I'm way beyond del toro. U know what is fucked up ... this is kinda cultural appropriation by LG... but u know what maybe she is feelin that death echo too. Maybe she's one of my deth echos. Lilith be grabbin for ya..

I have had waking nightmares dreams where I'm on the ground and someone is screaming 'hard' as in "push hard" and they are playing vintage music to see if my ECG responds (paramedics will sometimes load up a song on a phone to try and get ppls brains stimulated) except my reality is so fucked up IDK If I died on the floor in SLC due to a knife wound or died in the VA hospital psychward due to dehydration, or managed to kill myself in the future and I've only caught up to that in snippets.

I don't think LG did a super fuckin gr8 job at it butt she tried with this one.

The nature of life is suffering. There is no good that comes from 'life'. It is a penance. Stasis is best. Wrap urself up in a warm blanket with some wine and meds and sleep it off. ----

Also check this out.

"Borderline Personality Disorder is the most painful". That shit right there ... it is fucking terrible when it's accute. And "mindfulness and meditation" will not control it... the only thing you can do is avoid getting into a crisis state. And I have zero control over my life, and will never have, because I'm an accute case of very dangerous crazy and the moral thing to do is chill tf out in a dark quiet place under a weighted blanket.



This dude blows some sunshine up pplz asses because he doesn't want them to give up and wants their business, butt yes it can go into "remission". It never gets better.

Most psychologists and shrinks don't want to have anything to do with someone with BPD and will hang up if u tell them u got it. --- when i start to self harm its too late, I need a pill and then a trip to the psychward to probably get some shots ---



^i have like 30 minute incriments when I can even behave that well

butt ya I think I def have a lot of BPD traits, especially the psycho anger and self harm.