out the door but it was locked and I was not holding the
key. He told me only a rogue could enter there. Then he told me to stand by the
window and take off everything I was wearing while he bound my hands at the top
of it so I was exposed to all the patrolling NPC guards. He told me to yell
down to the guards to look up at me and come up and enjoy me when their shift
was over. I did a /who and it was just me and Celbin in the zone so I shouted,
" Hey you men! Here I am! Up here in the window! My Master says I have to make
love to all of you whenever you want me!"
Celbin: Very good, you like being a whore for all the soldiers don't you bitch?
Me: Yes Master! You know that is where I belong and what I am best at!
He enjoyed making love to me from behind, while all the troops stood outside the
window looking up at us. It was very creative and after we had finished that
scenario, I told him that was really imaginative and that I had a lot of fun.
The only annoying thing was this npc that kept popping on the bed every 15 min
or so that interrupting us and he had to keep killing it.
Celbin; So you liked being bound here and @#%$ while all the soldiers watch
you?
Me: Yes Master, I hope they all come up later and visit me after you go!
Celbin: Very good then, you will stay here and not leave, and will let all the
troops @#%$ your brains out whenever they want, and I will visit you when I can.
Me: Thank you Master!
So we arranged a time in a few days when we could both log in again, and he
camped. I sat on the bed and was chatting with friends and killing that annoying
npc pop. Kithkin loged-in soon and I asked him what had happened between him
and Celbin. He told me he was determined to see I get treated to everything I
deserved, and that Celbin would not agree to that, and Celbin had told him he
would never own me in violation of the promise Celbin had made to him. After
Celbin told him that, Kithkin then told me that he told Celbin if he did not
sell me to him in the next few days, he would tell his guild, Forsaken Realm,
that Celbin was my real owner, and would destroy his reputation. Knowing how the
people in FR felt about me, I knew he was telling the truth, it might get him
removed from his guild that he worked so hard with. I will never let anyone get
hurt because of me, and indeed my slave vows mandate I can not. I no longer had
any choice, I decided right then that I would do anything Kithkin wanted to
save Celbin, even if I had to sacrifice myself.
Me: I can't allow you to do that, hurting me is one thing, but you can't hurt
Celbin just to own me.
Kithkin: Well my @#%$ sucking little slut, if you do not want Celbin hurt, then
you should convince him to sell you to me. Tell him you hate him and only want
to be a stupid little whore for me like you deserve. You have enjoyed being my
whore the last few weeks haven't you?
Me: Yes Master, I already told Celbin I was happy with you being my Master.
Kithkin: Very good my little @#%$ bitch. And I will make it so much better
when I finally own you completely. I am strong enough to succeed where your
Toymaster and Fehreel failed. You won't be good for anything but being a stupid
filthy little whore and I will never let you be anything else again, I will
make sure you are always kept happy getting your brains @#%$ out every day
like you deserve to be.. You told me what a good Master I was for you and how
you wished I could be your real Master and I am going to make your wish come
true. You still want me to be your Master right?
Me: Yes Master, but I don't want you to hurt Celbin. He cares for me and I feel
very bad for him now. He did not tell me all this.
Kithkin: It is very simple my dumb little @#%$, all you have to do is tell him
you want to be my slave, and that you want him to sell you to me. Would that be
a lie?
I have learned that to be a good whore, I need to do and say what men want me
to. I want them to be happy with me and to want me, and don't want to disappoint
them. I never really lie, I just try to want what they want at the moment, and
be everything what they want me to be for them. This gets me in trouble
sometimes.
Me: No Master, it would not be a lie. I deserve to have you for my Master and
for you to make me be everything you want me to be, but he might not sell me
regardless of what I want, and I just don't want him hurt because of me.
Kithkin: Then you will have to be very persuasive my dirty little whore.
Promise me you will tell him the truth and that you only want me to be your
Master, and that he ignores you and he is a bad Master like you told me.
Me: Yes Master, I promise I will tell Celbin the truth, you are the best Master
for me, you pay attention to me and you know I deserve to be just a stupid
@#%$ little @#%$ all the time, and he does not care about me the way you do,
and I hate him as my Master!
