Got up to play EQ today.

[magnetaress]

Took my meds and started to feel like shit. Too numb and dizzy to play.

Butt u know what. Imm keep on keeping on. Maybe I will feel up to playing later.

[Trexller]

the ads? really bot?

lol

this is like watching a washing machine try to cook food

[magnetaress]

It's probably better to feel this way tho.

Probably shouldn't discuss the exact mix don't want to encourage anyone to try them.

Didn't improve all day either...

[Swish]

You're not part Scottish are you? The drug cocktail scene never dies there.

[Pulgasari]

Originally Posted by magnetaress [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

It's probably better to feel this way tho.

Probably shouldn't discuss the exact mix don't want to encourage anyone to try them.

Didn't improve all day either...

sigh do I really have to give you a cheat code? noob

if it doesn't work out ask them for an atypical (2nd gen)

[magnetaress]

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Trigger Warning! 9/11

 

sigh do I really have to give you a cheat code? noob

if it doesn't work out ask them for an atypical (2nd gen)

U should have triggere warning this

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I'm way beyond del toro. U know what is fucked up ... this is kinda cultural appropriation by LG... but u know what maybe she is feelin that death echo too. Maybe she's one of my deth echos. Lilith be grabbin for ya..

I have had waking nightmares dreams where I'm on the ground and someone is screaming 'hard' as in "push hard" and they are playing vintage music to see if my ECG responds (paramedics will sometimes load up a song on a phone to try and get ppls brains stimulated) except my reality is so fucked up IDK If I died on the floor in SLC due to a knife wound or died in the VA hospital psychward due to dehydration, or managed to kill myself in the future and I've only caught up to that in snippets.

I don't think LG did a super fuckin gr8 job at it butt she tried with this one.

The nature of life is suffering. There is no good that comes from 'life'. It is a penance. Stasis is best. Wrap urself up in a warm blanket with some wine and meds and sleep it off. ----

Also check this out.

"Borderline Personality Disorder is the most painful". That shit right there ... it is fucking terrible when it's accute. And "mindfulness and meditation" will not control it... the only thing you can do is avoid getting into a crisis state. And I have zero control over my life, and will never have, because I'm an accute case of very dangerous crazy and the moral thing to do is chill tf out in a dark quiet place under a weighted blanket.



This dude blows some sunshine up pplz asses because he doesn't want them to give up and wants their business, butt yes it can go into "remission". It never gets better.

Most psychologists and shrinks don't want to have anything to do with someone with BPD and will hang up if u tell them u got it. --- when i start to self harm its too late, I need a pill and then a trip to the psychward to probably get some shots ---



^i have like 30 minute incriments when I can even behave that well

butt ya I think I def have a lot of BPD traits, especially the psycho anger and self harm.

Originally Posted by Pulgasari [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

sigh do I really have to give you a cheat code? noob

if it doesn't work out ask them for an atypical (2nd gen)

I tried several... like Vilazadone made my symptoms very acute and unmanageable probably indirectly lead to the most recent 911 ---- GUY was smart for proscribing it off the checklist for 'emotional constriction might help', bUtT I def have some serious trauma and shit and PTSD and my amgdyla is super fckn small. [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Like I can just break and have a psychotic episode without warning or any 'feelings or thoughts' ... like i can be standing there in a heightened emotional state and 'heightened emotional state' is all the warning i get... i don't think about it it just happens. Then I need to go to the ER to get my head checked out and a catscan and not to tell them I was playing football because A. that is a lie. B. i'm prob needin shots

it fuckin sucks my life is 100% disrupted

thx for the support guys i know this isn't the "right foruam for it butt" i feel comfortable shit posting about it here.

Seven controlled efficacy trials were conducted of vilazodone for treatment of major depressive disorder (MDD).[13] Five of these trials showed no significant influence of vilazodone over placebo on depressive symptoms.[13] In the remaining two trials, small but significant advantages of vilazodone over placebo were found.[13] According to these two eight-week trials in adults, vilazodone has an antidepressant response after one week of treatment.[14] After eight weeks it resulted in a 13% greater response than placebo.[14] Remission rates, however, were not significantly different versus placebo.[14]

According to the US Food and Drug Administration (FDA) staff in 2011, "it is unknown whether vilazodone has any advantages compared to other drugs in the antidepressant class."[15] A 2019 review stated that "present studies do not suggest the superiority of vilazodone compared with other antidepressants."[16]

Development of vilazodone for generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) has been stopped as of 2017.[17] While there is tentative evidence of a small benefit in GAD, there is a high rate of side effects.[18]

In otherwords start diagnosing ppl correctly (with PTSD and Anxiety) and stop proscribing shit that will make someone suicidal/dangerously unstable go completely apeshit lol.

[magnetaress]

P.s. I did manage liek 3rs of v interrupted play today b4 pain scared me 😨

[Trexller]

So can you like better accomodate yourself?

Like with a 42" tv at the foot of your bed, a wireless keyboard/mouse and windows scaling set at 300%

[Botten]

Plenty of rest, some water and positive thinking.

Ask for help from a loved one.

Schedule a visit to you primary or specialist.

Don't dwell on anything and don't research your symptoms (then act on them).

Enjoy a warm shower.

Get a heating pad with an automatic shut off and apply to painful areas or even to chest for anxiety.

Find comfort with a pet.

And who wouldn't I be if I didn't say this. Stay away from cult like fictional reading.

[magnetaress]

Originally Posted by Trexller [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

So can you like better accomodate yourself?

Like with a 42" tv at the foot of your bed, a wireless keyboard/mouse and windows scaling set at 300%

I really need to just bite the bullet and do this.