I think something inside you is telling you that your team did bad on this day, and something else in you is looking for good reason or excuses for the behavier of your team that day.
You hyped each other so hardcore for the past years and storming the capitoal was your orgasm.
It was like fingering a sexy women in your dream but when you woke up your finger smells like poo.
You wanted to make history but you wasnt expecting to stay on the bad guys side, the loser side right?
Just accept the lose and move on with your life. But I doubt its possible for someone like you because your team needs you right Soldier? It must have been a conspircy. Antifa hired actors to make your team look bad.
Are you so deep in the rabbit butthole that it smells like carrots already?
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