Kithkin: You have made me so happy my stupid @#%$ bitch. I know you will keep
your promise. Can you come to me now, you know you deserve to be @#%$ now?
Me: Yes Master I do, but I am sorry Master, I can't get out of here, and Celbin
told me not to have anything to do with you anymore.
I explained the situation.
Kithkin: That is ok my dirty little whore, I will be your Master soon enough and
you will be getting @#%$ 4 or 5 times every day like you deserve, a couple
days more or less won't matter, I am very patient, as you have seen. Go to
sleep and dream of how happy you will be when Celbin sells you to me and you are
finally my slave and how happy I will make and keep you at last!
Me: Yes Master, I will camp now and dream how happy I will be with all the men
@#%$ my brains out all the time when you are my real Master and I will be
just a dirty little whore again like you want me to be. Good night Master.
Kithkin: Good night my little whore.
Part 28: My 15th owner.
It was several days before Celbin was to log in and on the next day Kithkin said
he had a friend he wanted me to be with and wanted to know how to come get me
out.
Me: But M'Lord,, Celbin told me you are not my Master anymore and not to have
anything to do with you.
Kithkin: Listen to me you dumb little slut, I am going to be your Master and
what Celbin wants of you now means nothing.. How certain are you that he will
sell me to you when you beg him to be my slave when you see him next?
Me: I am very sure M'lord, I do not want him to be hurt, and the only way is for
him to sell me to you.
Kithkin: Exactly my stupid little @#%$, now will he be more likely to sell
you when he finds out you are still obeying him, or will he be more likely to
get mad and sell you to me if you keep obeying me?
Me: I feel he would be mad at me M'lord and be more likely to sell me.
Kithkin: Then my dumb little bitch, it will be better for Celbin if you keep
calling me Master and tell me how to find you, won't it?
Me: Yes Master, you are right. Here is my loc, I have no idea how I got here.
Kithkin: Thank you bitch I will be right there. You want to disobey Celbin and
show him you only want to be my dirty little whore like you deserve to be don't
you my @#%$ little bitch?
Me: Yes Master, I want Celbin to sell me to you so he will not get hurt and so I
want to disobey him and do what you tell me because it will hurt him less to
sell me to you so you will be my Master.
He found his way there and somehow was able to target me to invite me to group
and was able to gate me out since he is a wizard. So I was able to be with him
and another man. We had more conversations similar to those previously and I
assured him I would do everything I could to get Celbin to sell me to hi, and
when we were done I gated back to the locked room, killed that stupid npc who
attacked me, and camped.
So Celbin loged in at the arranged time and he came to me and we talked.
Me: Hi Master. I spoke with Kithkin about the fight you and him had over me and
I am so sorry he is threatening to tell your guild about you owning me.
Celbin: I thought I told you not to have anything to do with him any more, did
you disobey me?
Me: Yes Master, I am really sorry. He also came here and gated me out to make
love with him and another man and I gated back here afterwards. You don't
deserve a disobedient slave like me Master, it would be best if you would just
punish me by selling me to Kithkin and all your problems would be solved.
Celbin: Is that what you want?
Me: Yes Master, I deserve to have Kithkin own me. He has the time for me and you
don't , and he is determined to own me and I don't want to see you get hurt. It
is the only solution Master.
Celbin: He wants you to be a level 10 slut for him, do you really want that?
Me: I don't want you to get hurt because of me Master, and if that is the price
I have to pay, then yes I do Master.
Celbin: Well, I have been thinking these past few days, and I have made a
decision.
Me: Yes Master, what?
Celbin: I am not having fun anymore. Being blackmailed and threatened and all of
this is just too much stress, I play this game to relax and I can' be relaxed
now.
Me: I am so sorry Master, this is all because of me. Please just sell me to
Kithkin and all your stress will be gone and I will be so happy!
Celbin: I have some friends on a different server who have been asking me to
join them and I have decided to leave this server and join them.
Me: I am sorry Master, I will miss you very much. So this means you will sell me
to Kithkin before you go?
Celbin: No, I won't, although I am very tempted. You bring out such urges in me,
a part of me would love nothing more than to see you ravished and turned into a
level 10 whore for everyone to use, including me. You will always be vulnerable
as long as you have men who have power over you. I bought you to protect you and
see that you become a respectable Lady, at least when you are not with me. I
have come up with a different plan that I think will solve all these problems.
