found my old forum account info out but my loginserver doesnt exist anymore?

[STP420]

Not sure whats gong on but maybe I can get some help here. I am trying to play on an old account that I for sure had a loginserver account on. I tried going over to eqemulator to find something out but my forum account wasnt the same over there? cant remember that account and they wont let me search members list unless im logged in.

I have read that they dont delete login accounts here so why is mine gone?