The People vs. Nirgon. Charges: Illiteracy, Obstruction of Justice, Cowardice.

[magnetaress]

Originally Posted by Christendom [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Read works by Origen of Alexandria, specifically, Stromateis; he does a fairly good job of reconciling heretical gnosticism with christian gnosticism and primarily summarizes the difference as follows:

The heretical gnostic, if given a situation where the Gnosis of God were somehow separable from understanding the Glory of God's Salvation, which they are not, would choose the former over the latter.

So what this means is that in trying to know of god, we seek & find salvation? Even as heretics?

Why am I a necromancer? Personally.

*self sufficiency
*independence
*less boundaries
*freedom
*to help create other classes

There is something that feels compelling. The liftetap. Shadow magic. Using destruction to feed my life, or the life of those that I love. Am I staying long after I should have passed on? I feel like God wants me here, and I want a safe easy place to reside, so I reside in EQ in my mind, I rest with the dead of Nektulous. They are my allies and care for me, though I do not wish to force them to, I would prefer to ask. Though in asking for the help of the dead, I am bargaining my own life away. My own soul and spirit. Could I destroy myself in this endeavor?

Previously I always found necromancers, and conversely maybe enchanters and shamans to 'hard to play'. I played a cleric. I feel like I have been asked to step away from the roll of the healer, and learn to become a teacher, or just find peace in this life so that I may move on without fear and pain.

[magnetaress]

Originally Posted by Christendom [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

What makes it heretical is the attempt to keep it. Its not yours to keep. Keeping it transgresses greed, and pride. This is why Luke 17:33 reposits John 12:25 by saying

Whoever tries to keep their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life will preserve it.

My only inspiration is to give myself freedom to be lost, lonely, and wander Norrath while I attempt to heal myself of the demon of anger, fear, rage, and control.

I want safety. I want peace. I want comfort. I want ease. Wanting isn't why we are here though. "I want" and "I need" are selfish. I suffered selflessly in self hate attempting to cure myself and purge myself of that which I hated most. The need for vengeance and power and control. I was lost there and I felt no joy for decades. I do feel comfort and rest here though. There was a man with many wants who terrified me and hurt me until I forgave him and while I am still afraid of this man he no longer dominates my fears as I understand his wants and needs as flawed and broken as they are. I am no longer haunted.

I am still trying to understand this, maybe there is no meaning in absolutely everything we do, but we may seek meaning in the meaningless or something. I am willing to endure this hardship in order to move on and seek a new experience. necromancy isn't my 1st choice, but I feel compelled to put my effort into it. I don't feel bad. I don't feel particularly good, it is just safe. Mundane. Simple. And gives me time to think. And process. And engage with others, like you. Here.

[magnetaress]

Originally Posted by Christendom [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

It's important to remember that "The Victim" is another manifestation of the shadow, and it's nice to see that you're coming to terms with that and releasing your self from its bondage.

Thank you for your wisdom [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.] I am grateful.

[magnetaress]

Druids really scare me a lot. It is very dangerous and a lot of harm can be done when trying to strive for some balance between good and evil, darkness, light, life, and death, destruction, and creation, or rebirth and renewal. I feel like druids do this without much consent.

[magnetaress]

I doubt there is any one single pure class concept that is not without its faults. I wonder what is the most Christlike? Jesus was less keen on hurting others and more keen on empowering those around him. He was probably a bard because he was given knowledge and insight beyond human ability. And rather than use it for his own self he shared himself with the poorest, weakest, meekest, and sickest among us.

I wonder what everyone else's thoughts are.

[Sethius Marlowe]

You see... some people look at the world and they see what is happening and what could happen. I sees the world like this.

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[solleks]

No one reads your post history cat walker

[Sethius Marlowe]

Cause y’all are dumb dumbs.

[Wonkie]

The cross is the best weapon, it does 2x+1 damage more than the axe.

[JurisDictum]

holy water way better turd, bet my mouth+feet richter time beats your best.