Me: What plan Master?
Celbin: I am going to give you to your Goddess Erolissi. You will obey her and
do what you feel in your heart she wants you to do and serve her as a respectul
Lady, not as a whore. Only me or one of my alts can take you back from your
goddess, and make you a slave to mortals again, and you cannot willingly take
another mortal Master or accept any punishments until I do so. I want you to
get flaged for all zones, and stop being a whore, so when I come back, I will be
proud to stand next to you as a member of my guild as an equal and not be
ashamed of you. Is that allowable under your vows?
Me: Yes Master, I think so. You bought me and I have to do what you tell me, it
is like you are going on a long vacation and are just telling me how you want me
to keep your house in order till you get back and will give me new orders then.
Celbin: Yes that is a good analogy. If you understand exactly my orders and
promise to obey them exactly, then change your trade window to Erolissi.
Me: I just have a few questions before I promise Master. What about Kithkin's
blackmailing you? You want me to remain celibate? That will be very difficult.
What if I fail you?
Celbin: I am leaving, he can say whatever he wants, it just does not matter any
more. No, you don't have to be celibate, Lady's make love too, they just are not
whores with everyone. And if I come back and see you are still being a whore
with everyone, then I just might have to sell you to Kithkin or someone even
worse. I don't want to do that, I want you to make me proud of you, OK?
Me: Yes Master, in that case, yes, I promise to obey your commands, I now belong
to my Goddess Erolissi and only you can take me back from Her and make me a
slave to mortals again. I can not have another Master until you or your alts
still on this server sell me. Is my trade window acceptable?
Celbin: Change it to something like this: " I am owned by my Goddess Erolissi,
to serve her with dignity and respect. Only my Master who gave me to Her can
make me a slave again to mortals when he returns if he finds I am a failure. .
Me: Yes Master!
Celbin: I am not your Master, and I don't want you calling me that when we make
love anymore!
Me: Yes, M'lord!
So we made love in that room with that annoying npc popping and it was as equals
and I did not call him Master.
And when we finished he got up, he said:
Celbin: Let me open the door for you My Lady, your new life awaits you!
The End ( I hope....)
Part 29. The years fly by. (Written December 26, 2004) Well, that happened 2 years ago.
Kithkin was not happy about Celbin's solution and since I would not break my promise to Celbin, Kithkin had no ability to blackmail Celbin any longer, and never carried through on his threat.
I joined a guild called Primordial Fury as the best way to get flags in following Celbin's orders. They were well aware of all that transpired with my role play story, but they did not care about that, only my abilities to perform well on raids. It was not a family guild, it was a raiding guild, and as long as you could pay attention and do what was needed and not disrupt things with useless banter, then they did not care what you did for other entertainment privately. However, they really wanted that cleric on my account more than an ench, so with regard to my guild, she became my main. She worships Innoruuk, and wants nothing to do with Love. But I did keep my promises to Celbin, for the most part, I have gotten flaged for most zones, I am Time flaged, but still need a few more. Most men have forgotten about me , those that knew have left the game and newer players don't know, and I certainly don't tell them unless they ask. So I have been pretty much a Lady all this time, with just an occasional laps with Kithkin or one of the older players who log in from time to time who still remembers me.
The new expansion Omens of War came out, and the level cap was raised to level 70 which I got within a month, and have about 550 aa's and about the same on that evil cleric also on my account.
I really am scared that the world is coming to an end. I travel through all the old zones, Commonlands, Dread lands, sol b, Karana,and I am the only person there. No new characters are being born and if they are, there is nobody for them to group with anymore. Only us old players are left at the top, and I see too few replacements. I suppose things have all turned out for the best and my story had a happy ending thanks to Celbin. He came back a few times to visit me,
but he never thought I was a failure and never made me a slave again. I wonder what would have happened if he had sold me to Kithkin, what I would be doing now. At times I miss the security of having a Master who cares about me, who wants to be with me and have fun playing with me. And as the end of the world comes closer I feel that loss even more, I want to bring it back and give it life again, as all around me everything is dying.. I sometimes wish Celbin would
come back and make me a slave again and sell me, and my story could begin again and perhaps just hold off the approaching darkness for a little while longer.
