So I still haven't written my digital journal of this but I did spend a good deal of time handwriting.
As an experiment today I squoze my fists into the tightest ball I could.
I could only keep it up about 12 seconds. Didn't leave fingernail marks couldn't really feel a tight fist and was struggling to breath, chest felt kinda weak. Arms became weak. Hard to hold up. And strength completely failed.
I'm wondering. Is it possible at the most basic level are my muscles just not able to store energy anymore? Like the batteries only charging 2% vs like a solid 80%
For reference I used to be able to endlessly hang from a pull-up bar. And also hold a rifle out in front of me arms straight palms down out without too much effort longer than like 15 minutes. I had ~1000 calories really healthy veg and food 3 weeks. Even protiens, plus vitamins and supplements to help digest protiens, like malic acid.
What the fuck is wrong.
Deep breaths.
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