DE Cleric Lore

[deb4te]

Alright so I'm posting this here in hope that someone can make sense of this for me. I apologize if this isn't the place.

My character's story is really important to me and I really like to immerse myself in his potential philosophies and values. With that said, I currently play a 51 DE CLR on blue.

If I could have picked agnostic, I would have, but since I'm a cleric, we're forced to pick Innoruuk, the PRINCE OF HATE. HATE.

So like, why would I heal someone if I hate everyone? I keep trying to come up with a clever lore explanation but I can't. Can anyone shed some perspective on potential philosophies for clerics of innoruuk? I need something to base a story for my character off, but being a healer who hates everyone just isn't clicking with me, and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't considering re-rolling as a result (its already turning me into an altoholic). It's insane, I know, but like I said this stuff is important to me.

Thanks for reading <3