Lillywhite
April 7, 2005
Well the world is coming to an end. The people on the Mithaniel Marr universe are being moved to an alternate universe named Sayrn, simiilar to our own but different, like on the show "Sliders".
Kithkin sent me a tell the other day telling me that my Goddess here was dying, and that I would have to make new
vows on the new server to the Erolissi who resides there and does not know me. He told me that I needed to correct the mistakes I made in my vows in the old world so that I would be a real slave again and always have a Master. He said a
group of masters would be better than just one, so they could all share the work to see that would see that I remained a slave and could never have the case where a master stoped playing and I was without one, and where the masters could vote to add replacements and make sure I was supervised all the time. I thought about it and decided that it was a reasonable idea. So I made a promise to him, which I probably should not have done, but I was feeling sad and nostalgic and this was a chance for him to have me be the slave he always wanted me to be. I promised him I would agree to his idea, and that I would be free and need to make new slave vows when my goddess on Mithaniel Marr died, and if he could organize 7 men to be my new masters and they would all gather together with me to accept my new slave vows so I will never be able to be free again. So the next day he told me he was going to have me join a slave channel and I that I had to have it on autojoin and I agreed to that. He then told me the name for it that he had decided he liked best: fuckingbitch:Lillywhite. Well, I have been called worse names, and it did capture what he wanted me to be. So I joined it and after I made love with any men I told them to contact Kithkin to get the name of the slave channel he controled, if they wanted to join the channel. I told Kithkin that since it was his idea, if he wanted it to work, he would have to be in control and organize all the Masters in it and coordinate my activities with them. I like the idea...if he wants me to be a slave again, I will make him work and see if he is able to force me on my promise to return to being a slave again for him. What will happen?
May 2, 2005
Well, I have been sending Kithkin men for a few weeks now and he has been giving them the name of the slave channel. There are already 5 in the channel who seem to be on alot, will he be able to find 2 more? What will happen..... ??? I have to say I am a bit nervious, I have joined ton and I am hoping they accept me as a full member. It is a really good guild and I like them alot. What if Kithkin succeeds and I have to leave because of my promise to him? Or what if they find out about my past and being a slave and all, will they still want me or kick me out?
June 2005
Well, I got the bad news, TON voted me out. I am really sad, they would not tell me why. I fear some people found out about me being a slave and that is why. I really tried alot , I think it might have been due to me helping somone on his epic in guild when the guild leader was there. We were in pow, not my best zone, and I kept getting lost and dying as we moved and I kept floating away. And I was getting an unusualy amount of men who wanted to chat with me and making apointments with them for later that night. In any case I was very sad. They probably thought I was not a good ench. We never wiped though, and I mezed and slowed when needed. The slave channel had pretty much ended by then. Two left the server, and 2 decided they liked me too much to treat me like a slave and so they left. I had to stop playing for about 2 weeks, my sone graduated HS and my daughter 8th grade. There were parties and claening i had to do, and also my daughter had rehearslas for ballet recital, and then 2 performances. Naturally I had to help behind the stage changing the girl's costumes and it was a lot of work that kept me from eq. , so I only got to watch when my daughter was on. She is getting pretty good.
I started a new eq char, a beastlord. Nobody will know about her, and there will be no link to me, so she at least will be able to join a guild if I can't find one.
July 2005
Well we are going on vacation July 12 -23 to Canada. I have been playing again since eqwindows stoped working and I can't pl my beastlord with my son's cleric. Also I wanted to find a guild now and maybe apply so I would be all set when I get back. I am just scared I will waste all that time again and then get rejected when they find out about my slave past. Nobody is in the slave channel and kithkin has not been on line in a few weeks. I don't think Kithkin will ever get the required 7 or more men to be my masters in his channel and am starting to think I will be free permanently, and I will not have to worry about honoring my promise to become a slave again. I don't really want to play my cleric and am looking for a guild who needs ench's so bad they will accept even a slave like me! I really don't understand why a guild would not want me as their slave, I am obedient and reliable and fun and creative and I try hard to please. I am just scared if I tell them all about me, it will turn them off, but then if I don't say anything , I am just scared they will find out and think I was trying to hide something. Maybe I should try just giving them this link and say, " This is what I am, if you want me great, if not, tell me now and save us both a lot of wasted time and effort. " But I am scared to do that too...I really don't know what to do, but I need a guild to keep playing, I don't have the motivation to play with no long term goals, and since Kithkin's idea has failed so far, I won't even be able to be a slave again, so I need a guild that does not care about my past or present, as long as I do a good job as an ench on raids. I'll have to decide soon, or after I get back from our vacation.
