Confessions of a Rageaholic - Page 6

Straif · #51 08-26-2010, 05:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Hasbinbad [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

That's not an either/or question..

Honestly, as long as you're able to perceive the issue without help, you're really the only one that can help you.

I recommend you snap out of it.

You're perfectly able to decide to change. Anyone who tells you different is probably in therapy or on meds. You need a healthy dose of "fuck people" in your diet, and you'll be all good.

..as far as being angry about shit.. ..there are some non-therapy-style skill building classes (anger management, but shop around first, a lot of them are touchy-feely bullshit) that might be of use to you. I have seen people go through that shit and retain who they are without being all aggro and shit, because they have specific mental tools they can use to mitigate their natural urges.

To be honest with you the "fuck people" mentally is what drove me early on to focus on my personal goals. It worked well, I was literally the type of person to walk around with my fists clenched and my normal facial expression forged into a scowl. At some point I became desensitized, more than likely when people began to give me praise or acknowledgment. I always remained humble and tried to maintain that I had made progress but self-improvement isn't a destination it's a constant process of evolution. Those who stop improving simply decide to.

I've stagnated.

While my stern discipline and gruff demeanor helped me block out all the bullshit, it shunned away a lot of positive stuff as well. I need a balance. I was described a person people didn't find approachable. When I let my guard down and saw the other side I sort of became conflicted with whats right / wrong. In actuality... that's probably my issue right there, not focusing on what truly matters to me. Sort of what you've already said...

If the solution has never been to look in myself. How is it that I expect to find it anywhere else.

Loquan · #52 08-26-2010, 05:51 PM

Not trying to take anything away from you, but you need a fuckin shrink dude[You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

xorbier · #53 08-26-2010, 06:47 PM

Don't forget

Villide · #54 08-26-2010, 07:18 PM

Dude, there are what, 7 billion people on this planet? That means there are tons of assholes. But by and large, they are still a vast minority to all the cool as fuck people you can and should be interacting with every day.

Avoiding real therapy is "macho 101" for most guys, but fuck that shit. Get yourself to a therapist, and work on some of this stuff. Don't say you'll do it tomorrow, or on Monday. Call someone right now, get started RIGHT NOW.

Self-loathing is a somewhat natural part of everyone's makeup in my opinion. But when it becomes what defines you, rather than just that small piece of doubt in your mind, you have to clean that shit up.

Ultimately, you are transposing your dislike of yourself onto the people in the world around you - most of whom either don't give two squirts of moose piss about you, or might find you to be a pretty fucking cool dude. And if they really do hate you because of what they see on the outside...well, they are in the minority and easily dismissed.

Forgive yourself for your shortcomings, don't assume what anyone else thinks of you, and get that therapy brother.

You're only 24 for god's sake, you could be the person you WANT to be by the time you turn 25...no doubt about it.

PhelanKA · #55 08-26-2010, 07:19 PM

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Originally Posted by xorbier [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Don't forget

The suicide jokes are fuckin played out. You don't look witty or funny when you pull em out of your bag of "lulz". You look unoriginal, stupid, and worthy of your own advice.

Fuck off.

Moving on....

After actually reading the OP I have to say that I can identify somewhat in his situation. The only difference is that I never let the negativity around me drag my spirit down or let it produce a chip on my shoulder. A lot of the anger i've had in my life has been a direct result of selfish, small, and narrow minded individuals that infest this world. When I was in my teens I wasn't wise enough to see this and these types of "emotional vampires" tend to gravitate towards those of us with principles and integrity. In my early twenties I finally recognized this and became proactive in eliminating these people from my life. Today I have a wife I love very much because we both know this simple but difficult-to-see truth.

Sometimes I imagine people look at how I speak and act and believe me to be a big fuckin asshole but the thing is that is that I despise these lowlife, wastes of human potential. I will call someone out and tell them that they're worthless. Maybe not with the greatest tact but I just call em how I see it. I've been told you can be too honest but I don't believe it for a second and I think that sort of thinking is the source of a lot of evil in the world. I'm just trying to make up for all the bullshit around me.

In short: Kick the negatively influential things and people in your life to the curb. Surround yourself with likeminded people. Sure it might be lonely at first but the more you work at it the more good people you will find and your life will be blessed for it. Once you're strong in this approach then you can come back to cesspools like the R&F forums and cuss the dumbfucks out and laugh about it all.

You seem to be a good guy, Straif and just looking for answers. I don't think you need professional help or need to stop questioning the bullshit in your life. Keep that perserverence up. It serves you well.

The End.

kenzar · #56 08-26-2010, 07:26 PM

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Originally Posted by PhelanKA [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

The suicide jokes are fuckin played out.

You're fuckin' played out breh.
Enough of this self pity BS, if you are wanting to change, then do it. does it require a thread?

The end.

xorbier · #57 08-26-2010, 07:29 PM

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Originally Posted by PhelanKA [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

The suicide jokes are fuckin played out. You don't look witty or funny when you pull em out of your bag of "lulz". You look unoriginal, stupid, and worthy of your own advice.

Fuck off.

Moving on....

After actually reading the OP I have to say that I can identify somewhat in his situation. The only difference is that I never let the negativity around me drag my spirit down or let it produce a chip on my shoulder. A lot of the anger i've had in my life has been a direct result of selfish, small, and narrow minded individuals that infest this world. When I was in my teens I wasn't wise enough to see this and these types of "emotional vampires" tend to gravitate towards those of us with principles and integrity. In my early twenties I finally recognized this and became proactive in eliminating these people from my life. Today I have a wife I love very much because we both know this simple but difficult-to-see truth.

Sometimes I imagine people look at how I speak and act and believe me to be a big fuckin asshole but the thing is that is that I despise these lowlife, wastes of human potential. I will call someone out and tell them that they're worthless. Maybe not with the greatest tact but I just call em how I see it. I've been told you can be too honest but I don't believe it for a second and I think that sort of thinking is the source of a lot of evil in the world. I'm just trying to make up for all the bullshit around me.

In short: Kick the negatively influential things and people in your life to the curb. Surround yourself with likeminded people. Sure it might be lonely at first but the more you work at it the more good people you will find and your life will be blessed for it. Once you're strong in this approach then you can come back to cesspools like the R&F forums and cuss the dumbfucks out and laugh about it all.

You seem to be a good guy, Straif and just looking for answers. I don't think you need professional help or need to stop questioning the bullshit in your life. Keep that perserverence up. It serves you well.

The End.

I read the first sentence! I deducted you found my picture funny!

kenzar · #58 08-26-2010, 07:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Villide [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Dude, there are what, 7 billion people on this planet? That means there are tons of assholes

7 billion people = 7 billion assholes...unless someone has 2...

Villide · #59 08-26-2010, 07:39 PM

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Originally Posted by kenzar [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

7 billion people = 7 billion assholes...unless someone has 2...

HAHHHAHAAAAAAAAAHAHAAAAA!!! You should go on the road, dude!

PhelanKA · #60 08-26-2010, 07:44 PM

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Originally Posted by kenzar [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

You're fuckin' played out breh.
Enough of this self pity BS, if you are wanting to change, then do it. does it require a thread?

The end.

Being told I'm played out by someone that refers to me as "breh" and is defending jokes about suicide? You really put me in my place there. In thru the nose and out the mouth is my advice you stupid piece of shit. If you need to pick a few crusties outta your schnoz to make it happen, feel free. Just remember it's not food.