so I thought about telling my story to a charity that specializes in suicidal situations like mine considering their goal is prevention. this was their responses so far;
1st Response:
"It seems that life is very difficult for you at the moment and
you say that you have no interest in continuing your life.
When you say that every day you wake up wishing you hadn't, do
you feel that you really do want to die?"
2nd Response:
"It must indeed be very stressful, being unemployed together with the added burden of the
imminent renewal of your lease.
Being willing and capable of working hard is a positive attribute to have and hopefully in
time will enable you to obtain a satisfactory position.
Have you found writing details of your life and the situation you find yourself in of any
benefit to you? Often sharing your inner most thoughts with another may enable one to see
things more clearly.
We continue to offer you support as long as you find it helps."
my conclusion is that project1999 RNF handles this better than the "professionals."
i'm still going to shoot myself once I get my eviction notice. i'm going to open my door and make sure that when I shoot myself in the head, my brains will splatter across the eviction notice stapled to the door while my body bleeds out all over their carpet.
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