July 23, 2005
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> Well, we just got back, vacation is over and unpacking is done. Temperature here in NJ was 98 degrees F! After the nice cool weather in Edmonton, Calgary, Banff, Jasper and Toronto, it is very uncomfortable out.
Before I left I decided to apply to Altered Vision and the factor that made up my mind to link my story there in my application, was when I read one of the questions on their applicationthat asked something like this: "If you had to sleep with the guild leader or leave the guild, what would you do? " Well my thought was that was right up my alley and it might be a good guild for me, one that will not be prudish and reject me outright because of my.....umm…adventures. A friend of mine in AV told me the day I left that they might reject me because some members feel that I would bring to much drama and unwanted attention to their guild. I also looked over the membership roster this morning and it looks like a who's who of mmdn people. I did not realize how many there were from mmdn in it! So I think my chances are pretty slim, but I have not gotten any rejection notices in my email telling me, "Thanks but no thanks", so I plan to log in for the raid tonight and see what happens.
I was thinking a lot during my vacation on what my options were, after trying 7 months trying to get in a guild, and feeling I am just wasting time trying them out and raiding, nobody wants me once they find out about my past. I felt very uncertain, insecure and frustrated as I thought about my prospects for advancement and felt very unwanted and unloved. Among my other prayers for world peace, thanks for everything we have, etc, I even added a small prayer to God for a little tiny miracle to help me get accepted where I would be appreciated and wanted and needed again in Everquest. Well, I figured it could not hurt, in any case, and I feel really a bit foolish actually, adding a prayer for something so unimportant to the world as a game. People do it I guess, pray for their sports team to win, pray to win the lotto, and I only did it just that once while I feeling sorry for myself and not since.
>
So I had to laugh when got back and checked my email, and saw this one from Kithkin: "
>From:
>To: lillywhiteeq@hotmail.com
>Subject: The True Story of Lillywhite
>Date: Thu, 21 Jul 2005 10:50:45 -0400
>
My sweet whore
I hope your vacation has you all rested. youll have to tell me if it was good or not.. i have some news for you, there have been several men contacting me about your whereabout and have shown interest in your story.. i am interveiwing them now conserning being masters for you and helping you learn how to be a slave that you needed to be from the first day you stated your vows.. you may be in for a surprize when you get back home.. i assume when you get back there will be more asking about you, as you being on line effects how im contacted about you.. The few I have spoken to have shown a willingness to fully embrace what you are and agree with my veiws on you... i think that this is a new begining for you and will only grow brighter for you... I wait for your return... your loving master..Kithkin"
So I thought when I read this, " So this is my miracle where I will be accepted and appreciated? God either works in mysterious ways or has a strange sense of humor!"
I am not too worried about this post helping him make me a slave again, he has told me things like this for months and nothing ever happens so I plan to continue trying to join a guild and even if this story does help him a little, I still think he will fail and I will stay free. And even if he did succeed, I have been thinking about how to correct the mistakes in the vows that I made last time, so there should be less problems, it is not going to be forever this time, and there will be a way out to end it.
July 24
Well, surprisingly AV admitted me and I raided Time with them last night. So that presented me with a problem as to how to deal with my answer to their question on their application that I would sleep with the guild leader and the whole guild. Ramm told me I should not sleep with the guild leader but implied that the rest of the guild was OK. So I used this as my role play opportunity and told Ramm it would be very rude and improper for me to sleep with the rest of the guild unless I had slept with the guild leader first. I did not want to disturb the guild leader Hyppon during the early part of the raid when he would be busy with other things, and I waited for a good opportunity to discuss it with him. This came when Hyppon said in gu over something inconsequential, " I hate you Ramm!". So I sent Hyppon a tell something like, " You should hate him, he said I can't sleep with you! " And he replied that I could sleep with him anytime and it would not affect him at all. So I continued and told him what I told Ramm, that it would be socially improper for me to sleep with anyone in the guild until I had slept with the guild leader, and then he replied, " That is fair."
