You told me to seek help. I have.
 

I am still seeking help.

I thought I found God. I am not a believer though. I use faith like a tool. It isn't superstition. I know some scripture and I follow it. I have faith in this faith and the intent and guidance of the word.

How do others feel? I feel like I am already dead and I fell, but I am told "she's sent to us for a reason". I don't know if it's the angels or the devils who have received my soul. I feel like God wants my love, he would never demand or force it though. Satan will trade and promise favors. Sometimes I feel like I can spot the angels and devils.

What I do know is that this game and I. We are here for a reason. Even if we are already just dying memories and dreams in a child's suffering mind.

That sounds like a thrilling journey and I wish I had the playtime to join you and relive that experience one last time myself, unfortunately I have responsibilities and barely the time to enjoy an overpop green server these days lol

You should do it, and make a youtube channel or something for folks to follow along as a veteran goes from day 1 to GoD content. I'd check it out.

So this is what its like on the other side of the fence. Not reading, just recognizing the name and moving the fuck on until the next post.

Sorry everyone for the past 7 or 8 years, wont happen again.

Until I get drunk and get into p99 again anyways

I’m just curious what kind of drugs you’re doing?

This is what happens when I get super clean and shut off any and all exogenous chemicals from entering my blood stream.
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Recently it's been ensure. Bran. And 4mg of [redacted]. Tbh I don't believe everything should be privy.

Move this to off-topic and try out some SSRIs, go see a doctor/telehealth during this pandemic . It will do wonders for you.

I got a drawer full of different SSRIs to pick and choose from.

I don't endorse drug use or abuse. It's always better to weave in as many nonpharmacalogic options as possible, simultaneously. Along with healthy eating. Spiritual and intellectual growth. Acceptance. Gratitude and love. For all of God's creation.

One thing SSRIs can do for me is to allow me to stay up and put long sleepless hours in front of EQ. I never thought of it this way.

I have pretty severe PTSD and anxiety disorder which the SSRIs do not jive with. I should probably acknowledge that I need to be able to face those issues rather than just ameliorating myself with heavy sedation.

God makes the path of challenges and learning , satan will hold your hand and take u to where masterbating netflix watching catwalkers live