I played P99 for a solid 8-9 months until earlier this year. I relate to a lot of what you said.
I originally played when I was 13, and the last few years of my life were extremely stressful as my business slowly slid downhill and eventually imploded. I was drinking heavily and playing EQ every day as a way to feel happiness and escape the stress, and logging in for me also does bring back all the positive feelings I had associated with EQ from when I was a child.
I quit a few months ago because EQ had turned into a legitimate addiction. I was logged in every spare minute I had in the day, and found myself neglecting my gf and other responsibilities to do so.
From getting to know people IG during that time, I’d say a large percentage of people on this server play for similar reasons.
I wish you the best with whatever you’re struggling with, nothing lasts forever, not even the shitty periods in life.
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