So that resolves the issue of my answer to the guild's application question of me being the guild whore in a nice role play way by leaving the decision totally up to the guild leader as to what he thinks best for his guild. If he never sleeps with me then I will never sleep with anyone in AV. However, there is still the rest of the server...
July 27
Several people after reading my story have asked me in game why I made the promise to Kithkin to be a slave again. I tried to explain it there but it is sort of complicated and I did not do a good job, so i told them I would write it here in better form.
The first factor is that long ago, when my then Master Celbin and Kithkin were friends, Celbin made a promise to Kithkin that Kithkin would be my next Master. Celbin had also promised me that he would never sell me, and kept that promise to me by giving me to Erollissi (Mithaniel Marr) until his return. However he broke his promise to Kithkin because he felt Kithkin would hurt me. Kithkin felt betrayed by Celbin, and this cause great hatred between them, leading to Kithkin’s blackmail attempt against Celbin, and I feel that was a large factor in Celbin’s decision to leave this server. I have always felt guilty I was responsible for that promise being broken, all the hate that followed and the hurt and harm it caused. By fulfilling Celbin’s promise, I was hoping to correct that wrong and perhaps feel less guilty.
The second factor was that Kithkin has been so persistent over the years in contacting me almost every day to say hi to me and see how I am doing. Nobody else has had such determination and perseverance and I felt that I could not dash all his hopes. People always need hope that they have a chance they can achieve their goals, and I made this promise to reward his efforts and keep that hope alive, and perhaps keep the game exciting for him, and me, a little longer so he would keep playing.
The third reason was that his 2 ideas were really good. His first idea was that my slave vow “to be a slave FOREVER” would be ending when my Goddess I made the vow to and the whole universe of Mithaniel Marr ended. There could have been other possible ideas he could have told me such as, “ There is only one goddess Erolissi and she exists on all planes
simultaneously and your vow carries over to Saryrn “. I felt his idea was better for 2 reasons. First, we know the universes (servers) are different. On some servers Sleeper still sleeps, on others he has been set free, and on one, killed. I believe it is more reasonable that each universe (server) has their own god, with different memories and knowledge specific to that server. My goddess Erolissi should have different recollection of when Sleeper was killed on Mithanile Marr than memories Erollissi on Saryrn had on the fate of sleeper there. Second, his idea also offered both of us a second chance. For Kithkin, he would have the chance to become my Master and thus get around the limbo that Celbin left me in, while I had the chance to be free of my vows and not a slave at all
>any more! One of my friends asking me about my promise in game asked me why I did not just say something like, “ OK, thanks Kithkin, my goddess is dead and I am free, I never want to be a slave again, it has only caused me problems, is still causing me problems and I am so happy it is over with!” But I felt that would not work out well for logical role play, the Gods of Saryrn know of the disaster that befell their counterparts on Mithaniel Marr, and will expect the worshipers from MM to be praying to them now and paying them similar homage. How would I explain to Erolyssi in my prayers here on Saryrn why I offered my whole self as a slave on MM but not to Her here on Saryrn? I could not do so, She would be mad and my lack of conviction, and my double standard. Therefore, to my new Goddess here my daily prayers look something like this: “ Oh Erolissi, I await the Masters you will send to me who will speak with your voice and command me following your will as to how best I may serve your goals for me.” So the effect of my present role play is that I still offer myself still to my Goddess as slave in my prayers, and I am just waiting for her signal when She wants to accept my offer.
His second idea was that I could correct my mistakes.
Things in really got messed up in my story, things changed that I could not anticipate. It made the story interesting, but I was really worried at times because events were outside my control. Knowing what I do now, I would do a better job and avoid the problems that I would still have been stuck with if not for his idea. If he can ever complete the quest to find 7 masters for me, it would be fun for me fixing them and seeing how they work.
