Acid trip story thread

[Knuckle]

(this is from january 2006)
This is the only trip Ive kept in my head, its been bothering me so I'm writing it down here as much for others as myself. So here I go.

Dose: 10x extract Salvia Divinorum one large rip in a water bong with regular lighter done back in mid January.



My memories a little fuzzy of what was going on this night, I do remember we bough some rather expensive shrooms (imo) and we had taken roughly 2 grams each, and my much lighter friends had an alright trip, I got the mind fuck for about 2 hours no visuals really... So heres where the fun starts.
Earlier in the evening we purchased some Salvia, all of us wanted to try it, only one of my friends had tried it and hes kinda a closed mouth but the way he described made my friends really want to try it. I was hesitant to try it becuase of the intense trip reports ive read about it, but by the time the shrooms were wearing off and the great talk I had with one of my other tripping partners I decided I was ready for Salvia......right.

So there's 5 of us huddled around the bong, im on my bed, im basically shaking from anticipation, no one else wants to go first and the friend that had done salvia before called me out becuase I was the one who initiated doing salvia on this night. "Fuck it" I take the bong without thinking any further i close my lips over the rim of the bowl and ignite the salvia, as the smoke rose from the chamber my anticipation grew, I remember saying 'Its Coming Up" as i layed back on my bed and exhaled....
As the exhale ended I held my fingers in front of my face and kept repeeating my litany. The hand encompassed my vision, and the spaces between my fingers became a 'place' I dont know how else to describe it,... Then things got bad.

I was no longer in the room, no longer aware of ANYTHING but my present existence: Im in a dark void, theres no sound, nothing, I sense my self, but there is no physical manifestation of my body, I am not thinking, merely aware of events unfolding, I am in no way at the beginning of this trip aware that I smoked salvia. A terrible feeling of dread unfolds, I suddenly am shown a vivid image of two beings, possibly humans, their not aware of my spirit or whatever I was, they were in a space in my mind, somehow I could view my physical mind, I was given a third person view, and these two creatures were reading something, somehow i knew they were reading about my life, when they came to parts in my life where I made 'bad' decisions they laughed at the foolish things I had done. Something clicked and I realized that I had smoked salvia and I had a "oh no" feeling. Then I realized that they had gotten a real kick out of me trying salvia, I got the impression that they were experiencing astonishment at my stupidity in trying the drug. It was then that it hit me, I WAS DEAD, salvia had some sort of magical 'trigger' that when I smoked it it extuinguished my life becuase making the decision to smoke salvia was one of many ways I could die.. Somehow I go the impression from the creatures that I had made one of the worst decisions ever in how I could die, as if it would alter my afterlife, in a very very bad way... Then things got worse, if they could......

I was now seeing the dorm room, from a third person perspective. But everything was very wrong. First the people in the room looked like my friends, but I suddenly realized they were never really my friend, just spirits that were actors, the whole worlds existance was to provide a play to see the decisions I would make... And these actors, my friends, were just palying their role as my 'friends'...The panic alone from this nearly sent me into hysteria, I actually was somehow coherent enough in my delirium to realize the similarity to the Truman Show... Hidden doors appeared out of the back of the wall, tmy friends began to step into them becuase the final scene in my life had ended, i smoked salvia and I was dead, everything was over. But now my view returned to first person, I screamed "I see you!" I wouldnt let them walk through the wall, but the page was turning, thats the only way to describe it, my entire spectrum of vision, the room was turning as if it was a page, but by speaking the actors realized I had discovered the truth, and they began to try and rush through, i 'moved' toward one of the secret exits they were going through, it 'paused', I could see through the hidden walls different scenes of my life that would of came next, as if they already knew, but they would never be, due to my death..... but then the page turned...

I blinked and I was pointing at someone...who? It was the 5 actors.... I had more reasoning now..... I knew I was in a salvia induced state, my 5 'friends' were just staring at me with their eyes wide, they looked at me as if they were crazy, but they werent saying anything...it was surreal enough that I didn't believe right away that I was back in the room alive.

For a few minutes this delirium continued, my friends finally reassured me that they were real and I was no longer in salvia space. I was still unsure, everything still felt surreal, I was waiting to be condemned to eternal torture or something, I thought that possibly they had tricked me into believing the whole thing had never happened, only to set me up for my final destination after dying.

After a minute I began to recount everything as I realized these really were my friends and roommates again, I was ALIVE! I wasnt dead, I WASNT DEAD! It was such a feeling of relief that I nearly cried, it was the worst thing that ever happened in my life- but it was incredible, I never though such a drug existed. To top it off, I had only tripped for 3 minutes, becuase we didnt have a torch lighter our trips varied from 2-5 minutes, but all equally intense and different. The thought of being in that death trip for 30 minutes apalls me, I count my blessings I held a bic when I sparked the flame and not a torch lighter.

Recapping from my friends watching me, I was laying on my bed saying Oh my God No, over and over. Near the end i stood up with my eyes open pointing past them at the wall and yelled I SEE IT about 10 times or so and then i kinda returned to reality they said, but that I had looked at them as though I didnt know them. I was the only one who didnt laugh duiring the salvia trip, and apparently the only one who wasnt 'aware' he was on salvia untill the end of the trip. whenever they tried to speak on salvia they would laugh uncontrollably....

In conclusion Ive been in two car wrecks, both times the car I was in was totalled and I had no seatbelt on, I overdosed on angel trumpets without even knowing it and woke up tripping in ICU(see my other report), I hit the 4th plataeu and thought I was GOING to die, and I've nearly been expelled from college which I revolve so much of my life around to attain my goals. None of this even comes close to the dread inspiring fear that this trip gave me, to read this trip is to only give you a vague idea of the way it really felt, but the one positive I got out of it, its alot harder to scare me now, coming back from the dead will do that... and hopefully by writing this I relieve some of the lingering feelings this trip inspired. Lady Salvia, you are a bitch.