The fourth reason I made the promise is that I liked being a slave, it was fun and challenging, and I met many people and made many friends, and I did not want to let that go forever, and never be able to go back. With the right corrections to my vows, it would be fun again, at least for a while. I plan for my my new vows not to be “FOREVER” and likely last only a few months, so making a promise that would be only a minor inconvenience that was unlikely to even happen in the first place was not that difficult.
The fifth reason if I made the choice to be free forever without making this promise, it would be permanent, my role play story would end, there would be no chance for …uuuummmmm…a sequil! I hate it when stories end, it is like death, I hate death too. I made the promise because I wanted to keep the door open, the story alive, I gave him a quest I felt he would be unlikely to achieve, yet possible. I do not think he will succeed, and that my freedom will be in effect permanent as he continues to fail. And so I am beginning to think of myself as free already and applying to guilds. So I was very comfortable making a promise I did not feel I would really ever have to keep.
For all of these reasons, I made the promise to Kithkin to become a slave again if 7 masters want to promise to share the work of making sure that I become and stay a slave again. And because I know it is a lot of work, I am confident I have little to worry about.
JULY 30, 2005
Well Kithkin was on line last night and told me he had taken a short vacation, and instruced me to polish my new slave vows up. So I have been thinking about them and these are the preliminary ideas I have been working on to fix the mistakes i made last time:
Part 30: The Slave Game.
My vows are like the rules that define “The Slave Game”. Under my old vows, my master was often too occupied playing the normal game than to play the slave game with me. My original idea was to find Love with my Master, to be together and help each other. so the first problems was it was impossible to be with my master, and in some cases I rarely saw him. You can’t play a game by your self, there is no challenge and no fun. My new vows require at least 7 masters, which s at least one for each day of the week. Working as a team, each can participate in both the normal game activities and coordinate time for the slave game activities. Also, as you recall, Kithkin had told me and Celbin that his favourite master of mine was the one known as Toymaster. I felt that it would be very difficult for Kithkin to have to convince six or more other Masters to go along with any such plans for me and the more Masters I have the better protection I will have against any future Toymaster from taking control of me. Second, a game needs to have goals and ways for both parties to win or loose. My first vows did not have a way for my master to loose, and I had nothing to win except staying the same, I could only loose, and the game would go on forever making it so at some point I would. My new vows will result in my permanent freedom from slavery if my Masters loose. My masters will not be able to sit back and do nothing and expect to keep me, they will have to work to keep me from becoming free and winning. Since I enforce my vows on myself, I loose if I decide to break them in order to go free, in effect, if I quit the slave game. My Goddess would not be happy with me and so that will never happen, and I will never quit, unless I get sick in real life or die. Also, I like to win and always do my best to do so. Third, my old vows gave too much power to my Master. Basically, any small disobedience could be punished by killing me till I was level 1 again. This was because in making my original vows I assumed a loving and trusting relationship with my master, he would have that power but love me too much to ever use it and I would trust him not to. I never envisioned that someday a necromancer would have the ability to take that exp and make valuable gems, so that I became valuable to be used to make them and thendiscarded, or having a master order me to sit in POK and be a kei bot making money for him every night. My new vows limit the power of my Masters to punish me harshly for minor things, or have me doing boring normal game activities excessively.
With these goals in mind, I began writing my new vows for my Goddess Erolissi on Saryrn:
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>Prayer: Oh Erolissi, I submit myself to your will, I pray that you guide me in spreading your love through Norath as follows:
1) I will be your slave and have at least 7 Masters who will be your voice and instruct me of your will for me. I will keep a hot key of all Masters. One Master will be Lead Master who is in charge of recruiting and interviewing new Masters, calling for rule votes and implementing any disciplinary action decided upon by my Masters. A lead master will appoint a new lead master of his choice when he wishes to step down, or by 2/3 vote of all masters a new one can be appointed if he vanishes for more than 1 month or one can be replace if they are unhappy with him. All Masters get one vote. New Masters
are added by 2/3 vote of all Masters. Masters may not sell their position as Master, and may resign at any time. Masters may not be removed as masters by vote of the other masters.
2)My masters will establish a slave channel for me where all can communicate with me and may change the name anytime by either the Lead Master’s decision or majority vote if the other masters don’t like the name. I will not complain if they make other channels for their private discussions to which I do not have access.
3)Each Master must group with me at least 1 times a real life
calendar week for each week I am on line during a month for at least 2 hours each time. I will keep track of attendance on a hot key that I can list for any Master upon request. I will notify my Masters at the end of each month if the number of active masters was less than 7 so they can recruit enough the next month. If there is still under 7 active masters at the end of the second month, it will be the signal from my Goddess that She no longer feels I need to be a slave and She wants me to be free forever. If any single master is inactive for 2 months or quits, I will remove that Master from my hotkey containing the list of my masters and inform the Lead Master. While the Masters can add new masters, it is my decision alone when they are removed for becoming
inactive, and I can not be punished for doing so. Once a Master has been removed they can not become a master again.
4)I will obey my Masters commands unless it will hurt someone else, or if it is banable or in violation of any SOE rules. There are 2 types of commands from my masters: first those given to me by individual masters and second formal rules. Rules are passed by 2/3 vote of all Masters, must be discussed in the slave channel where I can participate and they must contain a clear punishment for me if I break them. I will maintain hotkeys for all rules and make sure any new masters are aware of them.
5)Rule punishments are limited as follows: The maximum punishment is death/sacrifice until my level changes, and there can only be one rule with this punishment. No other rule may have more than 3 unrezed deaths/sacrifice as punishment. Only two rules may have the punishment of 3 unrezed deaths/sacrifice. Only three rules may have 2 unrezed deaths/sacrifice. Any number of rules may have 1
death/sacrifice. Punishment can not include destruction of items or spell book spells, and I can not be punished with experience loss for not doing so if ordered. I can only be punished with experience loss for breaking rules.
6)My Masters may give me rules to control my money, my form, my last name, my behaviour and speech, my friends list, my bind spot, what items I keep in my bank or on my body, what I wear, my membership in any guild, AA's or exp designation, and any other aspect of Everquest that I have control over that is not addressed in my other vows. My masters will control what my trade window says, except that it must always say that I am a slave and at least contain the name of my Lead master.
7)I will answer all questions from my masters honestly if I know the answer unless it will hurt someone else, violate a confidence, or involves real life.
8 ) I will always log in first before any alternates. My Masters will decide when I am allowed to log in any alternates and have a rule to punish me if I do so without permission.
9)Each new Master will make a vow that they will unselfishly teach me to learn to follow and practice the teachings of Erolissi as she instructs them in their hearts. Erolissi does not want me to be alone farming items for their benefit, power-leveling thier alts, or playing the normal everquest game to obtain items or money for my Master’s advancement in the normal game, and my masters promise they will never let this occur. Normal grouping with my masters and helping them with their normal quests is acceptable and loving.
10)I may add vows or modify the above vows as the game changes only after discussion and approval by 2/3 vote of all active Masters.
There are cooincidentially 10 vows, just like the 10 commandments. So I made hot keys for these vows for Kithkin, and listed them for him in the slave channel and he made some comments that I included above. My first draft did not allow my masters to access my money, change my form, my guild or control my last name. He wanted those included in my vows. Somewhat reluctantly, I agreed, since I saw no real harm. Before promising to follow these vows I will take all money and put in on an alt and leave noithing in shared file, so any mony I make while a slave will belong to my masters and easy to track and account for. I think my masters will let me stay in whatevr guild I am in as my other masters always did under my old vows, and if not I can just rejoin when my slavery is over and I win and everything goes back to normal, so I did not argue that. Then for my last name and form, I won't allow anything that would get me banned so that is fine and most people prefer me the way I look now so I don't see them changing that often or for very long. So I agreed to his suggestions and put them in. He or my other masters might have other changes to suggest too, and so theyse vows will probably change again if he ever gets enough people to want to be my masters. I really don't think he will, these vows are complicated and will require any masters do think and do a lot of work to keep me a slave in order to prevent me from escaping. And who would really want to go through all that trouble just to keep me being a slave? So I am not worried I will ever have to follow these vows, but I have prepared and polished them like he told me to do, just in case.
Lillywhite
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